Last blog of the year

So it's time for another new year to begin, what will happen in this new year, possibly a better time then this last year, 2010 was not a good year the couple of months have been just not so good and i am just glad to say goodbye to this year, not getting into anything, but i am glad that i have my family, who has been there for me when i needed them the most, and for my rats that gave me love and affection. Not sure if i am doing all to much tonight i might just have dinner with my sister and some friends, i did have a opportunity to go get drunk, but in my fragile state i've been in the last few weeks i don't really think that drinking is going to make things better lol, just a simple celebration for me, you know i don't even recall what i did for last new years. well i hope everyone has a safe and fun time bringing in the new year and I hope your 2010 year was better then mine and i hope for all of us the 2011 is going to be great, i don't really do resolutions because i never do them, but i think just working on becoming a better me is always in the works. So til next year bye for now!!!!

XOXOXO D

Merry Christmas

Holy cow haven't written in such a long time so i thought it would be a good time to do it lol, and say MERRY CHRISTMAS. sorry i've been so busy this month its been nuts, doing those drawings, for the 12 days of christmas, working, getting the gifts for family, wrapping, My nieces first bithday having it in the mountains, crazy rain weather, woosh and so much more, hopefully things will take a little break and calm down, but now to much don't want to be to boring ya know lol, well that is all i can say right now, i still have to get ready before my family gets here, So MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A FANTASTIC DAY!

long time no see dear friend lol

sorry its been a while since i posted, not like i have any fans or anything, but still i like to write for me, anyway this has been one shitty ass month for i think me and my whole family, and some other people i know. i should of posted this the day it happened but i was to distraught to and i just don't think i was ready to divulge the information yet on here, so any way i was seeing some one , it actually happened pretty fast and ended that way too kinda smelled that one coming, but anyway on to the important stuff, my rat butterz i can tell was getting on in her short life span, she even had a bump by her groin the seemed troublsome , i hadn't been able to get her to the vet , but i knew i had to make time especially since she began to grow a bump on the side of her face and i was going to take her to the vet to have it removed, but the night before her vet appointment the bump poped and it was oozing puss, so i took her in to the vet as scheduled and the doctor took a look at her and said they were going to put her under and take a look and clean her up, and to pick her back up at like 3 so the time came around i got my butterz back and she has sutures in her face the doctor told me to bring back in 12 days to have them removed, and also that she has cancerous tumors inside of her that will be the death of her i wept for my baby girl, took her home and tried to make her as comfortable as possible, the next day thursday 11th i was getting ready for work, and it was weird too, because my work called me wanting me to come earlier then i was scheduled because someone didn't show up so i was busy getting my stuff together and then i noticed my butterz , that something was wrong with her and i went to her side and discovered she was bleeding and she had bled a lot around her cage, i got her out and saw she poped open her sutures , i called the vet told me to bring her in gathered what i could and my dad took us to the vet, but due to loss of blood and shock she died on my lap told my dad to turn around, my dad comforted me the best he knows how and told me we will bury her next to her sisters, this loss was really hard for me i took it hard and i could not let go of her for the life of me i held on to her for a long time in my arms, but finally wrapped her up in her blanky she loved to sleep on and gave her a picture of me and some yogies and put her in her little coffin and i also wrote on it kissed and said goodbye and gave her to my dads wife to bury i ran in my room and cried, i was going to call off work, but i didn't i went it and i am glad because it kept my mind of her til i got home , the next few days were very hard, i expected to see her run out to greet me or be there to get a treat, and everytime i would tell her story tears would feel my eyes, like they are now, i loved my little butterz you will never know how much, i am so glad my Kyoshi has Lola or i don't think she would of been around much longer, Kyoshi and Butterz were a pair, i feel butterz was stolen from me, it wasn't her time yet, and i believe it was my fault i don't think I should of took her to the vet, because Kyoshi had a similar bump that went away and i think i should of let butterz managae it on her and she probably would of been around for a little longer, i mean no matter when she went it would still be hard as hell for me to say goodbye, but i miss my baby butterz so much so very very much, rest in peace my sweet butterz

this was when i first got her

Goodbye my baby girl..........

after that i felt empty and been putting on this facade of happiness i just don't think there is any real happiness for me out there, i mean yes i love my family and my two other ratties, but i mean something that will change this outlook i've always had , right now i am just living, being there for my family and my ratties, trying to figure out what i am going to do for the rest of this existence because suicide isn't a option at all, anyway, at work there was a guy interested in me, several online are interested in me, but i am sick of this men who think they know what they want but are just boys pretended to be men, so as of recent i've been taking a break and just focusing on whats in front of me , although i am crushing on someone who is talking to me online, he is incredibly sexy, the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen and he is a artist , but for now it's just this infatuation probably won't go anywhere but a simple back and forth on the internet, is love out there for me ? does love exist?

all that plus my mother is becoming a shut in and shuting me and my sister out, she was watching my niece during the week, but she is being a selfish brat and has stopped watching my niece, but i am watching her monday's , and a friend of my sisters is watching her up to friday and then my dad and his wife watch her, i enjoy my time with my niece, and i am glad i can be there for her , i don't even think i will be seeing my mother for thanksgiving even though we invited her and haven't spoken ill of her to her face, we understand she's going through something and we have moved on, but if she continues to push us a away what else is there to do but to stay away .

Other then all that, i try to draw , i play with my ratties and love and cherish my time with them, i want to design a tattoo of all them, and put it on my back, I am addicted to this show called Heros, it's made me laugh and cry and not want to look away, i am obessed with owl jewelry if i like it i want it basically lol. well that's pretty much it for now i am tired but i think i want to draw and then i will get some rest , have to do laundry tomorrow lol.

For now my lovelys

XOXO D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

For my first blog of the month i thought it should come on my birthday, already this early morning i have received many birthday wishes from friends and family, and it really make me happy that i have these special people in my life that care enough to wish me a happy birthday, i wish i had the day off, but unfortunately i have to go into work today, but still it feels very nice to have people care to wish me happy birthday. well another birthday for me is here and today i turn 26 years old, wasn't it just yesterday I had turned 25 may where does the time go , speaking of time its about that time i head off to work, well to all those other people whose birthday's are today HAPPY BIRTHDAY and hope your day is great and your wishes come true.

XOXO D

Long Long Long ago

I used to write in my blog lol, but i guess work and other things, have been keeping me from doing so sorries. I ve really been meaning to just come on here and keep it up but then dang i would get distracted with something else i swear i have the mind of like nat lol or a crow because i like shiny things haha.

So other then working and making some money, i've been trying TRYING to draw; ok so like for the month of october i wanted to draw about 20 drawings of pictures related to halloween and so i was supposed to do five for every week of october but yea that didn't quiet work out lol, I actually only have about six done so yea I am like waaaaaay behind. so then beside trying to draw but not being succesful at it lol , ive been hanging out with my family, carving pumpkins, hanging out with some new people and some old friends, opened a new bank account with a new bank.

I am actually excited for halloween because i am dressing up as a witch and well i am doing it because we can dress up for work, and its soooo cute but i got a little broom pen its so fucking awesome i love it, and its my niece's first halloween and my sister is going to dress her up as a pumpkin at first i hated the idea and thought she should be something more cute and stuff, but actually when had her try on the costume oh man it was soooooooo adorable i broke down and loved the idea i even based the idea on one of the drawings i completed =) so yea . Oh man just now i had a totally awesome idea as a prop for my costume holy monkey since I am a witch and like my jewelry is spider related i should so get a big spider prop as my pet with a collar oh man that would be sooooo cool, but i am pretty busy and don't always have a ride to places so i don't know if i can rig it , plus i still have to buy my step nephew a bday gift but tuesday i am going with a friend to get a tattoo done and so i am sure they have piercings for sell well hopefully .

So right now i am in this new place at a friends sleeping over so we can go early up in the high desert to get the tattoo done and i feel really uncomfortable but i am sooooooooooo happy i brang my lap top and that i was able to get internet connection, i was going to try and draw but its too dark and i can't have the lights on, miss my home or i mean my room where i am comfortable and can have the light on lol. oh well its just for tonight and then i will be home and probably bitch about being there and never getting out of my little place , but thats me bitch bitch bitch and bitch some more lol. well i am going to go check my email someone who i used to talk to about 10 years ago sent me a message and i am really eager to read it, i love it when i get all giddy when i have something to read , which if you knew the situation right now i shouldn't be idk anyway, i will try to update my blog, but really i was thinking of blogging else where, i really like tumbler and there is a place called blog spot or maybe i should see if my old live journal one is still around i like went on it once and then like never again, AHHHHHH my computer is dying it needs juice and i have no hole, lol that sounds soooo wrong oh well, NIGHT EVERYONE .

XOXO D

Hi Ho Hi Ho it's off to work i go

so for a long time now I have been unemployed, for the most part it was nice, to sleep in, do what i wanted, practice drawing and so on and so forth, but then the bad part was no money, no money, no money lol, and so not being able to do many fun things that require you to have money, so today i went into work to fill out some remaining papers and i thought i would have the rest of this week to be bum a little longer lol, but they asked me when i could start and i was like whenever lol, and they said ok how about this week and i said ok, and then they were figuring out when and they are like ok how about tomorrow, and i said ok lol, but i did have plans to go somewhere, but i had to cancel them because i have this weird vacation time coming up real soon and i will only be able to get a ride to work on the weekends and then i am stuck at home for the rest of the weekdays so i thought i should be accommodating for them for now lol, and plus i have Wednesday off and then i work Thursday and Friday which is cool i don't mind, although i am scared how i am going to do and everything and how i will get along with the other people, there are still a lot of people there that i know and that's cool, because they are really nice people so i hope i continue to be on their good side. but it was funny, there is this like one form i had to fill out and i had to show them my id, its expired lol, and they needed a new one so after filling everything out and getting my shirt uniforms and such i left there and went to the dmv to renew my id, didn't take to long and then i had to go get a lock for the locker i will have over there. So i am going back and i am scared, nervous and excited and i hope i sleep good tonight so that i will be ready for the day ahead of me. I will post another blog up on Saturday to tell you how my work week went and so forth. so for now tah tah lol.

XOXO D

Oddles of Noodles

sorry been bad about posting again so lets see last time i blogged i didn't know if i was going to be going to the beach, well we did , but we left let got there it was overcast and cold and we didn't swim, we went all the way to Malibu to have dinner on the beach lol.

then last week on Wednesday my old friend from hs came over and we watched some movies trying to get her mind off of her recent break up, then Thursday me and my BFF Melissa gathered up some people and we went to the park and had lunch and a water balloon fight it was way fun. then Saturday my family went to The L.A County fair it was fun and it wore me out, but then Sunday i hung out with my mom for some of it, then hung out with my sister and her family and my dad and i worked on doing things on their computers i was supposed to go out that night, but luckily i didn't because i was swamped.

I entered about five pieces to this lap top contest and i had fun creating all of them, i hope at least one gets recognized but like in every contest i have entered so far there are a lot of other greater talented people, but its all about practice and becoming one of the best, then i drew a picture for this new friend and they really like it and want some more so they can decorate their walls, because their walls are bare, so i have been just kicking it for a the last two days watching stuff like last night i watched the whole 3rd season of The Big Bang Theory, and then today i got half way through this one show called Freaks and Geeks, but i think tomorrow i will began to draw again.

Just trying to watch what i can and sleep in when i can, because soon, i will be joining the work force again, yup after three years i believe of being on a work break i am going back, i had been looking for work and was hoping to find something good that i would enjoy doing, but looks like i will be getting my old job back the one i quit so i could move away to ventura yay lol, i am sad sort of, but also glad i will have money to do stuff now thank goodness, you should see the list i made of things i want to save up for and buy top thing on my list clothes, especially jeans, most of my jeans have holes in them and need to be replaced, then i want to save for a better phone, and for a bed for the room i am in as of right now i sleep on a futon.

I was going to blog and then watch a movie, but i think that i am just going to go to bed i think that will be good, i need to get my sleep schedule to a decent hour.

So like i said i have been watching this show called Freaks and Geeks and it's so funny i've never heard of it til i was reading someones blog and they posted a clip of the intro to the show and it was showing who was in the cast and i couldn't believe seth rogen is in it all young and Jason Segel who played in I love you man , forgetting sarah Marshall , ya know at first i didn't like him, but he has grown me and i think he is the man of my dreams lol, so funny i just messing because i don't even know how he is in real life and he could be like a real douche bag, but man he is sooooooooooo cute in freaks and geeks , plus he is real tall, and i like a tall man, could you imagine us together hehe so cute , he is 6'4 and i am 5'2 eeeek so cute and he would bend down and kiss me, ah to dream, hopefully i will dream of him tonight meow, i wish i could do that Lucid dreaming i can control what i dream and what not, that would be killer awesome ok like if i could i would dream that he was a vampire and he wanted me, but his friends didn't want him to be around me and they always were trying to hurt me but he was there to save me and one night when we were hiding out i was so scared and their was a sound and it spooked me and he rushed to my side and held me close and told me everything was going to be alright and said a joke to make me laugh and then with his finger gently moved my face to his and he stared deeply into my eyes and smiled and said are you alright, already mesmerized by the intense moment we were having i was able to nod my head yes i moved my face closer to his all i could here was my breathing not that it was loud or anything it just was really quiet, i felt his hands reach around my back and he began pushing me towards him, and then i moved in and closed my eyes and felt his lips touch mine, his hand moved up to the back of my head and we began to kiss with delicious passion, i could feel his strength but i knew i had nothing to be afraid of, he was being gentle i pulled away and he looked down at the ground and instantly apologized i asked why and he said i don't want you to do anything you don't want to, i want to take it as slow as you would like then i moved his face to look at mine and i smiled and told him, ive been wanting to do that for a long long time and with a smirk he asked really, i nodded my head yes with smile with a crocked brow he asked would you like to do it again maybe for a longer moment, with a bright smile i agreed and i stood up and repositioned myself so that i was sitting on his lap facing him with my legs wrapped around him , ooo i like that he said he ran his hands up my legs and then up my back and pushed me towards him and this time i met his lips to mine.

Sorry about that , but when i feel inspired i feel inspired now i definitely hope i have a dream about that who is with me lol, next time i won't wait so long to write a blog, i mean i kinda just ran through what has been going on, if i didn't i think this blog would be several pages long lol.

One last thing, The third season of True Blood ended and i hate that i have to wait for its return, it really is a great show, and they left a lot of juicy cliff hangers, i am just so glad that my sister likes the show i love talking to her about it , now me and her have to find a new show to get into while we wait for the next season to arrive =)

alright well i believe that is it for now, til next time.

XOXO D

Life's a gamble

so like a lot has happened but then like not really lol, well last blog i spoke about my poor betta fish being kinda sick looking, and well last sunday after i got back from celebrating my moms birthday he was dead, sad but didn't cry. although i posted on facebook about what happened and some friend of my bff Melissa was saying some rude things, i tried to be nice and solve the situation calmly, but then my sister came in a ripped her a new one lol, it was cool, i like that i have a strong sister who wants to defend me =)

I am going to be returning to work finally, i wish it was something that i found on my own, but looks like that's not going to happen, but i have a chance to go back to my old job, even though i hated it, i need to work, it will be nice to have money to spend and do things, buy things, and be able to get my family things for birthdays and such, i always feel bad that i don't have much to offer, and they have helped me out so much.

I meet this new guy, he is really cool, we been on a few dates and he is really into me and so am i, but i am not counting my chickens just yet you never know what will happen, i mean i thought things were going well with Kurt and that was a dead end. so i am just taking it slow going with the flow.

Been working on this picture for him, and it is coming out really well, everyone seems to like it so that's cool, i had the idea in my head and was so worried how it was going to come out, but even i am proud of it =).

today my sister and her family would come over and we would have dinner and a movie, but when she came over, her husband didn't join, they got in a big fight and he wanted to stay home, and we were supposed to go to the beach, but i don't think that is going to happen, and then when they returned home, he wasn't there, but she said he was on his that he texted her, i just can't believe he is being so childish and doing shit like this , i mean he has a family, two kids and responsibility, i wish i was a boy so that i can be a protector to my sister if she needs it, i don't like her being sad, i know my sister is strong and she will leave and raise her baby on her own but still she doesn't need that bs ya know.

so we will see what happens with everything, men, family, and my art lol. well that's all i want to talk about for now laterz.

XOXO D

Who Dat?

So not a lot has been going on, been trying to work on some art stuff, like i am trying more stuff on photoshop not trying to be afraid of it and been working on some tutorials to learn things, its pretty cool, I did this really cool piece with space/stars its really pretty.

also been doing research on different stuff for this story i want to write it seems like it has a good possibility and so been trying to get that going.

I got really motivated and i started to apply for a bunch of jobs, hope i hear something from some one that would be cool.

Oh yea finally hung out with my Best friend Melissa been forever and a day, I caught her up on True Blood, always nice to watch that again =) but i think we are growing apart i just think she has a different life now with her gf, i mean they are having some issues, but other then that she's doing pretty good with her lucky for her, i am back on the market apparently.

Oh yea last friday i finished this one picture for a contest I drew a gothic lolita girl, really proud how she turned out, any way i stood up til like 3am and so i went to sleep and let my rattie babies run around in their little area like usual, well about 6 am i feel something run across my hand and i grab it and wake up and it's my rat butterz i am like what the hell, and put her back in the cage and i think she was out for some time because she drank a whole lot of water, but i couldn't believe she escaped, and i was like how in the world did she get down well i guess she finally jumped on to this thing that is close but it's a pretty steep jump, so i had to move it naughty little munchkin girl gees.

Today or yesterday I got to hang out with someone and play some pool it was fun even though i sucked ass lol, while i was playing i posted on facebook that it's a good thing we weren't playing for clothes or else i would be naked, it was so sad how bad i was sometimes i got the balls in the hole but mostly it was a bunch of hit and miss.

this weekend we are celebrating my moms birthday, i actually had some money and i could get her something, instead of drawing her a picture that she can't put up because she has a small place, so i got to buy her a purse had my dads wife drive me up to ross and i had like a bunch of purses on my arm that i liked for her, and hoped that i picked the right one and that she will like it and use it, oh man it was tough i saw a lot of purses over there that i really liked and i just held on to this one because i really liked it lol, but i was good i didn't buy anything for myself , plus i still need to get stuff that i need like body wash, anyway we are all hanging out sunday and making her dinner and then going to play some uno lol.

My poor Betta fish Dante is not doing well, i keep thinking i am going to wake up and he will be at the top floating dead, but every morning he survived another night poor thing i hope he isn't suffering, i wonder if he is eating anything, i will have to try and buy him some different food or something because it's sooo sad, and then i am trying in a different bowl to grow some aquatic plant bulbs, but it's taking forever and they aren't sprouting and i think that if i put some kind of plant in his bowl that it will really help him out, but who knows, maybe it's to cold in my room for him, maybe it was mistake buying him, i mean it was cool but i just don't have the money to buy him a elaborate set up and i read that they need a certain water temperature live food to eat i am just like damn its a fish , well we will see how long before he gives up, i've had him for like a month and some days.

So pretty much that's all that has been going on, just been kinda working on my art stuff, looking for a job, and dating again pssh i don't sound to bitter do i lol. no just sucks you think you found a guy who is serious and then you just get pulled around like a yoyo i mean is it that hard to tell someone they aren't interested or they can't do it, that just really pisses me off, tell it like it is so a person can move the f on for the love of monkey's lol. well if anything spectacular happens i will be sure to jump on and blog about it if not probably come back in a week like i usually do =)

XOXO D

Rwar i am back

Just kinda felt like writing, nothing spectacular happened, I just finished watching the Sex And The City movie the first one, haven't even seen the second but i do, i really hate myself for not going to go see it in theaters i did the first one and still have the ticket =) i am a sentimental person or a pack rat lol. Anyways so I was watching this movie and I am just like damn why in the hell does this show and movie make me so happy when I watch it , I mean i know that i wish that i had friends like Carrie does that i could easily talk to and stuff, but think about that just make me sad , but I realized that i love to watch good things happen to them, that i get so overjoyed to see them find love and make their families, i get sad when they get hurt, it's like in a way they are my friend through the time i watch them, but really I just realized it when watching when they smile i smile, I know its fiction, but it does happen, All I want for my Family and friends is happiness. Damn its a good show I still wish that it hadn't of ended, i mean i try to replace it with something else , but really there are no more girl shows that are honest and real and don't bull shit you or put out some pitiful statement, people may go oh it's just about sex, it has it's moments, but mostly it's about finding happiness, love, friendship life, i think everyone should give that show a watch even guys, because i've shown it to guys before and they enjoyed watching it, now the movie does go a little nuts with labels and stuff, but it's all good, and i wish that i could be as fashionable as they are, i love to look cute , i really wish i had this outlook in high school, i just wore whatever and slapped a hoddie over it, i am still not quiet where i want to be at in my clothes department but because of lack of funds that is why , trust me if i had the dough i would be dressing cute, this show always shows me something , each time i go back and watch it, I am sure your like damn settle down it's just a show, but no it's like a guide book parse, here and there their are words of wisdom, thoughts of gold, outlooks that you wouldn't have thought before and makes you go oh yea i know what your talking about , like for love this is what i want, this was said by Carrie Bradshaw in the last episode one season 6 "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love." that is so true who wouldn't want anything less then that, i just don't know why its so hard to find it. Somedays i think it would be better in New York, there is fashion, art, taxis lol, i just feel sometimes that it calls to me like sell shit Danielle and move your ass to new york give it a try, but i know not all of it is glamorous, and probably if i went i would be mugged of my glasses and then i would be wondering around half blind lol, do you think new yorkers secretly dream of coming to California, and Californian's dream of going to New York, maybe possibly, but probably not likely. I just want to live in a life that is going some where, I am doing something, having fun, so i don't look back on my life and go well that sucked and the best thing is leaving the earth to go to where ever we go when we die, i do not want that to happen and i guess that is my biggest fear to not of lived, and doesn't look so good me being freakin 25 and growing older by the day and the best thing in my life right now are my three beautiful ratties and my family. well I should stop dreaming and start living, but for now i should get my ass to bed 3 am gees i am a weirdo, need to start sleeping like a normal person, its funny your suppose to change your rats awake time to yours, because they are nocturnal creatures so they are up late at night, but as their owner you can actually switch their time, but it's like the little rascals switched me to their time.

well my bed is calling to me i should really answer it's call, I am glad i wrote i just felt a surge to do it. good night and pleasant thoughts.

XOXO D

Pain, pain and more pain

this past week I've had a lot of pains some physical, some emotional and then more physical.

I should be in bed, but i just finished watching the new episode of True Blood and it was awesome and I am still all giddy so can't drift off to sleep just yet.

its been another semi boring week not much to report back, my show So You Think You Can Dance ended last week, and the winner was the one i wanted to win yay, the girl won Lauren very happy to see her win although i so thought it was going to be Kent, totally knew it wasn't going to be Robert pehaa lol. I will miss the show and the great music i get from there.

Thursday night there was a meteor shower that i got to see a little of it was pretty cool, also got to hang out with a old friend/ old flame, it was odd at first but then slowly i was ok. Makes me think of that time of my life and i am glad i just remember the good times, which is weird because i almost always remember the bad times only, I asked myself if i could would i want to go out with him again and i don't think so, in some ways he has changed, like he used to smoke, but now he has stopped which is way cool, and other ways too, but then he is still the same and i really couldn't picture myself being his again, I think friends is a good place for us.

Friday my sister and them came over, i wasn't doing so well that day, and i really didn't want to hang out with them, but i clenched my fist and made myself go out and hang out with everyone, that night after they had all left i felt worse then before what sucks even more is i had no one to talk to about it, i did post on facebook that i was feeling lost, and my sister did respond saying she was there if i needed to talk, but it was late and she was probably was with the baby or sleeping, and then for some reason my friend thinks we are fighting, and anyway she isn't the type of person i could confide in anyway, it really is lonely in my world, so i cry and i get it all out and then go to my ratties and they help me get through it as well.

Saturday I was bed ridden i was in so much pain i could barely move it was horrific but i still got up and took a shower and dried off the damn shower doors too well wait no i didn't then but i did half the work i squeegeed it lol, but so i was in bed most of the time trying to sleep off my pain.

Sunday a friend of mine, best friend of my sisters had her baby shower luckily i wasn't in so much pain, when i started to falter my mom gave me some medicine, love my mommy =)anyway it was a pretty good shower i guess, i've only been to two and one i helped host it was my sisters, and then now this one, the food was really good, can't go wrong with Mexican food yummy, I even mades me a plate to take home, so we played games i didn't win any fail, my sister won the baby raffle so happy for her yays, she made a diaper cake anyway and it was awesome so she soooo deserved to win. then when it came time to open the gifts some how i got rounded up to pass them to her and then take them to another place once they were opened it was odd, but kinda glad i got to help in some way, just wish i didn't wear my heels ouchie big time. The cake was delicious me had me some seconds it was just so good. Afterward me and my mom hung out for a little bit.

Also i've been hooked on this anime called Fruits Basket, it's totally cute and awesome i don't know why i didn't watch it before i think because i thought it was too trendy or something, but i know why everyone likes it now because it's freaking awesome,:::: so nerdalicious right now lol::::: Also i have been reading this Manga Graphic Novel called Hot Gimmick, i had Volume 1 and i reread it, and now i am reading the rest of the volumes and i am addicted it's so awesome, i probably would of kept reading the other night til morning but then my back started to hurt really bad, much like it is right now, and when i woke up this morning it hurt even more i went most of the day with the pain finally told my dad and donna about it and she put some hot ice on my back and that really helped like majorly but now it's hurting again, if it hurts when i wake will make sure to put more of the ice hot stuff on.

one last thing before i pass out from back pain lol, not really but it's starting to bug a bit. I still have no idea whats going on with my love life and that's all i am going to say about that , goodnight everybody I am outta here.

XOXO D

Late night with Laundry

So not to much has been going on, decided to blog since I am up late finishing my laundry I started kinda late because ......... i wanted to lol, but i needed to get it done i hadn't done it in a while because of all the remodeling going on in the house, and then Donna's family was here just for like two days but altogether it was six people sleeping in the house so it was a major bitch to get a shower lol.

I worked on some drawings that i colored with pastels, they are ok nothing special no aw factor, which sucks , because i wanted it to be that way so that i could win a contest for once, but they don't look professional they look as though a child has done them, but i did enjoy drawing them , one is of a canyon and the other is of a island of rabbits lol, everyone is nice and saying they are pretty and all, but family and friends don't count lol when it comes to criticizing your work.

Friday i got to hang out with my sister and niece Bella, it was a lot of fun, we went shopping for a friends baby shower gift, on the way we saw this poor mama pit bull dog running around the parking lot, she was sooo skinny i wish i had some food for her, and you could really tell she was a mommy dog.

I haven't seen Kurt since Wednesday, he had his kids this weekend so he had his hands full, and he seems to be missing me, but i am not sure, i think there was a shift some where, because in the beginning he would email me quiet frequently during the day, but recently his email output to me has diminished lol, i am sure i am making a big deal out of it, but that's what i do best is worry and doubt lol, so terrible, i miss him, i want to see him, just doesn't feel he wants to see me , sorry i think its going to be my women time soon , being all emotional and stuff. I just not secure in what is exactly going on here. I was hanging out on facebook and this guy messaged me, we went out a few times but then he got all busy or something and i had not heard from him, and i had liked him he was really cool, so anyway he messaged saying "oh your with someone now" and i was like "yup" and i was talking to him about how it was going my worries and concerns and the jerk has nerve to ask if he could come over and ya know lol, i was like um no i have a bf lol, but for a little bit was like relentless about it, hell no man i was not going there. he said something to me though when i was talking about my issues, he said we didn't have chemistry, but what is chemistry, i don't believe in that really, i believe you make it what you want, i like Kurt and things may be difficult right now but i am not going to just give up and wash my hands of something that could be amazing.

Saturday we had a bbq with donna's family and my sisters stepson came home from Pennsylvania, so it was a real full house lol, and we watched a movie called " Green Zone"

then sunday my mom came to hang out with me we did our thing, and she was trying to look for a new cell phone, but the company she has , and she has a prepay does not carry the kind of phone she wants, she wants a similar phone like mine with the qwerty keyboard, so i was telling her about all the different types of prepays they had that carried a qwerty phone, but she got a bit frustrated and was like never mind, i mean she doesn't really need a qwerty phone but she could of got a better phone for her company cause her's is old lol. but oh well not going there lol. Then for a long ass time i have been wanting this toy, don't laugh , but i love cute things and dinosaurs lol, so back in freaking november i saw this really cute dinosaur toy robot, who growls, and snaps and when filled with water will squirt you when it opens it's mouth it is freaking awesome and adorable, but it was like almost 40 bucks , so today i went to the toy section at first just to see how much their uno cards cost, and he was in the same vicinity, i should have just bought the uno cards, such a fun game would of loved to play it with Kurt, but anyway so i stared at him the dinosaur robot and saw that his price went down, i am surprised he is still there he has been there for a long time lol, and i would always think of him, so i bit the bullet and got him, my mom shook her head at me, but i don't care he is soooo cute and awesome here is a picture of my dinosaur robot named Kato hehe .





he is cool, and sits right by my lap top little Kato =)

so i am like hella tired and want to go to sleep but i think i still have like a half an hour before my blanket dries and that's the last bit of laundry i have, i actually wanted to wash this other blanket but i think i will hold off til morning lol. so this sunday is my friends baby shower, and i don't know what else will be going on but i will be on again soon to let ya know. kisses bitches lol

XOXO D

Vibrant Colors

So all of the sudden I just started crying, and it was a hard cry too, not sure what that all was about, well I do , but i am not going to get into that whole mess. Just a moment I was in a pretty good mood too, I had just finishing watching a really badass episode of True Blood, trying to color a drawing of mine (even though that is going kinda sour) but i am still having fun doing it, and the most great news, is that guy Kurt is my bf yay, established that on monday when he came to hang out with me at my house we watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" and ate some tamales yum, i had a good time. so i am not sure what is bringing on these tears why i had a sad moment, i hate crying, but man do i wish that i could cry red tears wouldn't that be wicked, or even like black, but it wouldn't stain just roll off like regular tears.

so on sunday I went with my mom to my uncle roberts to hang out at first it was really really boring and i was about to pass the f out lol, but then they were like lets play uno and i was like hells ya ok, but i didn't find out til later that i could of hung out with Kurt, but he didn't let me know til it was to late, what a goober, and he had made it seem like he was going to be all busy with shit. But actually we weren't even suppose to hang out monday, but i was playing with him that he should come over and have some tamales with which were hella good yum i say, and then he was like ok here i come and i was like oh man ok hurried and cleaned up because clothes and stuff were on the ground and i was sorting my color pencils and they were all over my bed lol. I also really didn't want to see him to later in the week because of my stupid sun burn, it's still a pain in my ass, well actually back i mean it's not as severe but now it's starting to itch which sucks and it's hella sensitive, but when we were sitting together watching the movie and he would run his fingers over my back it tickled but it was really cool too hehe.

Monday also started redoing the bathroom which me and my dad share, so now we have to share Donna's bathroom which is weird, but so far the bathroom is coming along pretty cool, but what sucks is they took out the tub so it's just going to be a standing shower eh oh well, when i get my own house whatever i so what a big tub and just chill and i want it to look over my bad ass backyard paradise hells ya.

I should go to bed but i don't know i want to try and finish this picture i am working on but the crying kinda wore me out =( but most likely i will stay up lol. well til laterz.

XOXO Danielle

Much Ado About Something

I write to you ending a very long and interesting day, so my day started at 6:30am, got up took a shower and then straightened my hair and got ready for my date with Kurt =) I was so nervous especially as the time inched closer I kept myself busy by playing some tertis then every vehicle that approach I would get very nervous and my hands would start to shake, I know I am such a dork. Finally he arrived and first I turned my computer off then went out to greet him, and then he came inside my house I showed him my ratties =) he was sweet with them. Then we left and first we stopped by a store called pet world and looked around at the different fish they had, also saw a extremely cute little rabbit hehe, that was fun looking at the fish together. Then we went to this Chinese place and got some food to go and took it to the park nearby, it was cute we ate talked and enjoyed the time together sadly I didn't realize but I was developing a sun burn, but it was a beautiful day, then we left there and drove around Redlands, and then we went to this other park there that had trails and stuff, it was pretty cool, then we came to this big grassy meadow and sat under a tree and relaxed, he definitely seemed more comfortable, but he still hadn't kissed me and I was dying to have his lips on mine, but i was waiting for him to make the move. then we left the park and went to his place and watched some movies, we watched "Blow" with Johnny Depp and then we watched " The Messengers" with yummy Dylan McDermmott and John Corbett happy time , and also had Kristen Stewart. before we watched the second movie i did get a kiss from him finally and i made the move, also my sun burn was starting to get bad and i asked him if he had any aloe Vera stuff and he said yes and then he put it on my arms and back that was my favorite part =) also we were playing around i was trying to see if i could pin him down , but he is hella strong hehe, or i am just Hella weak lol, it was really nice, and i was sad that the time with him was coming to a end, but he was tired and so he took me home, but in a way it was ok that we ended the day together like we did, because i got to see my niece bella and hang out with my family and just came in time for the movie, we watched a movie called "Crazy Heart" it was pretty good, then before they left i had Phyllis put some aloe Vera lotion on me, and then i noticed that Dante looked very pale i was panicking and very worried , then i figured it must be the Plant bulbs i put in there they are probably rotting because i can't put him in light so the plants can't grow so i got Dante out of their and after my sister departed i cleaned his tank and at first he wasn't eating , but finally after a little bit he started eating again thank goodness, now he is back in his tank and back to his full color and swimming very actively yay, now i am tired and want to crash but i am letting my ratties run around for a bit, although my eyes are trying to close lol.

yesterday i hung out with my mom and we went to get a stereo for her car, she got a good deal on one. While we were waiting for them to install it, i was telling my mom about how melissa hasn't messaged me or anything for some time, and just after that she called me it was hilarious only to ask me to go on some car trip to central California, i was like nah i can't sorry, and then later she asked what about las vegas and i was like i don't know and she was like ok don't worry about it, and i was like whatever i don't have time to deal with that, because my mind was about my date with Kurt and what I was going to wear, then after my time with mom, i hung out with my sister and we went to Forever 21 so i could look for some accessories to go with my outfit, i found some, but i didn't get to wear the necklace i got because i decided to wear something not as sexy lol, but i did wear new earrings i got =) it was fun hanging with my sister and then we got matching owl necklaces lol Team Owl haha.

So I think it went well, i think he likes me, don't know if he liked kissing me or what, because he didn't really try to kiss me more, He is right though i worry too much lol, but i just do thats me i am a worry wart and i just don't want to continue with something if they don't want me ya know i don't want to be dragged along, gosh i am exhausted. All in all i had a awesome time, and i hope its not a long ass time before i get to hang out with him again. alright i am out i am going to dream land, bye.

XOXO D

Addicted

Sorry it's been a while since I written, but not so much has been going on.

Been watching my favorite show in the whole world, this show brings me up when I am feeling down, and can watch it a million times over "Sex and the City" Thank god I bought all the seasons, well anyway I've been enjoying watching it for several nights now and its funny how I notice things that I missed in the past, like how i am spotting the camera crew in like TV's or seeing the microphone thing pop in the picture, and actors from other things making a appearance. the last episode i watched, the girls were talking and Carrie was wondering why Big didn't pick her, and then Miranda said "Huble" and they started talking about a movie called "the way we were" starring Robert Redford and Barbra Streisand , and it's funny, but not to long ago i saw that movie for the first time so it's funny that i got what they were talking about , and before i only got what they explained about it because Samantha didn't see it so they told her a little about the movie, I just thought that was pretty cool.

Family news, my sister got a new car she made me drive it, and i didn't not like it was kinda hard to drive, and they gave their old car to my mom, and my mom had to sell her old car and she did, not sure yet if she is completely happy with the trade, it's funny how she goes " I miss my old car" cute how we get so attached to objects, like when i got my new Laptop it was hard for me to stop using my old one because i was used to it, i knew its quirks and everything, so jumping into a new lap top was kinda weird, but actually after i did make the jump i was glad i did for it was faster brighter and a lot more memory lol.

Friends, well i haven't seen my friend Melissa in some time, but stuff has been going on with her, she was celebrating her mothers bday for a few days going to Disneyland and then knotts. I am kinda upset with her though, because last time that we went to the lake i had accidentally left my bathing suit and towel in her gf's car, and she said she took it out and would give it to me, so that was like some time ago, and i think it was like last week or something that i asked her to drop it off along with some of my dvds that she has of mine, she also has my sisters twilight book which i told her she wanted back eons ago lol, well then i posted something on facebook i forget what it was and too lazy to look it up lol, but she commented on it, and then she said that she "believes" that her mom washed my bathing suit and now she can't find it :::rolls eyes::: so i consider it gone, and it totally irked me, i mean that is my only bathing suit i don't like have a few to choose from , because well it's hard for a girl with my body type to find a bathing suit that will look cute and not show our trouble areas ya know, so i was bored one time and was looking at different websites for a bathing suit, first i looked at forever 21 i was shocked that they didn't have swim suits if they did they probably be cute and inexpensive, so i went to the next site Torrid, at first they were too flashy, then some where cute but i know i would look aweful in, and then there it was sooo cute here i will post it.



so I fell in love and only for 20 bucks, so I worked it out that i was going to give my dad the money and then he would use his card to purchase it online for me, but mom was going to give me the money for it later because I'm her baby haha, but my dad ended paying for it, but it was so stupid 20 buck my ass, after taxes and shipping bitch came out to be 30 bucks, and at first i thought it was for the whole thing, but i then realized it was only for the top i was like son of a batch of cookies are you kidding me, i was sad, i only had half a bathing suit lol, hot as it may be i would need the other half, torrid didn't have the other half Torrid is such a bad place to shop so expensive , but i do love their skinny pants, so i tried fashion bug but damn they were so expensive, and then i looked at lauren bryant i already knew they were going to expensive but i thought i would look anyway and yea they were lol, so since my dad paid for the top part of the suit anyway, i figured mom could buy me the bottom lol, so the next time we hung out, it was late when we did and so we only got to look at walmart and they had nothing good, we were going to hang out the next day too and be able to look at other places, but things happened and she didn't come out to hang out til late again, so we went to eat, and we were close to the inland center mall, so i thought well i will have a look at torrid and see maybe they have something cheap there, but when we got to the mall, they already closed it ridiculous, i mean i know stores close early on sundays but man at 7 gees, so we were headed to ross and i am like why don't we check out target and my mom thought it would be the same as walmart, and she didn't want to , and i was like but ross might be closed since it was sunday and they aren't a store like walmart or target which stays open late even if its sunday so she took me to target and they had alot to choose from and i found my bottom lol that sounds weird and it was 20 bucks so if i had paid for this thing on my own it would of cost me about 50 bucks how wrong lol i think the one that my friend lost i bought for about 30 it was altogether no separate shit, but whatever it's done, and hey if my friend ever finds my bathing suit i will have two moving up lol , but you know what else pisses me off, well my towel which is ultra cool looking is big and bright blue that is something hard to lose , so i guess i will have to wait til she talks to me to see what the fuck is up but its kinda stupid whats going on, let me at her house i will find my fucking bathing suit which is red white and black i could understand not finding it if it is just black but its got red flowers on it, i liked that suit, it was my first cute bathing suit, but now i will have a more cute bathing suit so why am i bitching, because it's the principle of the thing, and i kind feel like a hustler getting my mom and dad to both buy my bathing suit lol.

my love life, hmmmmm well i am still talking with Kurt and it makes me very happy, gosh i think maybe after i write this part i will be crying lol jk, anyway he is back to work not on vacation anymore, and we still email and he talks to me on yahoo im, it was really cute one night we shared you tube videos back and forth, well most were music videos, i got to see his taste and he got to see my taste i think it's really cool how we both have a love for all kinds of music that is super duper lol, anyway i am hoping this week goes by in a snap because on Saturday we have a date i am soo ultra excited about it, i just think about it and smiling like a idiot lol, what i am really nervous about is i have to eat in front of him lol, no well you know i hate eating in front of people, but i am nervous about us sharing our first kiss, so much depends on this kiss, if we have chemistry, if he can curl my toes with his kiss, if he likes my kiss, if he doesn't taste to much like ashtray ( but i have kissed other guys that have smoked and i've never really tasted the ashtrayness lol) so i am nervous about that, and i don't know when he is going to attempt to try and kiss me will it be in the beginning, the middle or towards the end, but i can't wait as well, his lips look very yummy hehe, and i can't wait to see him such anticipation four days til it's time and i have some things to keep me busy, i want him to see my rattie babies so definitely have to clean and make my room presentable lol, then of course total maintenance lol that's all I am saying about that, and my sister is taking me out on friday to get me something to help make my outfit for our date complete =) oh gosh he makes me smile just thinking about him for a moment i sigh and smile.

So the next time i blog i will have went on my date with mister wonderful hehe, and will let you know all the goods, i hope it goes great i really do, i just feel something special about him, how he keeps me interested, always eager to see what he is going to write next, i love how he is interested in so many things, he is like a man of the world. well i am exhausted and need to crash and then check my email when i wake up because hopefully he will have left me a email =D night all.

XOXOXOXO D

Left Cheek Sneak

So not much has been going on this week, been kinda boring with little things here and there that make it ok. So firstly today sometime today the Electricity in my home is going to be shut off temporarily which sucks because it's supposed to be in the high's, i hope i don't melt, let alone my rattie babies, so hopefully when ever it happens, it won't be like that for long, so i am getting a post in before the drama begins lol.

on sunday it was a very odd day, the normal i hung out with my mom, and told her about Kurt, and this other guy i just started talking with yet another guy named Chris i swear i know about a hundred of them lol, any way this new Chris, is originally from the dirty south georgia, and he wanted to hang out later on sunday, and i told my mom the he has his own mobile car repair service and for some reason she became very excited and told me to call him and ask him how much to do a tune up on her car, and he was like depends well we ended up meeting by a store i live by, and it was weird because i barely know this dude and this would be the first time i meet him, so he checks out my moms car tells her some stuff, but he is a little too rough around the edges for me, very outgoing and loud and i know in the past i said i think i might like that, but this guy was too much of it unfortunately and i think my mom wanted it to be like love at first sight but unfortunately just heard her car engine no bells lol, so after that he said he could do it next weekend and told me to call him later to hang out and then me and my mom went for some ice cream, and then we went home and played some wii, and during that time i developed a bad headache and didn't end up hanging out with him, i think he knew that i wasn't into him and my mom felt weird that i wasn't pursuing this guy so she called him and canceled the arrangement very very very weird.

Then later during the week on Wednesday my sister came by for a surprise visit with Bella and we hung out watched some Cash Cab and then once Bella was asleep we got to play a little bit of our game Toe Jam and Earl, i was really happy that she came to visit =).

Then everyday i have been receiving wonderful emails from Kurt and not to long ago we started talking on instant messenger, this guy is so awesome, very cute, smart, sweet, kind, a real gentleman, poetic, he can cook, and he likes everything about me what a catch, i just wish i was able to see him, but he has his kids for like two weeks i believe they are on vacation, so i have to wait to be able to see him, which sucks i am usually patient, but when i want something i want it now lol, but i will be good, i even put my pof profile on invisible, because i like where this is going, he seems pretty interested, but you never know what can happen ya know.

As for my drawing part of my life I drew another horse I think i did a lot better with this one, but i like the first one still and that is the one i am going to give Kurt, because in a previous post i said i was going to draw another one and was most likely give him that one, but no the first one will be his, then during one of my shows i watch, during the commercial breaks i would doodle, at first it was random stuff, but then ever since I've been watching the new season of true blood I've really been wanting to draw a fan art of Eric Northman he is soooo delicious, so anyway i just started doodling different characters from the show and it turned out very cute they are very simple cartoon drawings, and i even gave them something to say, but my sister loves them, and she's like i am going to print them out, lol she's hilarious, and i did post it on deviant art, but it hasn't received that many views =( but i like where i took it and kinda want to continue with that direction, but i so want to do like a awesome really detailed one of Eric just have to get the inspiration to start working on it.

Haven't seen Melissa in a while, and a few days ago i guess she had a fight with her gf and she was going to come over to hang but Phyllis came over and by the time she left, Melissa already made plans whatever i got to watch my show, that she would be like no or make annoying comments throughout the show, but like we are supposed to be watching together season 2 of the big bang theory but I've watched several episodes with out her lol, i am bad but i needed something to watch and she's not into this season that much any way she wants to continue to watch Dexter which i told her we should of just completed one show and then go to the next but whatever no body listens to me.

Well i believe that is all i got to say lol, i always do that say not much happened but write a novel lol. til next time laterz <3

XOXOXO D

Son Of A Batch Of Cookies

not to much to report but I felt like posting, so my last blog i was talking about how I was going to try and get that guy to come to Pet co while my family was doing the dog training with the family dog, so like at first i messaged him telling him i was going and i was like it would be soo cute if you came in, and at first he didn't really get the hint that i was making and he is like yea but you'll be busy with the class, so messaged back saying no i would ditch them to walk around the store with you, and then he was like oh ok sure i will go , and i was like really, and he said ya i got all warm inside and nervous, so i was all excited, but then my friend Melissa wanted to come over and watch stuff, i was like hmmm, well i am going to drag her ass to it, because i didn't want to miss a opportunity to see if this guy would actually come to the store to chill with me for a bit, so i didn't tell her anything at first because she wanted to go to the store and get some snacks, at the time i was craving some sushi like a lot so while she went shopping in the grocery store, i went to this sushi place that wasn't too far from the store and got me some and it was delicious, so when we got back to my house and we got ready to eat i told her that she was coming with me to the training class and i am going to meet that guy and she was like hesitant about it at first but soon gave in. so we left the house like around a little after 6 and we got there i was super nervous, first me and my friend walked around looking at stuff and i kept looking over by the door to see if he would walk in, but then we went over to where the training was going on and chilled there for a moment then he suddenly he walked in and i like totally stiffened and my friend pushed me to go to him and so i went up to him and I initiated the hug which i don't really do but when i feel a guy is to shy to do it then i will, so we walked around the pet store talking, to me it felt he was still shy, but i think i am mistaking his mellowness with shyness , and i have a thing against mellow guys , sometimes they are just too mellow ick, anyway it was really cool hanging out with him, and then it looked like the class was ending and so i was like oh snap i got to go and so we like totally said our goodbyes, and i went over there and i am such a dork it wasn't over they were just doing a walking around the store exercise, i am like oh great i could still be hanging out with him, but i was too embarrassed to go back up to him and say oh its not over, which i should of , but he left and he smiled and winked at me ultra cute like i totally melted hehe. so i guess he likes me, and i know he wants to see me again, but it won't be for a while because he has his kids for like two weeks they are on vacation, but he said after that we would go on a picnic together, so i am still unsure if i should start a relationship with a guy who has kids already, my friend doesn't see the big deal, but its kinda hard to explain just what i think and feel about the situation, but he is a cool guy, really nice, and stuff, wish i had a bigger following on my blog so i could get some suggestions on what to do, i do love when he writes me emails he is so incredibly sweet and makes me smile every time i read them , i just wish he would be like how he is in his emails, when my friend was over she read some of his and saw what i wrote back and she said we are both different then how we are over email, i was like really.

Then on Thursday my dad shockingly invited me to go with him and Donna to market night, he usually doesn't invite me places he goes off too, so i said sure, and i told Kurt, but i didn't get a reply back in time, and when i got back he said that he was going too, but i didn't see him and thank goodness, because my hair was awful and what i was wearing was dreadful lol then that evening i finished the picture that i made for Kurt, its cute, but i am thinking of doing a different one, a better one i may or i may not lol.

Friday, my sister and her hubby came over and of course Bella, my sister took me out driving hadn't done it in a while i was scared all over again, but Phyllis didn't have to instruct me to much this time which was cool, but man i was getting unfocused a lot and that wasn't good, but we survived lol. we got a new game for the Wii we got a game we used to play on the Sega console called "Toe Jam and Earl" it was real fun didn't want to stop but we had to watch a movie, we watched "Wolfman" eh it was ok nothing to really rave about, and then after that we played a little more of the video game =) it was fun.

Tomorrow i supposed to hang out with some friends, and then Sunday i am going to hang out with my mom, so i don't see why he doesn't ask me to hang out with him other days ya know , i mean i know he works, but oh well idk , i know i need to take things slow, just he seems like a cool guy that likes me , and i am tried of guessing games, i want to know if he likes me or not, we haven't even kissed yet, but i think that's cool , i just hope he is a good kisser, looks like he has nice lips so he may be and that would be a major plus, just hope he doesn't taste like a ashtray, that's another thing he smokes i don't know if i can handle that, i just get irritated from it and i hate the smell, and its so bad for you i don't want him to die early cuz of it ick smoke sucks ick ick. well that's all for now byezzzzzz.

XOXOXO D

Late Happy 4TH OF JULY

Sorry I didn't post a happy 4th, my weekend was pretty busy, Saturday my family celebrated my dad's wife's birthday, we went out to eat, had cake and she opened her gifts, and then Sunday Me , my sister, and her hubby went and saw Eclipse the third movie to twilight don't hate, I am not a twihard, but i did like the books, and so it's interesting to see it come to life on screen. After that we had a BBQ with the family and my sister had me set up the Wii that my dad had got like a long time ago and just now we opened it and we got mario brothers and super mario brothers 2, it was fun to play, and next time we are going to get this old fave game of me and my sisters called Toe Jam And Earl its sooooo awesome can't wait to play that game again =D Then we went over to Redlands and watched the UofR set off it's fireworks it was cool and i had a awesome time with my family =)

So lately I've talking with this guy named Kurt, i met him from the date site POF and then i gave him my email and we have been emailing each other back and forth he is a really sweet guy through his emails. So during the weekend he asked if I wanted to meet him either monday or tuesday, well i was supposed to hang out with my mom Monday, but she bailed she wasn't feeling up to it, and i had already told Kurt i wanted to meet tuesday, but he said how about monday and since my mom wasn't coming i said sure , so at 8:30 pm he picked me up and we went somewhere and hung out and talked and got to know each other, he was a shy guy, he was definitely different from his email, i don't know if it was because of the fact that we just met or if that is just him, so i am still not sure what to think of him, he was a gentleman though , he didn't try to kiss me or force himself on me so that was good, bad things about him is that he smokes which a big big big big big pet peeve of mine if anyone knows me they know that, and he has two kids, i don't want to be harsh towards that, but i have reasons why i should and they are pretty legit reasons, but i am trying to get past that, because he seems like a really cool guy, very cute, yummy body ya i was checking him out so what lol. I was even a dork i made like a point thing for him like i scored our date and him lol, i am weird but it was fun out of 1700 pts he scored 583 lol, but i am going to see where it goes for now, he seems to like me and all my faults, so shouldn't i look past his too ???? i just feel i deserve everything i want in a man, i mean there has to be a guy out there who will love and adore me and that i get along with on all levels , that doesn't smoke, drink heavily, do any type of drugs, has kids, previous marriages and other stuff that sucks lol, but sometimes you have to take the good with the bad.

Tuesday was good, my friend melissa came over and we played some wii and finished season 2 of Dexter, can't wait to watch the third season but i have to wait because now we are going to watch season 2 of the big bang theory. Also i had to do a massive mountain of laundry just been so busy hadn't had time to do it.

Wednesday will be interesting, i am going to try and work on a drawing i promised Kurt i would work on, and then later in the evening i am going to my dad's and donna's dogs training class, i am going to try and get Kurt to go do you think he will??? next time you will find out hehe. i hope he does i am going to dress really cute if he agrees to go . til next time laterz

XOXOX D

The Happiest Place On Earth

I've been kinda busy lately, on the 24th of June I woke up and my friend invited me to go to the lake so I did that it was nice i went swimming a little and sun bathed a lot it was really nice, but my friend did bring her gf and her brother and his friend, and i felt really out of place because they had all these inside jokes, so i do what i do best and kept to myself. Then the next day i woke up with sure pain it's lady time i know you don't want to hear that but it's whats going on and i was in some major pain i mean i took so much medicine to help and it was doing shit for me, and then my sister made me smile tho because she sent me a picture of a raptor, because she was at Universal studios with her husband and his dad step mom and half sister who came down from Pennsylvania, I was like awww no fair no invite for me, and she was like well we are going to DisneyLand the following day and you are so going, but i had made plans to hang with my mom and go on a mission to find a really cute dress, so i was kinda weighing my options i know your like what are you crazy like the choice was hard, but i was going through some emotional issues so ya it was hard for me, but in the end i did pick Disneyland and it was great i always have fun hanging out with my sister, because she's my greatest audience, i know how to get her to laugh, so it was a good ole time we went on mostly all the main attraction, i didn't buy a souvenir, and i am glad i didn't more money to put on my outfit hehe, plus i was hoping they would of had this creature Fuzzball from Captain EO, but they didn't =( So sunday in the morning i go to hang out with my mom and i went outfit hunting, but sadly didn't find anything, and then later my sisters husbands family came over our house for a BBQ it was awesome fun, and i even let them see my rattie babies and they liked them so points for them lol. I just have to say i am crazy about my Hairless rat Lola she is just so sweet and funny, she cracks me up with her crazy looks and funny ears ,I love her,I love all my ratties. then My friend came over Monday night and we watched true blood and Dexter. Oh and today I have been watching this Korean Show called "Coffee Prince" and it is really good lol, I've been having a blast watching it, i still haven't finished it, but i thought i would blog and then turn in, so that's what I've been up to as of late til next time laterz.

XOXO D

What The Flock!!!

Say what i post again so soon already well i just have things on my mind, so today i was going to go with my Dad and his wife to their dogs training class, I was finishing up this episode of that show i have been watching Skins, and then my friend Melissa messages telling me that she is at the medical center not to far from my home and ask if i would come down and chill with her, and so like a good buddy i said ok even though i kinda wanted to go to the dog class but oh well, i got dropped off at the medical center and told her i was there and then like moments later she came out and we were off and then we came back to my place and watched true blood, SYTYCD, and like a half episode of Dexter and she got messaged by a old friend and was going to go meet her for pool i am like wtf fine don't even invite me i told her that and she tried to make all this lame ass excuses so whatever i was like ok go have fun blah blah blah ya blimey bitch i was furious like wouldn't like to get out of my hole and have some fun playing pool which i am horrible at gees, so she went off and i had some emails to answer on a date site hehe, and in the middle of answering one i got messaged by my ex's friend and he is soooo annoying because everytime he talks to me on there he always always tries to get me to pleasure him HA, so we were talking and he was telling me some stuff going on in his life and he then he was like why don't we just hang out, and i was like because u just want to be a bad boy and he swear he wouldn't be and after much back and fourth and playing tug a war at the idea i agreed to walk around the block with him for a bit , because he lives literally a few blocks down from me hilarious, so i met up with nervous as hell because this is the weirdest shit ever come hanging out with on of the friends of ur ex whom you never really met , i've met this guy like once when i was with my ex, so we met up, walked around, and talked i saw a baby skunk eeek it was soooo cute, but i was being my shy dull introvert self, any way we came to like a spot and he was like so you going home or did you want to hang more and i was like well what do you want and he is like i don't care it's up to you , I knew i should of been on my way home but i was up so we hung out a little more we actually went to his house which i didn't think we were going to do lol , but we went the back yard where he has one loud ass bird chirping, and i thought the one by my house was bad it's like right in his back yard and so then he wanted to go into the trailer , ok when this happend i knew i should of left but i really thought he just wanted to talk lol, so we went it, but then he tries to pull some lame moves and i am even more quiet because i know what he wants and i don't know what to do so i am like ok i am going to go and he is like awww what and is disappointed, but hey i was just there for the walking and talking and nothing more I have strong morals toward stuff like that and i keep to them most of the time, plus even though he is cute; his over confidence in himself, and the way he talks about women like they are just mere sex objects is revolting and does not stimulate my libido so see for me it's not all about looks if it were don't you think i would be all over this dude he is tall, blond, blue eyed, kinda looks like that guy who played the older brother on home improvement but thinner and has like a surfer look to him, but not for me i am looking for something more in a person who i am attracted to but it just takes more then just being hot trust me, but even so i have to admit we are sooooo opposites, and he is so outta my league , he needs some prissy skinny little smarty pants who doesn't mind his massive ego about himself for reals, i mean i am strange weird cute artistic curvy thick woman and need a man who can handle what i have lol. so yeah i thought the whole experience was odd, but i suppose it was good to get out talk to him and fill an hour i probably would of spent watching my show , damn good show tho lol, i don't think we will ever hang out again i just don't see that happening. One thing though i need to practice on my conversation skills they are lackluster, just a moment ago i was reading on how to improve on them, and i read some good stuff, that i will try to put to good use next time i have a conversation with a strange new person, i like to think i do ok but reality bit me in the ass tonight with that one how fun it is to learn different things about yourself, I am a aggressive kisser , i am introverted personality, need to work really hard on my conversation skills lol.

well til next time byyyyyeeeeeesssssss

XOXO D

Something Needs to Change

In my Life definitely, but i am so horrible at that i think the few things I have changed in my life is better at fixing my hair , picking out cuter clothes to wear and being more responsible for my pets ( but really my rats are family not just a lame pet term hmpf) anywhoo i am just tired of the way things are and really need to get my ass in gear figure out what i need to do and freaking do it, i really want to go to school, but i think I've waited to long and that boat sailed, and i know i can't go to the art school because its just way to ridiculously expensive, and as more time goes by the more I am diminishing as a person and i am just turning into this flop of a person who just has the drive to take care of her ratties who's lives are way more important, and that just sad I mean their lives are important and always will be, but I should think mine is too. I did get a few things done today and I got to hang out with my mom and she let me go around with her while she did errands and it got me out of the house and I started watching this British show called "Skins" it is very interesting funny, and disgusting lol.

Speaking of my Lovely ratties, I have had to three escapes lol, the first time i was letting the babies run around and my Kyoshi was sticking around to this one area and i didn't really think anything of it til she was no longer around lol, so i gathered Butterz and Lola and put them on their play area by their cage and went on the hunt for my naughty Kyoshi I heard her roaming around and snap when i looked behind this cabinet in my room there she was and i called her and the cute little thing she was she came up to her mommy lol, i was like oh thank goodness usually when they hit the ground they freak out and don't want to be touched what so ever, so i put her back with her sister and looked to see what she had done so i covered up her escape spot and i thought i fixed it , but next time i had her out , and darted right for her spot and in moment she was gone i was like son of a bleep, and tried calling for her but i would just see a glimmer of her tail and she would be gone , so i have my closet open and it can't really close all the way so i went and sat over by it in case she wanted to take a stroll in there and that would be ridiculous to try and find her in, but when i sat there she was by my shoes and carelessly went to try to grab her and she darted away from my hand, but she was still close by , so i got the little container on the much coveted yogies (yogurt drop rattie treats =D ) and i shook the container and bam she ran over to me , she knows what she would get lol, so i was able to grab her and put her back with her sisters, so i left them to run around their play area by cage and i wanted to go to bed but it was kinda early and the girlies were still running around having so i left them out and i passed out, i woke up from a bad dream because it was freezing in my room , so i got up and closed the window and checked to see if all the girls were in the cage cause sometimes my butterz likes to sleep out of the cage when she's able Kyoshi and Lola were sleeping in the tissue box, but butterz was not so i checked all the places where she could be and she was no where i was like oh man , and called for her made little clicking noises that gets their attention sometimes and then i heard so rustleing around back behind the box that is holding up the rat cage i moved some things and there she was and she was being all scared running from me but i got her, always scared though that they are going to bite but nah grabbed her and poor thing was cold, i held her and then put her in back in the cage and closed it up so now they are grounded to their cage for a bit and butterz hates it she wants out soooo bad lol, but that was terrible they have been playing in that play area for a while and never had any issues til now great I liked it because i could leave them to run amok and not worry anyone was going to end up on the floor so next time i will have to watch my Butterz and see how she does it, she was always my escape artist even when she was smaller lol.

Well til next time Byezzzzzzzz

XOXOXO D

Go Fork Yourself

Hey there reporting in lol, so not much is going on, i mean nothing gees no dates nada booooooorrrrriiiinnnnngggggg. my friend has been coming over and watching Big Bang Theory and Dexter but she's been have GF issues so she's was here but not really here ya know. for a while i hadn't been drawing just haven't had the desire i suppose, but lately i started getting back into it because i wanted to do more entry's for this contest, and i am really proud of the latest picture i put out, i kinda think tho that it might be too intense for the contest, my next ones will be more on the funny side.

Got to do some rearranging with my room and that was pretty cool, but other then the few things that have been going on, nothing big or exciting no like last weekend, well maybe things will pick up who knows well talk to you later , and i hope when i do i have more interesting things to talk about =D .

XOXO D

Star Struck

I should have blogged sooner, but i have been recuperating, June 12th 2010 me and my sister attended The official Twilight saga Eclipse convention over in L.A. it was really awesome I have to say, not to insane that i thought it was going to be , but it was cool, and so much especially spending it with my sister, took lots of pictures and got to see a lot of the actors that played in the twilight movies, especially the top stars of the twilight movies Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart, and Taylor Lautner, through out the convention you were able to write questions down and stick it a box for the stars, me and my sister asked all the actors a question but none were coming up until it came time to ask the big stars questions and they asked mine i was soooo happy i asked them "of the twilight movies, what was your fave making?" and they all answered it hehe it was way awesome. It was just really cool to be able to see them and see how they are in person, i have to say Robert Pattinson is weird, but seems like a good guy, Taylor Lautner is a cutie pie and i melt every time i see that smile lol, and Kristen Stewart she was odd too , her and Robert make a cute couple and fit each other lol. would i do it again, hells yea i would shoot lol , but only if my sister when with me , i don't think i would have as much fun as i did with her, and if it wasn't for her i wouldn't of been able to go, she blessed me with buying the ticket, I love her so much.

so today i tried to sleep as much as i could , but then my mom came over and wanted to hang out so i wasn't the greatest company because i was tired still and towards the end of our visit i developed a little headache that sucked, but i took some medicine and it went away, and then my best friend came over and we finally finished season 1 of Dexter i wish we could start on season 2, but now she wants to watch the Big Bang theory we are switching between the both so after we finish season one of the big bang theory we will watch season 2 of Dexter.

Season 3 of True Blood started i can't wait to sink my teeth into that lol. heheheeheh can't wait.

well that's it for now talk to you laterz =D

XOXO D

Ummm Why

hey decided to get a blog in before i forget and let a lot of day pass by lol.

so on sunday i hung out with that guy again that i went to the movies with and we just chilled and kissed, and sadly i didn't really feel anything =( it sucks, because he is a pretty cool dude, but i don't fancy him intimately, i know i am so weird, i really want to find a guy and there is one right here who i know would be a bf to me , but i've had passed opportunities where i know i could have a guy but i am just not feeling him or them, is it to much to want to find a guy that i want to actually kiss and get down and dirty with, but i just haven't felt that with these guys and it sucks because i want to, i didn't decided that night about my decision about the guy, we hung out again on monday and we went over to his apartment and watched family guy with his sister, and i just looked at him be a lump on the couch and idk wasn't feeling it.

later on Monday i hung out with my bff Melissa and we watched Dexter and nearly finished it, she was suppose to come over again Tuesday night but she was having issues with her car and pussied out, so it gave me time to work on my drawing for the mentos contest and finish it so that was cool.

The guy I've been seeing wants to hang out again , but i don't think i want to, and i am probably going to bail on him, because if i go i am just going because i want the attention and that wouldn't be fair to him ya know, plus So you think you can dance is going to be on around the same time and i really want to watch it =) gees i am terrible.

tonight i was bored and went to chat , it was just to chat and i wasn't really expecting anything from it, but by the end i think i was , i talked to a few people either were horny bastards or just weird, i just hope to find a decent guy who is easy to talk with, we enjoy each others convo, and think each other is cute and his intentions are good and not devious like a lot of the guys on there, so in the end it was just supposed to entertain me, it made me depressed errg, one chat was cool tho because he kept insisting i was a vampire so played along it was cool hehe, i had fun. but men being the pervert mongrels they are brought me down =(

well Friday and so forth i have a busy time ahead of me so i just have to get passed Thursday and i will be ok, don't have to worry about icky men for a little bit ha. I will let ya know what happens after my filled weekend, til then laterz.

XOXO D

Can't Sleep

Oi can't sleep, even though my day was pretty busy and i was out in the heat for a part of it, i slept for a little bit, then my friend woke me up by calling my phone i didn't answer it, and tried to get back to sleep, but i couldn't so i texted her and with no response from that from her i tried to go back to sleep only to dream of some horrible images and wake up and now to scared to go back to sleep and to hot as well yessh its a hot evening and there is some annoying ass bird chirping its ass off outside my window.

other then that my week had been very busy

Monday Melissa took me to Lake Arrowhead we thought we were going to swim, but when we jumped in it was freezing so we just ended up sun bathing, and hanging out with her cousin and seeing a local band play.

Tuesday me and Melissa hung out again , and we went to her mom's friends place, because they have a pool, but it was just us it was me, Melissa, her mom, her brother, some chick the mom was watching, the daughter of the friend, and Melissa's gf, so we played a little bit together, but then i just started to relax, drift in the pool, then i went over to the jacuzzi it was soooo nice, then i laid out to dry and then we got kicked out lol, but it's not like we did anything wrong it's a community pool and the family who lives there didn't think we should stay any longer in fear of some shit it was lame, so me and melissa came back to my house and watched dexter.

Wednesday It was my dads retirement luncheon, I got to get dressed up and Phyllis was coming and bringing Bella. Before we left I had my mirror up by the window more so i could get a better view how i looked but it was windy that day and it blew my mirror down and it broke, it was sad i had that mirror for a time. Anyway the luncheon was held at The Spaghetti Factory, and it was very nice, i swear i thought my dad was going to cry, afterwords I tagged along with my sister to babies R us and after that she took me to Target and bought me a new mirror, she is sooo great i love my sister. Then she came back to the house and we all hung out together for a bit and Bella was being so entertaining hehe.

Thursday I was trying to clean my room and do laundry i cleaned the ratties towel that i put on the desk behind them and the cloth i used to put sunflower on when i fed her =( I didn't get much cleaning done, but i did get my laundry done, and I had my ratties cage on my bed and then i would let them run around on my bed and it was great they had a fun ole time, that evening i worked on a few photo manipulations for this contest, so when i was finished i went to plug in my phone because it was close to dying but when i went to plug it in i had found out that my ratties had been busy and they had chewed up the cord.

Friday So I told my dad what happened and they tried to see if any of their old cords would fit my phone, and it seemed everyone was blowing up my phone to talk to me and i had to tell them charger cord got chewed limited battery on phone can't really talk. so there was no luck in finding a spare charger and i was going to have to buy one, but also that day i was going to cash in my bottles and cans, so we went to do that first , my dads wife took me, and i got a pretty good amount from it, and then we went to walmart, i about freaked when i wasn't sure if they were going to carry a charger that fits my phone but luckily i found it and i was about to pay for it, but then my dads wife offers and i humbly accepted =)

Saturday I had a date in the later part of the day and as i was getting ready, my mother called and wanted to see me so i said sure, she came over mid when i was straightening my hair, so i finished getting ready and then she took me out to lunch and we chatted about what was going on and then we went for some ice cream , my date called and it was nearly time for him to pick me up , so mom took me home i freshened up , i called him to tell him i was ready and i gave him directions, soon he was there for he doesn't live to far from me, so he picked me up and we went to fiesta village and played some miniature golf, which i wasn't to bad at, and then we played some arcade games, and with the tickets we got i got a hacky sack =D and he was able to get a panda eraser lol, afterwords we went to the movies and saw Get him to the Greek, it was kinda funny, but not that funny, wasn't my kind of movie, maybe because i disliked both main actors, but it was ok, then he took me home and we said our goodbyes, all in all it was a fun date, about if we clicked or not really i am not sure, he seems like a cool dude, but who knows.

Not sure what tomorrow will bring probably sleep most of since i can't sleep right now , i am going to put some soft tunes one and try to get some rest finally. til next time laterz.

XOXO D

Lost Another Friend

It started out a good day I got to see my mom and then later went to hang out with friends and my sister, then i got home around 1 am and i checked in on my rattie Sunflower, she was in her wooden tissue box, she had passed away. I called my sister to tell her and she comforted me and also brought out the tears i was fighting away, i made a box for her and placed her inside it along with a delicious yogie treat and some other treats for her journey and a horse she loved to chew one and other special things, I taped up the box and said my goodbyes to my sweet Sunflower, I loved her so much, it's late and i won't be able to bury her til morning so i placed her in the garage til then and that was even hard to do.

during all this i was texting people and posting on facebook of my loss, and there was this one dude i had been talking to and he thought i would comforter by him kissing me and groping me and then he said or how about i pleasure you, really really people that's just aweful, but whatever men are weird.

I will always have my ratties in my hearts, I can't believe how much love i hold for these sweet little creatures who have their own personalities, i Loved sunflower for so many reason, how strong she was , how i saw her as the mommy among the ratties, she loved to nest and she loved her sisters and me, in the end i think me and her bonded very well and she became close then ever and i just really hope she knows how much i cared and love her.

R.I.P Sunflower June 15 2008 - May 30th 2010

Wowzers

Haven't posted in a long time sorry about that, but not much has been going on the same ole bullshit. Last time I did write i was writing about sunflower and how she wasn't doing to well, well she's still kicking she walks the same as i described in the post before, but she is still alive and doing well, I believe she had a stroke when i researched online that's what i came up with, I told you my sunflower is a strong girlie =D .

Other then that I've been working of some drawings and entering them in a contest, I've even been trying to use the computer to make them better, the first one i was working on i colored it using photoshop it took some time and i nearly went insane but i got it done, i entered the one i colored which i kind of regret right now but oh well, then the second one well i took photos of my dad's dog one of the cats and my ratties and combined to make a freak of nature muahahahah it was cool kinda weird but it was fun, then the third one i worked on i drew is three different sections and then put it all together using photoshop it was awesome how well it turned out and you know how i never really do backgrounds well i did one and it wasn't that bad, but i still need a lot of practice. SO i hope at least one of my artworks gets through to the final that would be awesome more awesome if i win a place. There is another contest i might enter not sure though .

went on a few dates recently but something must be wrong, i just don't feel a connection with these guys, a few posts back i told you i was crushing on this one guy, but when we met up again it was like hmmm why was i crushing on him , i don't know it just evaporated once i got to hang out with him again, and then this other guy he was sweet took me out spent some money on me, but i just couldn't feel comfortable around him, am i missing some chemical in my brain that makes me not able to relate or something with these guys, am i that picky , i don't think i am and as much as i am lonely i just don't want to have to settle ya know and i know that's what i was doing with Sean, he was a great guy and i liked talking with him, but after a while it was like OMG enough and i just couldn't handle his whining i know that is sad but its true ; the kind of guy i would like is a outgoing guy who can do most of the talking, who is strong and can protect me if needed, someone sweet who is going to surprise me with a visit, a call, flowers etc, someone who knows how to have fun and wants to with me hehe, that's what i liked about Kirk (he was the guy i had the small crush on) his personality is awesome but i don't like the way he treated me and he just isn't ready for someone like me which sucks, because he dose seem like he can kick someones ass if he needed too hehe.

Really i think i just need to get a job or go to school, just get totally caught up in something and stop trying to find a man, because maybe somewhere deep down inside me i don't want a guy right now meh who knows i did enjoy kissing though i do love to kiss and found out that i am a aggressive kisser =D who knew lol.

Oh yea and then my ex Paul has been trying to become friends with me again, but i know he just want's something for his own selfish needs, so idk if i want to open that gate ya know, all my friends tell me that i shouldn't and maybe i should listen to that.

Been really wanting to watch Jurassic Park and i think i will just kick back and do that ;) til next time hopefully it wont be another long pause before i write again.

XOXOXOXO D

Thats not Rain it's my tears

Everything was going ok, been drawing, driving, and talked to a art school, and made a appointment to take a tour of the campus Wednesday at 11 am , then my friend Melissa wanted to finally hang out after a long time of not seeing each other (because she has someone in her life) so she came over we caught up and talked and then we started to watch bones, half way through it i saw my rat Sunflower trying to get down and she just plopped down, i thought she hurt herself and then she started to walk funny, the same walk her sister Yumyum did before she died, i got her out of the cage gave her water and some food, she did eat and my friend was saying that was good, but she was still walking as though she was drunk and that is not a good sign, my friend got on the phone with her someone, and i started to shed some tears for sunflower because i know she was fading, so my friend had to leave early even though i was in pain because i know that i am losing yet another friend to heaven. she left and i held on to my sunflower, i held her and then made a little box for her to lay in but she is such a stubborn and strong rat she just wanted to wobble around, she is my fighter never gives up, so i let her crawl around watching her when she climbs up to my shoulder she sits still, then i decided to make a little video of her and me but then my camera died when i finished it, and then i decided to give her more water and food and she ate a pretty good amount of food, which i hope is a good thing, but she was messy when she ate it i had to clean her up a little and then i did want to hold her as much as i could before i went to bed doing all that through tears, but i thought she will do well in her cage with her sisters, i put her in the tissue holder box thing and her sisters cleaned her up a little i watched them to make sure they weren't hurting her , and now she's sleeping well i hope she's getting some rest, and sweet little lola was just now running around down stairs in the cage playing cutely with a toilet paper roll, it was so adorable. But i do believe that Sunflowers life is coming to a end ..... i just hope i don't wake up and she's passed away, i hope my little fighter hangs on so i can hold her in my arms just moments more. I love you sunflower my sweet rattie. well i need to head off to bed need to get some sleep for tomorrow still need to go to that art school and see if i can get in it.

D

Yessssssssh

So sorry I haven't written in a while, but really not to much has been going on.

I did get my hair dyed finally last sunday my mom did it for me, i was hoping my friend would but she was like "uuuuh i might mess up", and i was like how can you mess up with black but oh well my mom did the job and she did it great it looks great here i will post a picture of my hair.



but really other then that I've been drawing, i drew two pictures for my mom, ones a picture of orchids and i colored it which is something i don't usually do because i hate trying to color i need help with learning how to make my pictures pop with color, and then the next picture is i drew a picture of Bella my niece, that i really hope she likes.

My rats lately have been making me laugh, i noticed my dad had threw away a sock because it had a hole in it, so i took it and cut the top part off and gave them the other part i put it on the very top level of the cage and it was soooo funny Kyoshi climbed inside and she fell over the edge i mean it was sad but sooo funny, then i put it inside where they all like to sleep in this wooden tissue box cover and my sunflower climbed inside the sock and started to sleep in it and then butterz was trying to figure it out it was very cute, they love new things.
Then just tonight i kept stumbling around this empty tissue box but they already had one in there so i thought hmmmm what will they do if it was like a little apartment so i stuck it under the old on that i cut other openings in and they had so much fun figuring it out i wouldn't be surprised if they end up sleeping in there =D

Other then that stuff, i was wishing this guy that i like would freaking talk to me, he does have a busy life, and he did get sick last weekend, but idk i am thinking it's a lost cause, i don't know what to do , because if i try to call and whatever i don't want to be coming off desperate or clingy or whatever, i just don't know what to think, he is cool, we seem to have a good vibe between us, but he probably doesn't dig me and instead of telling me that he is just letting me hang and wonder, which sucks, so basically i guess i will take it as a loss, it sucks that is like the second time where i like the guy but it goes no where, and it's always the ones that i don't really like that fall head over heels for me erg, whatevers life is what it is and i have to roll with the punches.

But the weekend will be busy and i will be with my family , and celebrating mothers day on sunday with my mommy, so that should be something lol. And i always have my crazy adorable cute ratties, that always know who to make me smile and lick my tears away hehe.

til next time, laterz.

XOXOXOXO D