Tears

I am in a bad mood right now, all thanks to a asshole in my life, they really made me angry and hate myself and my life. I don't get mad a lot, i try to submerge my feelings, because i am in a family were no one really does show their feelings, I have a dad who doesn't really comfort you or really tell you that he loves you and secretly try's to help me out because if his wife found out she would bitch to him about it. Then i have a sister who thinks a lot like my dad and has only two emotions, ok and really bitchy and you can't argue with her because she can get really loud and even bitchier and i can't even confide in her so i only tell her selected things. Then there is my mom she's the only one really i can talk to, but she has been through so much in her life that she is not really right in her mental self, so it's hard to be around her. Then there is me usually alone, not many friends, to scared to do anything about my problems, sometimes it's just good to let stuff out, through this whole thing i was in tears and I think it's what i needed. I love my family don't get me wrong, you can't pick your family and so i must live with their faults as they must live with mine. I feel much better thank you. My friend is coming over to take me out and chill somewhere. i just need to listen to come good loud music and not think about what happened today.

Alcohol and tears don't mix unless you have a friend there joining you, never drink alone or drive while drinking not don't drive alone.

XOXO D