Rest in Peace YumYum

Today at 2:38 Pm I held my baby in my arms , and her body shook rapidly for a moment and then she died.

YumYum was my first rattie to ever own, she was very sweet rat and I will never forget her, she was my friend, she would make me smile and laugh at the funny and cute things she did, her rattie sisters loved her. I loved her with all my heart and tried everything in my power to make her comfortable in her last moments on earth, I am just happy I got to have the privilege of having such a beautiful, smart, special little rattie girl as YumYum was, even though I am going through hell right now in missing her and wishing she wasn't gone, I would never ever ever ever regret having her in my life and i will cherish each moment I had with her, she may be gone, but forever loved and missed. I love you YumYum I hope you watch over me and your rattie sisters.

What a Nice Turn out

Well the day started boring I watched a movie called "Yellow Beard" eh it was ok, it combined some people who play in Mel Brooks movies and with the people who play in the Monty Python movies, but it wasn't that funny.

Then i took a shower and straightened my hair because i thought i would be going on a date , but i didn't happen , and then i was just redoing my Bella garden in that game i play and i get a text from my friend Melissa , who went to Vegas for the weekend, I was invited but didn't have the money. So she asked if i wanted to go to a bar and hang out with this girl that she's been talking to, and i was like i don't have any money and she said neither did she and so i was like ok i guess it will be nice to get out of the house.

So she came over and i dried some clothes for her and did her hair , and we realized the bar we are headed to is located right by where asshole is my ex, but i wasn't freaking out, actually my friend was more for me, and she's like if you feel u need to leave just say so and we are gone but i told her it was cool, we went to Liam's Pub , yup a Irish bar , so we met up with her friend and at first is was awkward and then it got more chill, it was pretty cool, they had karaoke going on, so me my friend melissa and these girls Johnnie and Monica were sitting at a table and someones pitcher of beer was sitting there we were all making jokes like we are going to drink it and shit, and then the owner came to pour some of his beer in his cup and me and Melissa were talking with him , and it was cool, his name was Matt and then me and him started flirting and then i gave him a back massage lol, we started talking and Melissa and the girls went out side, and me and Matt continued talking and he kept saying that i looked like Lacey Chambert the girl who played in "party of five" and " Not Another Teen Movie" well thats all i know her from lol, any who he asked to kiss me and so i did , at first i was going to say know but his beautiful blue eyes pulled me in lol and i gave him a kiss , didn't like the scratchy beard but it was ok, and he said i kiss very well, and then we talked more but i was shy now because we kissed and so i said i was going to go outside with my friends and he said he would be out there in a moment , so my friend was like we so saw what you did and i blushed , so he did join us and everyone was talking , but it was sooo cold outside that we went back inside, but Matt stayed outside, and so we talked watched people make asses of themselves on Karaoke , and then later on Matt brought out a camera and started taking pictures of everyone and then he kept taking them of me , and the girls were playfully calling him my stalker it was funny because like outta no where he would take pictures of me lol, so i was debating weather to give him my number, i even wrote it out on a piece of paper but at the end of the night i decided not to , so we went out side because the bar was closing and Johnnie and Monica asked if i gave him my number and i said no, and Monica took the paper and went back inside and gave him my number , lol so we will see if he calls, she said he told her he sooooo was. then we were chatting with the girls a bit more and then these guys came out and were like can you take us to del taco and he said he would get us something to eat as well, so Melissa said yes and we took him and he bought us food it was awesome and delicious, and so we went back to the bar dropped the guy off and then the girls sat in Melissa's car and we ate the food talked more and drew funny pictures on Melissa's fogged up windows, it was great and then they left and Melissa took me home. I didn't think i was going to have a good time at a bar, well last time i didn't and I didn't think I would get hit on either, i mean i was wearing my Ultra sexy dress so hey, and i didn't think about where I was exactly , because i was to busy have a fun time with good people, and we got invited to a concert the one girls brother is having.

So all in all my day was on the tad boring side, but my evening was a blast.

On sat. my sister and her family came over and we started to watch "Gamer" but it was a bit on the overly weird side , so then we switched over to watching "Hurt Locker" which was pretty good, it kept me interested. I got to hold Bella and i Fed her which was weird and scary , because i don't want to mess up ya know.

Well that's all for now I am tried and I am going to bed , hopefully i have good dreams. Night Night all.

XOXO D

Its a Splash Splash Splash

Yesterday I gave my Ratties a bath all except my baby girl Kyoshi because she keeps her tail and fur very clean , but as for the others muhahaha they needed a bath so i had bought some Ferret shampoo which was told it can also be used on rats so that was cool. so I wasn't about to put all three together in the tub because i had the distinct feeling they are not going to like this one bit.

So i started with Yumyum because i thought she would be the least trouble, but actually she was the worst to deal with, i filled the tub with luke warm water and only filled it til it covered my hand at least then i put her in there and covered her with water she immediately did not like it and tried to crawl up my arms and was trying to cling on my arms and not let go lol it was hilarious but i put her back in the water got a drop of the shampoo and rubbed it on her fur then she darted off in between my legs and was determined to make a way out lol, finally i washed the shampoo out of her fur and tried to get her tail but when she had enough and would continuous try to run up my arm i took her out wrapped her in a towel and tried to dry her off a little then put the towel down on the toliet lid and placed her atop of it and she started to clean herself after she was finished i helped her with rest then we went back into my room where i used the lowest setting on my hair dryer to finish drying her so she wouldn't be cold , and then put her back in the cage and gave her a treat i gave her a yogurt drop not a yogie because these things are massive yogies are small.

Next was Butterz lol, so the same i filled the tub yadda yadda, and then put miss butterz in the tub and got her wet she looked like a little noodle lol, and then she was not having it and was trying to jump out lol constantly lol, she was like a little jumping bean i wish someone was with me that could of filmed it because it was hilarious well maybe next time , but she let me put the shampoo on her and then clean it off and like the same with Yummers i dryed her then let butterz do her thing and then once she was done took her in my room and used my hair dryer , gave her a treat and popped her into her cage.

Then it was Sunflowers turn , now i thought she would be the worst i thought oh man i am either going to get scratched up even worse or bitten , so took her into the bath room filled the tub and placed her in and she was a little scared but she wasn't that bad she let me do my thing and then took her out and and she did her thing , took her into the room and used my hair dryer, gave her a treat and put her back home.

now they all pooed in the water lol, but butterz was the only that did a single poo lol, and don't worry even tho Kyoshi didn't get a bath she still got a yogurt drop. The experience wasn't half bad, actually it was quiet entertaining and i did take pictures of them all wet and look like drowned rats lol, but my computer needs to be cleaned out before i put any more pics on it sorry. but the pictures are adorable lol.

Also my friend Kevin wanted to hang out and tells me he has a gf and i was like say what i thought he was still mourning over the girl he lost , but i guess not, so we drove over to see my friend Melissa and we talked with her a bit but she was tired and we didn't stay to long, so i decided to try and find this place i went once time instead of green spot and we actually ended up kinda up the 18 frwy and saw a amazing view of the city, i just wish i had my camera it was utterly gorgeous.

We didn't hang out to long and he took me home, also the night this guy i had been talking to off and on was texting me and wanted to hang out today, but because its be crazy raining we couldn't , because he rides a bike so ya that sucked, but what sucked more is that i looked up tumors on rats and came to this one site and was reading about what happens and started crying massivly again, but it was my fault i read it and kept reading it , i just want to know what to look for and stuff, and this ladies website had a lot of good information on it was pretty cool, but everytime i would try to calm my tears i would just read something else and here comes the flood , and then my friend Kevin called while i was in the middle of this ongoing thing and he wanted to come get me and make me stop reading, but it's good to find things out and learn what to look for and stuff, but i told him i am doing laundry as well and i think Melissa wanted to hang later this evening and he said oh ok well let me know, and i said ok. lol

so i ment to blog last night but i guess i got caught up with something else, i was day dreaming like i usually always do and i had a image of having my four girls tattooed on me like to look realistic not cartooned like they do for people, because i love my girlies so much, i know i say that alot , but man i do i love my rats they are the coolest girls who do the funniest things that make me laugh so much and i love to laugh so that's cool.

I need shoe laces lol, random i know but also yesterday before i gave my rats a bath i went into my old room which is now the storage place, and crawled around the maze of boxes and bins and got to my crap , i was trying to find my heater but i don't know what happened to it, something tells me asshole has it erg, any who i opened this one box and found CONDOMS lol no acutally that was in a suitcase but i knew that was in there lol, no i found this sword that i had bought from Medieval times this is one awesome sword i don't know why i didn't take it down, oh yea i do because i have enough crap in this room lol, but i also found this jacket that is like many sizes tooo big but it's like awesomely cool, then i found some shoes that look freakin brand new , but they have no laces lol, so yea i want to wear them , but i have no laces lol, its funny they are vans.

Not sure whats going on tommorow i might have a photo shoot with some beautiful girlies lol. but we will see what happens, ok i am going to attempt to try and clean my room again lol. night all enjoy the rain our world needs it. :3



XOXO D

A Storm to remember

Ok so I am sorry it's been about a week since my last post, ya know i mean to come on and put stuff on but i just get carried away with other crap , so i am sorry for not being on the ball . so whats been going on with me you ask well here we go lol.

So last week on Tuesday the 12th I went with my friend Kevin to hang out with some of his friends and we went to a bar over in Montclair, it was ehhh interesting to say the least, i did get some delicious tacos from the bar we went to , sorry don't recall the name, and also Kevin bought me a Midori Sour the first alcoholic drink i really enjoyed awww memories hehe, anyway so we hung out with a couple and they were pretty cool and nice, but also liked to be dirty and i think they were trying to shock me or something , i had long nails then :( (had so sad i cut them two days ago and i miss them ) and i asked Kevin if i could scratch him , because i am weird like that , but i figured he would say no, but he said yes and we agreed i was to scratch him on the arm and dayum i left a super mark on his arm i even like took skin off lol , so then we left the bar and the couple and we went to go find a 24 hour IHOP and we did and we ate pancakes delicious yummy in my tummy.

oh i also cleaned my ratties cage during the day on Tuesday and they were so happy its super duper clean .

and forgive me but i have no idea what i did on Wednesday lol

so onto Thursday , me and Kevin hung out again , but he was texting me telling me he had threw up in the morning and i was like well then why are you wanting to hang out , but he said he had to get out of the house so i was like ok, and he came over and I had him go to Market Night in redlands, because he has never been, so that's cool that i got to show him that , he thought it only happened once a month and i said nope every Thursday lol, so then it doesn't take to long to go through there so then he wanted to see inside the very pathetic sad mall of redlands and then we left he wasn't feeling good but he still wanted to hang out, so we went to green spot and chilled but he was beginning to feel worst so i told him take me home then take your sick ass home and get rest.

Then friday i tried a new hair style it was supposed to be like rockerish , but i failed at because my hair is too long for the style but it was poofy lol and i did take some cute pics of it, it's on my myspace.

Then saturday my sister and family came over and we watched "The Perfect Getaway" with Milla Jovovich, Steve Zahn, Timothy Olyphant, it was ok , not really good but not bad either it was just ok and um that Timothy character mmmmmmm that is so a later blog lol. So everything was going good on that day until that night after my sister and them left , i was talking with my sister previously when she was there about my rat Yumyum and how i noticed she's been eating a hella a lot , like every moment she's awake she's eating and really that isn't normal, and i told her shes even getting fat , so after they left i went and took Yumyum out of her cage and her tummy was hard in a certain area and so i realized it was a tumor my hurt crashed and i begun to cry and cry and cry and develop a headache so i took some random pills i had in my drawer ( lol later i found out it's just regular Tylenol) and man it made me pass out , but before i had i so wanted to call asshole for some stupid ass reason i don't know why, but i didn't thank the lord i called my friend Melissa but she had went up into the mountains for the weekend and there is no signal where she goes so i left a voicemail.

So on Sunday i woke up and felt like utter shit , i mean i slept good but i was still very much depressed over the fact that i am going to lose my Yumyum soon , Melissa called me back her calling actually woke me up , but i was soo sad i just didn't want to talk to anyone at the moment i just kinda wanted to dwell and cry and get it out of my system because i was going to have to go out the next day , so i cried on and off , i just tried to keep my mind off of it as well, but my friends kept calling or texting me to find out what was up. I ate dinner and my dad asked me what was wrong and i just couldn't even talk , i would about to but then i could feel that i would cry and i just didn't want to i just wanted to eat and then go back into my area lol, then my friend was calling , i was hoping she would come over to comfort me after work, but she is having issues with her car, and then Kevin wanted to pick me up and i was like why don't u get melissa and come over here , but it didn't work out and i just was like whatever and i tried to go to bed but i didn't get to sleep til like 4 am.

So Monday I got to be with my mom, she came over to take me to go get rat food and shampoo lol, and then we came back , and my other rat Sunflower needed her tooth cut again and so we did that , and it went a whole lot smoother then last time that was cool, and you should see the size of this one i think it was really keeping her from eating well, so i am glad we got it she seems happier I love all my ratties. I am glad i just took the time Sunday to cry and mourn over Yumyum because i was able to function and even talk about it so i see this way I am going to enjoy every moment she is alive with me , and just be very very sad when its her time. so then after that my mom wanted to have me come over and cook me dinner and watch "The Hangover" So i had a great meal home cooked is always good or i should when my mom cooks it's always good lol, and she liked the movie she thought i was very funny.

Then Tuesday lol sorry almost done hehe, we went over to my sister and visited with her and Bella and it was grand being with my family because i love them so very much and they make me happy and smile, and laugh. Especially that precious little angel Bella i got to hold her a lot usually i am scared because she is sooo small, but actually she is getting bigger and lovelier lol.

So that is whats been going on and i think the rest of the week will be tame not much else going on OH I am going to try and give my ratties a bath lol , tomorrow , but i may change my mind because of the weather i don't want them to freeze , but i just want to clean them up especially their tails, everyone's tail needs cleaning except Kyoshi's she keeps her tail and her fur immaculate lol. so we shall see what happens oh mean today Wednesday, i want them clean because i want to do a photo, especially Yumyum because she could be gone anytime and i want as many memories of her as possible, some memories i wish i never made and wish i could have removed , but not her not my ratties i will never regret getting them as much as it will hurt to lose them , they have made me very happy and i love them soo much that's why it hurts so much when they go, but they are my little angels.

XOXO D

Belated Happy New Year

so yeah sorry it's been a while since i came on to blog about stuff , this would happen is that i would want to but then i would forget about it sorry.

so here is the low down with whats been going on.

My sisters baby my new niece Bella is doing great and she is adorable and beautiful and i love her to pieces YAY!!!!

My best friend had a new years eve party but it was kinda lame, been on a few dates , but still haven't found anything worthwhile and actually getting to the point where i just don't care anymore and going to stay away from the dating scene for awhile, just getting fed up .

seen a couple of movies the first i want to point out is "Avatar" that movie was freakin awesome loved best money i ever spent on a movie and would love to see it over and over and over again it was just that amazingly good , it took my breath away.

then i saw "District 9" that was a pretty good movie i enjoyed it .

"Did you hear what happened to the Morgans" eh it was ok it was cute.

"Public Enemy Number One" Boooooring , but at least got to stare at cute Johnny Depp and wish that he was a guy pining for my love *sigh*

"Paranormal Activity" well a few things i thought it was going to be a lot freakier and scary, but it was kinda boring in places and well i could sleep that night and i am a scardy cat when it comes to movies like that so it was really tame.

"Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs" OMG it was awesomely funny from start to finish i soooo enjoyed it and i want to see it again , it was cute , hilarious just a great movie to watch, especially if you want to laugh.

so that pretty much catches you up to the movies I've seen thus far, the ratties are all fine, i really want to get some shampoo tho and give them bathes especially my little YumYum her tail needs a good cleaning.

not much else to say just thought that i would spill what was going on, and i will try to update more often then waiting a while before i do , trying to get motivated to really get my life together but it's so hard i am just not sure where i need to start or how to get where i need to go. well night night everyone.

XOXO D