Its Over For You

So another Christmas has passed , and I hope that everyone enjoyed their Holiday and were with those you love, Unfortunately i didn't get to celebrate Christmas today , and i don't know when i am going to actually, it was going to happen Saturday but things happen and it doesn't look like that is going to be happening.

I felt like i was getting sick, but it went away but it seems as like it's there again i hope i don't sick. My poor friend Melissa is totally sick she is cold yet hot, me and Kevin hung out and got her some soup and told her to drink it up and then get some rest.

I got to have Lobster for dinner my dads wife cooked it, we aren't sure she did it right but so far so good nothing is coming back up lol, it was a really good meal though baked potato, white sweet corn, Lobster, and a salad it was delicious.

Then me and Kevin hung out and talked and listen to his music it was fun, he is a cool guy.

Can't stop listening to MC Chris - Hoodie Ninja it's great stuff lol.

XOXO D

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

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Now that I got that out of my system, lol, I do hope everyone has a Great Christmas, it looks like we aren't going to be having ours just yet, but it's all good because it doesn't matter when you have it, but as long as you do with those you love YAY!

So I got to see my sister at the hospital, she just glows MOM now its cool, it was nice visiting her I miss her and I hope she gets to come home soon especially with Bella, I am scared of holding her, but I know when I finally do I won't want to put her down.

Also today I helped my friend make a scrapbook this time for her mom and luckily it didn't take us that long this time we started at 11 something and ended at about 3 am , so that cool and i think we did a kick ass job again.

What was really kick ass and makes me feel bad at the same time was that my friend got me two gifts, the first one is wrapped and the second she made me unwrap it and it's this cool ass coffee thing that is reusable , I can't wait to put Hot Coco in it hehe. I so wanted to get her a present but i didn't have the money to do it, but as soon as i do get some extra cash i want to get her something good, hopefully she gets like the iphone she wants then i would sooooooo buy her the protected screen i got for my itouch that would be awesome if i could do that for her yes in deed it would hehe.

Ok i am like majorly sleepy, but i wanted to make sure i blogged, i think i am getting sick oh boy well hopefully sleep will take care of it, but i am getting up early to get dressed and stuff , even though we aren't having Christmas I still want to be all dressed up and what not YAY!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!

Day Of Christmas

"May the spirit of Christmas bring you peace,
The gladness of Christmas give you hope,
The warmth of Christmas grant you love."
~Author Unknown

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XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX Danielle

Lights Camera its Christmas Eve Bitches lol

It finally has arrived the day before Christmas and all I can think about is Bella.

So I thought i was going to be sleeping most of the day, but i was wrong Donna came into my room and woke me to tell me that Bella wasn't feeding and she was taken to the nursery and they found that she has low blood pressure.

So everyone was panicking and wondering if we should go visit and i was like yea i don't think they want a bunch of worry warts there standing around, making the situation worse, so after i talked to my mother i took a shower and got ready for the day, because i didn't know if and when we were going to visit my sister.

My mom called again with her worries and i was busy making food, so i pushed her onto My dads wife and they talked while i was getting my food ready and then just as i sat down to eat, My dads wife gave me the phone back, but luckily she didn't stay on to long with me, and then I watched the littles and ate my food.

I got a text from Kevin the guy me and Melissa made friends with and have been hanging out with, well he invited me to go to downtown Riverside and see the lights they put up over there, at first I was hesitant because i been getting major flirting signs, and then i thought we were going to go see Phyllis sometime when my dad got home, but then he got home and he told me he talked to my sister and she said she didn't really want any visitors right now, so then i agreed to go out.

we went out around like 7 and i brought my camera and took some really nice pictures of the lights, and some cute and funny ones of Kevin. It was really fun chillin with him. We walked all around the place and then he was hungry so we drove back towards closer to where i lived and he got something to eat then we went to where Melissa works parked out there and waited til she got off work.

So me and Kevin hung out talking me taking pictures of him eating. Then when she came out of work i poped out of Kevin's car and surprised her she was surprised we were there, and then we went to Moreno Vally to Bed Bath And Beyond because she was wanting a certain thing for her mommy, then we went back to her house and Kevin fell asleep on the couch and me and Melissa hung out and i took pictures her and this really cute snow man cookie jar she has it was a grand ole time, wish it didn't have to end, but it got really cold in her place , and plus they both had to work in the morning so Kevin took me home and that was the end of my day YAY it was fun , but sad because Bella's situation.

So don't know when they will be released from the hospital, but it doesn't matter as long as she gets well , and we will celebrate Christmas whenever she is able to that is the plan anyway. I got invited to have dinner at Melissa's if we don't have it on Christmas.

Well i am exhausted night night all.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!

Christmas Eve

"At Christmas play and make good cheer,
For Christmas comes but once a year"
~Thomas Tusser

XOXO D

Greatest Gift One Can Recieve

Sorry I didn't post sooner, but so much has been going on.... any way with out further a due i would like to welcome my new niece BELLA CECELIA WISE Born: December 22 2009 at 10:10 PM Weighing: 4lbs and 9 ounces. she is the most beautiful creature i have ever seen and here she is the new light of our life , the new addition to our family.

I am so happy she will get to join us for Christmas I even went out and got her first present for Christmas/Birthday .

well i am sooooo exhausted I didn't get any sleep yesterday ok well i got a hour and maybe a half hour after we went to visit her in the morning.

I hung out with Melissa and Kevin most of the day it was fun and i did my hair in a cute roll again it was awesome, oh my goodness it was cold and windy i hope i don't get sick, i heard alot of people coughing in the stores and what not.

Well again I just want to say that i am soooooo happy that baby Bella is here in the world now. and every one is Happy Healthy and safe.

Oh yea and I finally wrapped my gifts so i am done with all that thank goodness lol.

Night night , first sleep for Bella in the world. I hope my sister is doing well.

Two Days Til Christmas

"Keep your Christmas-heart open all the year round". ~Jessica Archmint

XOXO D

BABY ON THE WAY THE BEGINNG

Oh man Oh man ok so today started normal i was just kicking it being lazy was playing my garden game , texting Vince, and thinking about but not wrapping my gifts lol. My mom had called and we were talking about this and that, and i was still lounging in my jammies, thinking about soon taking a shower and it's almost close to 5 pm sorry being lazy hehe, any way when my mom calls me again and i am like oh she must be upset or something, but she tells me that my sister is going to be staying at the hospital and its time for her to have the baby i am like oh my dear loving God. so i give the phone to my dads wife and for them to figure out the driving arrangements while i quickly get close on and put make up on and look decent, trying to hurriedly think what i would need , so i figure that out and i get all my stuff together and mom is on her way over and we are all going to ride over there together. I am in a panic because Phyllis is all alone in the hospital and i am thinking of lord she's going to have the baby with out us there, and my dads wife is driving and she gets on the wrong on ramp and i am just calmly texting everyone telling them whats going on and finally we get there we get there the same time my sisters husband gets there very interesting and so we wait for him to park and meet us so we can all follow where we go.

So we get to the room where my sister is and we ask her if she is ok and kiss her and hug her and then sit and listen to whats going on, so basically the ambiatic fluid is really low and she also has high blood pressure so they have to keep her at the hospital and they gave her something that is going to my her dilate so that she will go into labor, so they said it was going to take some time til she will be ready so we went home and are going back in the morning , and they will call if anything occurs and we will be there as soon as possible . so right now i am afraid to sleep because i am worried something is going to go on and i won't be there with my sister, i know she has her husband but still she is my sister and i love her and this is her first baby and i am already in love with my new niece and want everything to be fine and no worries.

I still haven't wrapped my gifts lol, which i should do after i finish this blog my oh my what a week this is turning out to be , i just want someone to talk to but being that it's 130 am no many people are up, normal ones that is , i am not normal, but for fun i am making a garden for Bella my new niece and it is turning out so cute i will post it when i am finish. ok well i am going to go wrap gifts now hopefully nothing distracts me from doing so lol. night night

Three Days Til Christmas

"
Perhaps the best Yuletide decoration is being wreathed in smiles." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

Plain Sunday

Not much going on was just a lazy day sat around in my PJ's and then cleaned my room a little and then cleaned my ratties cage , was going to try and get some wrapping done but that didn't happen.

I was looking at this conversation i had with this one guy named Patrick, and it was so cute I couldn't help but smile when i read it, gosh i wish it had worked out with that guy he was so sweet and funny, but suddenly he was gone , i guess he didn't like me, but was to much of a coward to tell me , gees I'd rather know then just wondering what and the hell happened ya know. of course i would be sad but i would get over it, instead of wondering well what happened, i still have his number would never dream of calling it no way , instead i left him a message on yahoo, which i doubt he still uses anymore, but it like sucked he was so cool to talk to, i don't recall how he kissed, but it couldn't of been that bad if i still wished we would of went out more.

Speaking of kisses i don't but i think white guys can't kiss, well most of them because like yea most of the white guys i've kissed bleh , but i haven't kissed enough of the other races to justify that they are equally bad or good , but can i please meet someone who can freakin kiss and not lick my lips off my face erg.

Ok well I really need to get the wrapping done so maybe that will happen today we shall see, boy am i hungry but i need to go to bed as well. night night.

Four Days Til Christmas

"
Remember
This December,
That love weighs more than gold!"
~Josephine Dodge Daskam Bacon

XOXO D

Christmas Lights and some Nazis

Today was pretty good considering i didn't get to much sleep , because my friend came over about 11 and i did her hair for her, but then i got to take a nap then i did my own hair , and around a little after 5 my sister came over , the family got subway and after we finished eating we went to look at Christmas lights around Redlands, not many people where in the light putting up mood, we did see some good ones though but not to many, boy do i love when people put the Christmas tree in the window it looks really awesome that way, i was going to try and take pictures of the lights but then i changed my mind and just though i would enjoy them.

We got back to the house from Christmas lights looking and we watched a movie called "Inglorious Bastards" starring Brad Pitt , it was actually pretty good I enjoyed it, of course it was good though it was a Quentin Tarantino film he always does a good job. Then that was the end of family time.

I came into my room started playing the Garden game , and then began listing to that song "Eyes On Fire" By Blue Foundation and just started to get pretty emotional for some reason, seriously i think its because he has been in my head and I've tried so hard not to think of him or anything , but some way or another he ends up in my thoughts , dreams, or brought up by someone, so its really hard and i still have feelings well obviously with all the water works that is coming up , but i don't want feelings for him anymore, he doesn't have them for me , why should i continue to hang on to mine ? it sucks i hate it i want to get over him, i want to forget him, i wish i could leave this state i would be soooo happy not be around here for Christmas i just don't feel like it this year at all, and i don't know what to do, I still don't feel the Christmas Spirit with all the lights and the music and you should see the mountain of presents, but i just feel empty and sad and i want to cry , i usually like wrapping and i have still yet to wrap the things i got my family just kinda wish they would wrap themselves lol, I don't want to feel this way i really don't , but i do , i just want to pack a bag grab my ratties and hit the road, they are the only things that really make me smile, I love those crazy ratties so much, That is the greatest gift this Christmas is to have them around. Of course also having my family around it great i love them oh so dearly and even if there was a chance to run away i wouldnt be that selfish , because i want to be with my sister as she has her first child, that i would not miss. Well soon Christmas will be here and it will go by fast i just have to bit my lip and get through it.

five Days Til Christmas

"Even as an adult I find it difficult to sleep on Christmas Eve. Yuletide excitement is a potent caffeine, no matter your age." ~Carrie Latet

XOXO D

Up late and need sleep

Hiya , just spent since like 1040 pm til 600 am helping my friend put her scrap book present for her dad together, it was fun , but a lot of work, but we pushed ourselves and got through it. we created 10 pages it was great i am glad i could help her out with something like that. well i would love to say more but i am dead beat tired and just want to go to bed because in a little bit my friend is coming over and having me do her hair so yeah will talk more next time for sure bye for now.

Six Days Til Christmas

"It is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air." ~W.T. Ellis

XOXO D

Wax and a Hair cut then some scrapbooking

today was a fun interesting long day, me and my friend Melissa hung out today and it was pretty good, I didn't think it would because last night i was kind of getting bugged but i think because i was in my emo mood lol.

So my day started a little after 12 pm and Melissa picked me up and we had to get to her Hair appointment and she also got her eyebrows waxed , i thought it was going to take forever but i forgot that's just when i get my hair done lol .

Then after that she wanted to go to Joanna's because she putting together this scrap book thing for her family, so we picked up background paper and even some stuff to stick on the pages it was fun and we were even entertaining people that were there, i swear me and her should have our own show of the little adventures we do, and so we got all our stuff that we needed and left .

Then we went back to my house where we had to sort through her pictures and take out the ones that she wanted to put in the scrap book , which took like forever it seemed like, but I even got to take a special picture of my ratties which i will post Christmas day, and then a new friend to our nutty group decided to come over and join us Kevin that my friend met not to long ago he is my music soul mate lol.

Finally we were finished with sorting the pictures , and then we went to walmart to hopefully print them out, but sadly the machine wasn't open so she had to like order them and we won't be able to get them til the morning, and so she won't be able to come over til 10 pm tomorrow and we will be working on the project, but at least that gives me something to do tomorrow besides doing massive laundry and cleaning my ratties cage, i can tell they know i am going to clean lol no they don't lol.

So we spent the rest of the night we watched the new episode of "Always Sunny in Philadelphia" and omg my friend would not shut up about how lame the acting was and about one guys voice, so me and Kevin kept tormenting her about what she did, and then we watched her lame show "Bones" , ok well it's not lame its ok , but I say that because my friend likes it , and i wouldn't watch it back in the day because I don't really care for the actor David Borenaz i know thats not how you spell his last name but i don't care for him that much to go look for the correct spelling, i am sorry i don't know why everyone thought he was soo freakin hot on buffy, i was more of a spike fan not a angel fan bleh , so any way after the second episode of "Bones" it was time for everyone to go home.

So it was a pretty good day all in all, and i hope tomorrow goes good as well.

Night night all.

Eight Days Til Christmas

"Never worry about the size of your Christmas tree. In the eyes of children, they are all 30 feet tall." ~Larry Wilde, The Merry Book of Christmas

XOXO D

Dreams within

Had a late start today I just didn't really want to get up ya know. I finally got my day started when my mom came over again to borrow the book Eclipse that I had finished, and hung out for a little bit and then left.

I was supposed to see Vince this weekend, but thing fell through and I am not, I did buy him a xmas gift but i returned it and got him something else , when my sister came over after work because i needed to get my moms gift, I was also trying to do something special for my family, but it didn't work out it was such a bummer, kinda got me in a emo mood, and i was just sitting in my room playing the garden game and listening to the Twilight soundtrack and i was just playing this one song i like on there "eyes on fire" by Blue Foundation, and for some reason it just made me start balling , and then i finished crying but was still in a little mood.

My friend came over because we are supposed to look for a hairstyle of how she wants her hair and i really wasn't in the mood for her, but we looked found some cute ones of what she would want and then i was really hoping she wanted to go , but she just kept staying, i wanted to talk to Vince but she was still her, so we ended up watching American Dad and Family guy, then after Family Guy , i was like ok well you better go and she was like what you tired and i am like well we have things to do tomorrow and finally she left, sorry but i am a mood and i didn't feel like hanging anymore, just a lot of things not being able so see Vince, my picture not working out, etc, i was hoping Vince would still be up and want to chat , but i guess he went to sleep already so i stood up and finished my Christmas Garden and I can't wait to show you , so here it is.

KICK ASS CHRISTMAS GARDEN PICTURE

yes i know i am a dork , but i love it hehe.

Today i was day dreaming that i started a band and all i sang about was heart break it was bad ass , i wish i had a good enough voice and was pretty enough to be noticed , but it was fun to play out in my head.

Well i am getting sleepy eyes, so night night.

Nine Days Til Christmas

"I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year." ~Charles Dickens

XOXO D

Rat Tooth situation continued and music soul mate

So I could tell you that waking up today was a big gulp and dreading , for i was going to attempt to trim my rat Sunflower's tooth and i was in no way looking forward to it . I was very scared, but you see my mother was to come over and help me , so she got over here a little after 11 am , and she was like ok lets do this , but sunflower was eating and drinking so i didn't want her to pee or anything like that, because i am sure what we were going to put her through would make her do something, so i was like lets wait til we get back from shopping.

SO first we went to go eat, and then we headed to the mall where I did some shopping , i did shopping for two people and of my gosh was it ever so difficult to do I could make my mind up on both the people's gifts, because i wasn't sure what they would like, but finally i made my decision for both people and i don't know if it was the right one , but hell i got them both gift receipts so if they don't like them they can take them the hell back.

Then we came back home and it was time to do the deed, so i got her out gave her kisses and gave my mom gloves so sun flower wouldn't scratch her up, and once she had them on i gave her sun flower at first it was difficult because she quickly became panicked and was wanting out so then i got a towel in case of any accidents, at first i was going to use this nail scissor thing , but then my dad's wife gave me some kind of mini wire clipper thing, and my mom said to use that instead so then it was just a tug and war with getting her to settle down enough for me to get in there and try to get her tooth and finally i had the opportunity to trim her tooth and i took it and snap it cut the tooth and quickly i got it out of her mouth and made sure she was ok and then put her back in her cage for her to relax and recover from what she was just put through. I love my babies and will do anything for them , but damn i hope i never have to do that again , i was shaking so bad after i did that.

So then later into the evening my friend was texting me that she wanted to hang out and bring a guy that she has been talking to , that she says she is only friends with, but she wanted to hang in my room, but i know that would be not a good idea for dad and his wife would have a bitch fit, she wasn't giving my a answer as to what was going on, and i was on the phone with Vince , and while we were talking there was a creepy scratching at my screen of the window erg it freaked me out but i knew it was my friend messing around, but still it was weird because me and vince were just talking about zombies and scary crap, when i went out there the first time she didn't come out of hiding , and so i went back inside and a few moments later she did it again, so i said goodbye to Vince and got dressed and grabed my purse and went outside.

I got outside and they were hiding again but not for long and they came out, and she introduced me to the guy his name is Kevin, and ya know i felt pretty comfortable for meeting a new person usually i was pretty quiet , but he liked my humor and laughed when i was trying to be funny, so i think that really put me in my comfort zone and we had a good time talking, and Melissa bought us Mcrib from Mcdonalds lol, because she hadn't had one before, then we drove around about , and then went back to my house and just sat in the car listening to his music from his phone and that's where i found out that he is my Music Soul mate , we had the same taste in a lot of music it wasn't funny , also like some others things , me and my friend couldn't believe it, as we were chillin and listening to music, I was braiding Melissa's Hair in little braids it was fun, i wish i could of did her whole head which i was close to doing , but then she was getting tried and they had to leave, and we ended up exchanging number it was pretty cool, if only he was older and looking to date , i believe he just looking for friends. but i never met a guy who like alot of the same music as i did it just soo freakin awesome man.

Well that's it for now people. night night

10 More days til Christmas

"May Peace be your gift at Christmas and your blessing all year through!" ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

Reading and my ratties tooth

So I have decided to try and blog for the rest of the days til Christmas which might be a bit tough but i am surly going to try yay!!

Yesterday after I blogged I still wasn't ready to go to sleep so I ended up reading and finishing Eclipse the third installment of the Twilight saga books, and oh man it was good i enjoyed it to the end and i can't wait to read the last one eeeep.Also I didn't go to bed til a little after 8 AM I was dedicated to finish the book hehe.

More sad rat news , my oldest baby rat girl sunflower has a chipped tooth and one is very very long tomorrow my mother is coming over to help me hold her while i try my best and trim the long ass tooth, I tried to do it myself today but boy she is so strong and will not sit still for a moment and she scratched me up really good, but i don't mind i was trying to get her tooth so she doesn't hurt herself, i was telling Vince about it and he can't comfort me or wish me luck he has to bitch about how i shouldn't do , well i have no other way i don't have the money to take her to a vet , and everyone online says how to go about doing it and i am going to try because i don't want it to go into a more serious problem, gosh it scares me that in some ways he reminds me of my ex icky kinda makes me not want to be with him , but i yelled at him about being insensitive and he didn't say jack shit just went off to bed so I will let ya know what happens tomorrow about that situation the rat one not Vince ick.

Today I watched American Dad and it was really good i really enjoyed it , i kinda wish there was a show like the one they had today all in the future people fighting demons it was really cool, i liked it.

Got back into my Green spot game addiction. I am trying to get into the spirit of Christmas and so I was listening to music and trying to make a Christmas Holiday garden, so far it's ok , but i just wish i had more things to decorate with , not enough red objects in that game and not enough money to get all the things i need but I want to hurry and finish so I can enter this little contest they have i don't think i will win but hey doesn't hurt to enter ya know so I guess I will also be working on that , when I am finish i will post the picture on here for you to see.

Also today I messaged this guy named Ruben the three strikes your out guy, I told him Merry Christmas I so didn't think he would respond, but he did I was very surprised, he seems sad and he as well is not in the Christmas Spirit which is sad , but I kinda know why he isn't , his family is going through some stuff.

Tried to invite my friend Melissa over to watch Family Guy, but she was busy being a chicken head. I am kinda dreading tomorrow with my babies tooth , i wish i could take her to the vet, would make me feel she was in more professional capable hands instead of me who is probably going to freak out or something well wish me luck, well i better get to bed have to get up soon .

11 days til christmas

"The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other." ~Burton Hillis

XOXO D

Ornament Party

Not much has been going on, me and that Vince guy are giving it more of a chance , but i still don't feel it will go very far, but i am not going to let doubt interfere with the possibility of something great.

Thursday my friend and another friend of hers we went up to Big bear and we met up with Vince to hang out, it was ok.

Then the next night we went to the other friends house to hang out it was a little boring and i kinda wished i didn't go , but at least i got out of the house even though it was into a another house lol.

Saturday my family got together for dinner and a movie, we watched "Night at the Museum 2" with Ben Stiller and Amy Adams , it was a cute film, I enjoyed it very much.

Then Sunday night my sister invited me to a "Ornament Party" we have to bring a Ornament and wrap it and then we picked numbers and go in order of the numbers and down the line the person picks a gift unwraps it and then the next person has a chance to steal that persons Ornament or pick a different gift, I loved the Ornament i brought to the party , and i didn't really want to give it up , so anyway my sister was the first to pick and she had her ornament and a few people went , my number was number 5 and i got a ornament and i was praying someone would steal it from me lol, this one girl stole my sister ornament, because it was the one she brought to the party and i was like oh man if someone steals mine i am so going to try to get mine lol, luckily someone did steal mine and i got to get my owl and my sister since she was the first one she got to do the finally steal and she got what she wanted it was awesome , i mean i love my owl ornament it's bad ass lol. here is a pictures of it

BADASSS OWL ORNAMENT

So ya that was my first ornament party and it was interesting, good food , kinda awkward because i didn't really know anyone but me and my sister talked to each other and it got me out of the house which i enjoy lol.

Also been getting into watching "Mystery Science Theater 3000" that show is so freaking awesomely funny love it .

Christmas is just around a few corners and I am still not feeling the Christmas spirit, I am not Hum bug, but i am not excited either, I did get to do a little shopping and still have to do a bit more, I hope I get hit with the Christmas Spirit soon I really want to be in the mood I hate feeling like this.

Oh yea when I saw Vince he gave me treats for my ratties that was very cool of him, he gave me these puff things , butterz and yumyum don't really enjoy them, but Sunflower and my sweet Kyoshi eat them right up, he also gave me some yogurt drops , they are like yogies but bigger and weird looking lol, and everybody loves those lol.

It's been really cold with out you , I've been using my moms heat pad that she gave me and i sleep a little with it then turn it off just as i am about to knock out , speaking of sleeping I've been having a roller coaster of dreams first I dream of someone terrible , it was just awful and i felt so bad after i dreamt it due to the ties it has with me I can't tell you about it. Then I had a dream about me and Vince and let me tell you that i woke up smiling it was awesome i was like oh shit i am smiling and was like and i know why lol, just a really really good dream lol.

Well closer to Christmas and closer to my sisters baby being born, can't wait to meet my new Niece, I will try to write again, but sorry if i don't get to it, but i will try my hardest to remember to get on and let ya'll know what is going on.

Oh yeah and damn I've been craving Hot coco like mad lol.

12 days til Christmas

"He who has not Christmas in his heart will never find it under a tree." ~Roy L. Smith

XOXO D

Broken Hearts and Hungry Movies

yesterday was about tears and being very unhappy, today was about watching movies i watched a few of my faves that i own, the first i watched was "The Secretary" with James Spader and Maggie Gyllenhaal if you hadn't seen it well really depends on what kind of movies you enjoy if you would like this one , awe hell just watch it anyway if you like you like if you don't eh that's your opinion . The next movie I watched i am sure most people have seen called " Spanglish" with Adam Sandler, Tea Leoni, Cloris Leachman, Paz Vega, I love watching that movie I don't know why but I never grow tired of it i mean Ive seen it so many times that i was even saying the Spanish lines before they did lol, ya i know i am a dork. The third movie I watched today was "Clue" with Tim curry, Madeline Kahn, Christopher Lloyd, Lesley Ann Warren, now i don't know to many people who have seen that movie, and if you are one of those people please track it down and watch it, it is a good movie and maybe just maybe might get a chuckle out of you. Then later on in the night i was talking with my friend she was at home getting ready to watch a movie herself, and decided to drive over to my place and watch it with me (cue the awww card lol jk) any way so what we watched was the movie "Julie and Julia" with Meryl Streep and Amy Adams, it was very cutsy, i had no idea it was based on a real story, but this movie made me a couple things, really really hungry lol and got me to want to blog haha, it was funny my friend fell asleep but i just had to see the end and in case you haven't seen it i won't say what really disappointed me erg could of been so good if only aw well can't always win lol.

So that was my movie day and also i ended it with this guy I've been talking with Vince, gosh i love that name such a great name , he doesn't even live that far from me but because he doesn't drive he might as well live in another time zone, as much as i wanted to try i just really don't think it is good to, i was hoping that today i would get to talk to him on the phone, but i think i pissed him off with not text him back when he was texting me , or because i wasn't going along with his plan to try "try" to get me over to where he is at, but so i thought long and hard about this situation and i didn't even push it aside when many told me i shouldnt, i gave it a chance and i just really don't think that it was right, everything else seemed good, the connection, the conversations, and the kissing , all that is wrong is the timing in our lives. because really i am not looking for a phone pal no no i am looking for a bf someone to go out with , have fun, kiss, cuddle, hold, look into each others eyes, etc etc etc .... not just talk on the phone and maybe try to see each other if his or my friends pull through no no that is just lame. So i didn't get to talk to him and i just had to end it yesterday , and no way i was going to do it through text like some spineless, cowardice, asshole lol. So I wrote down what i was going to say used this cool number to just be able to go to his Voice mail and left him the message, erg but it sucked because I was about to click the option to hear it before i left, but then boom it disconnected me so i didn't get to hear how it sounded and blah i messed up a few times and so wanted to redo it, oh well. My friend keeps asking him if he called yet, i wonder if he will even call, I bet he wouldn't he doesn't seem like the type to chase he seems like the type of guy to talk alot of talk , promise the moon, and then not chase a girl , does he have a chance to catch me? yes because i love determination, i always tell a guy somewhere along the line that i liked to be chased , but they probably think playfully, and i do but also if you think i am getting at arms length just about out of reach then freaking run over to me grab me close and capture me. So this guy at this first time we met in person said i love you to me, so in turn i believe i am breaking his heart which sucks , because i hate to have my heart crushed , but really as much as i would have liked it to work its not going to not enough trinkets would make do , because that's what he wanted to do was buy me a really awesome gift so that when we couldn't see each other it would remind me of him , but um i don't want to spend more time with the trinket then i do him, so ya it's over , but would love to stay friends.

"Had a salad today was soooo awesome even ate some tomatoes that didn't have to be cooked for me to eat them." - Danielle M.

XOXO D

Dark side of the Stars

today i woke up to the sound of beautiful rain how lovely it is to just sit and listen to its breathtaking music. I just wish i had someone to share it with and a cup of cocoa , after a bit of listening to it, i decided what would go great with it would be listening to some lullatone , there music goes really well with the rain you should try it sometime.

Spent my day watching episodes of house caught up on that.

Every moment it become closer and closer to Christmas and i don't feel any closer to getting the holiday spirit, the music is all around , the decorations are up, even the weather is on schedule crisp cold air perfect to fit the season, but I don't feel it , and i just feel blah and i want so bad to be in the spirit , so bad to want to do things but i just can't and i look at myself and go why , i want to slap myself and say go do something , but nothing happens.

All I want for Christmas is to be happy, I don't want gifts or a big ass dinner i don't need, i just want to feel happy, i want to have a reason to smile, i want something to make me want to have a goal a future ......... i love being happy and smiling and being with my family , but there is just something missing in my life and i have no idea what it is or how to achieve it, i really think i should start going to church maybe look towards god for the answer , i mean he saved my rat kyoshi and that i am truly thankful for.

I just really needed to write what i was feeling it helps me a lot i don't have anyone to really talk things out with basically i am the one everyone tells their troubles to and that's it. I will feel better i just need to cry it out, sometimes you just need to cry ya know.



"Let your tears come. Let them water your soul." ~Eileen Mayhew

D

The Cheese Muffin Shall Be Eaten

hello so now we enter the month of December close to Christmas, birth of my new and first niece , and a new year. for the most part i am extremely excited about my sister about to give birth to her first kid/Daughter, as for the others like christmas not really looking forward to it only for the low cash flow and won't be able to give those i love much , i've been trying to think what i could give them but i am coming up blank.

now I had got in a little fight with my friend, she was all busy with this new girl she is trying to date and then they were having a little trouble and she told me that we were going to hang out, but then bailed on me and i had already got ready to go and everything, and this isn't the first time she has done that so i was very angry at her, then she finally came over apologized and gave me a cheese muffin and we made up.

Yesterday we started the beginning of the month together and we went to the mountains up to Big Bear and had a lot of fun we made snow men, snow creatures and got really really cold. I met someone that day as well, i had been talking to this guy named Vince (love the name) i am a freak i just adore when a guy has a name i love lol i have no idea why , anywho. so me and my friend were waiting til he got off work , and i have been talking to him for over a little bit of a week and we seem "seem" to hit it off , and so this was the first time i would be meeting him in person, so i was ultra nervous. so finally he got off work and i met up with him by the parking lot and he kissed me and hugged me. the three of us ended up going to a near by park and hanging out and then my friend left , and left alone with Vince and well we started to kiss hehe, i give him a 8 out of 10 , he was a good kisser thank goodness i was had been doubting humanity of not raising more good kisser lol, anyway the only thing that bugged was that his lip ring was poking me lol, that just sounded wrong. so it started getting late and we decided to go get something to eat, and we did then we went to Vince's house and listened as he played the guitar for us, oh my i got sooooooooooooooo turned on it was awesome , something about seeing a guy rock out on a guitar, so then he came and sat by me on the couch and my friend played around with the guitar as me and Vince had a makeout session hehe, i got two hickies on my neck and will be wearing this turtle neck til they disappear lol, i also gave him some but was very hesitant to because he works and i don't want him to get in trouble. well it was a really fun day and i loved it. right now i am fighting with myself wether i believe in this relationship with Vince it's just me being scared, worried and over thinking everything. and then my poor friend is going through some stuff that i wish she wasn't , the girl she was into is not talking to her, and she has no idea why, they just got into gf status and were happy, but now my friend is sad and wants to drink her troubles away and i need to be there for her . Oh what was really cool to me because it doesn't happen all that much or maybe it does and i am just oblivious but as me and my friend were waiting for Vince we were chilling in the car and these guys were passing by and man this one guy was just staring at me and smiling and i didn't even connect that he was checking me out til he was outta sight and i turned to my friend i was like oh man that guy was checking me out lol.

Ok so anyway here are some pics of our time in the mountains.

Me and Melissa

Me and the snow man Freddy

Melissa And The Snow Man Freddy

Snow Bunny That I Made hehe

Melissa And The Snow Rat That She Made

Me and Vince hanging out

"Snowflakes are kisses from heaven." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

Another Thanksgiving has arrived just last Thanksgiving I was talking with a sweet older man from Virginia and I would sneak off and call him and wish him a happy thanksgiving, and also last time i didn't get to spend thanksgiving with my ratties because i lived in Ventura and had to leave them home, now i get to spend it with everyone i love . Sorry I haven't blogged in a while just haven't been up to it these past days, but after today i think i will began to start doing it again and i am going to revamp my site, because i have a new way to take things.

So I hope everyone has a good day and gets to spend it with family or friends or that special someone, I am sure we all have things to be Thankful for and be sure to at least make it know.

I am thankful that i get to be here and have a wonderful time with my family and thankful the everyone in my family is happy and healthy and that my sister and her baby are doing very well and soon Bella will join us and by this time next year she will join the family for thanksgiving.

"Let us remember that, as much has been given us, much will be expected from us, and that true homage comes from the heart as well as from the lips, and shows itself in deeds." ~Theodore Roosevelt



XOXO D

Belated Birthday Blog

Oh my i have been soooo busy i wasn't able to come one and blog on the day of my birthday which was November 5th, for my Birthday me and my friend and a new friend of mine went to the club in Azusa and had a freakin blast , i danced with some people and flirted and drank and had a great bday with my friend, then during the weekend my dad took me and my sister out for dinner to red lobster my sisters bday is on the 8th so we celebrate them together, and then Sunday my mom took us to eat at the spaghetti factory .

And guess what every one i have a cell phone again finally, i got it for my bday even tho its a stupid prepay one why my dad won't put me on his plan is beyond me , but oh well this one is actually pretty cool, its a slider phone so it has the qwerty keyboard which i have been wanting for like ever lol. I also got art supplies and ....
CLOTHES MONEY yessssssssssssssss what i've always wanted lol.

then i've been talking to several people, one particular named Ruben been trying to meet that hottie for like a while but either he is busy or i am busy one thing or another, but supposedly we are supposed to meet up on Friday yay (such a cutie) but i got to meet someone else his name is Denis and well he is a very interesting fella who can't keep his paws off me and my arms hurt from keeping him at bay lol, actually more like my arms hurting because i was holding on for dear life as i was on the back of his motorcycle his only means of transportation and we went out this Tuesday, we went for pizza and rented some movies , i finally got to see "I love you man" and "Alvin and the chipmunks" i enjoyed both movies , but i have no idea what to think about Denis, i really don't he is very smart, alive, interesting, fun, funny, cute , but i don't know i feel kinda intimidated by him , who knows. All i have to say that i was soooo scared to get on the bike with him, but after i did it it was like really really fun, he has a Kawasaki ninja in black .

This Wednesday i am going shopping with my sister and Bella (that's her unborn babies name yay) i am going to be spending that birthday money and get me some cute clothes yeya.

Ok well i am pretty kaput so i am just going to say farewell and good night

XOXO D

Catching Up

sorry I haven't written in a while been busy.

Wednesday night my friend Melissa had a party to celebrate her birthday, she messaged alot of her buddies and we cleaned her garage out and the night was mixed with flip cup, drinking, drama, and me kissing a real cutie lol, that's the short version luckily i did not puke Yay.

Thursday night me and my friend Melissa and other of her friends went to a club out in Azusa called Rock it , it's a rockabilly club that plays 80's music all night, but when we got there they had a halloween theme night and a band play who was really loud and bad so we went to another room that they have that plays techno music, i bought my friend a long beach ice tea and myself a midori sour, it was fun we dance til it was closing then me my friend and her friends went to denny's and had some food and some laughs then home.

Friday night my and my friend Melissa went to a party of a girl we used to work with it, we both drank and danced, and i got a little upset and went off to the car later my friend joined me but then puked her guts out on the side of the car for like what seemed forever , luckily i did not barf lol, we slept in the car til about 6 am then she drove home first to pee then she took me home lol.

Saturday night I went to my sisters and some friends came over we passed out candy and talked , then we played Pictionary man it was fun.

Sunday night we had family dinner and a movie and we watched "The Orphan" it was ok, totally not what I expected at all to happen, but it did get a little weird towards the end lol.

Sooo yeah i had been pretty busy with all that jazz, sadly my friend is sick so i will have time to clean up my room and do some major laundry that i haven't been able to do because i've had no time. i also need to call my mother and arrange a time i can go and look for my sisters bday present.

YAY my BIRTHDAY is Thursday if my friend is up to it we are going to go to the club again can't wait i hope she can go , and i might might have a date on Friday but i don't think it will happen guy is kinda odd and i can't read him if he will really go for it well he does live in the OC and works so it would be kinda a drive for the guy , then Saturday my Dad is taking us out to dinner yay and i get presents hehe love presents lol.

"A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

WOOT

tonight starts a string of events yay!!!!!

SURVEY TIME

before i go on with the surveyness, Hulu posted more of a anime i've been wanting to see at first they only put some of the episodes , but a while ago they posted the rest and so today i started to watch them "Nana" is the anime , it mad me sad because some parts i felt common ground with the character and i shed some tears , but i am ok , but i feel like doing a survey.

Oh another thing , been talking with this guy named Ruben , he is super sweet, sexy, and cute, he is tall with tattoos and a very sexy voice i might add, so we shall see where this might go.

OH and i might be going to a club one that i went to a while back with my friend club Rock it ..... many many rockabilly type people go there, i hope we go , but it all depends on my friend if she wants too ... so please cross your fingers.

OK ON WITH THE SURVEY

Do you have anything that belongs to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
hehe my ex yes i do and he isn't getting it back my token for spending all that useless time and effort on him haha

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
yea because i know it will never happen :(

When was the last time someone called you baby?
last night hehe

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
ummm not really sure

When was the last time you were really confused?
seems like all the time now i just don't know what to think about some things *sigh*

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
oh yes i hate them , but secretly love them hehe

Do you have nice eyes?
yup the one real thing i like about me , they change colors and sometime look absolutely gorgeous.

Whose birthday is coming up?
Oh my best friend , my step nephew, mine and my sisters YAY

Were you happy when you woke up?
not really i felt kind of blah

Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
nope i am uninspiring lol

What was the last thing you cried about?
oh that i let go of someone that possible would of made me happy :.(

Would you do anything to have someone back in your life?
yea i would , i would do whatever it takes

Who was the last person that called you?
Mr. LoPorto it sure was nice to hear his voice again :(

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
bummed

Opposite sex on your mind?
yea several lol

What are you currently doing besides this?
putting this on my blog lol

Any plans for tomorrow?
um greeting my dads wife's new dog lol

What's the last thing you ate?
LASAGNA (my fav food beside sushi ) and brownies yumalishous hehe

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
not at the moment , my feelings are on hold for those of the opposite sex til i can figure things out erg.

Are you going be home alone tonight?
i was last week, but they are back and now my best friend is coming over yay

When is the last time you took a nap?
today actually i was playing the new tetris challenge and i got sleepy so i went for like 30 mins then continued lol

What person do you trust the most?
trust no one they only hurt you in the end

Is someone mad at you right now?
um well not that i know of lol

When was the last time you were sick?
when i went with my friend to Idyllwild got the pukies lol

What are you looking forward to?
seeing my friend tonight, maybe going to a club Thursday night and then hopefully seeing my crush on Halloween yay hehe lol

Last time you talked to someone outloud?
to my dads wife talking about her new dog coming and she showed me the toys and what not she got her

First thing you did this morning?
check my email

Best thing about yesterday?
i got to hang with my sister and later on my best friend and i talked to Ruben

Name a person that you instantly smile when you see they're calling:
no one really calls they just message me online

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
not really i kinda have to experience it for myself

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
no i am very sensitive so seeing a animal hurt in a movie watch out for the water works lol

Let's be honest; have you ever been played by someone?
probably but i am not sure

When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
maybe a part of me but the other part most likly does

You wake up and all your hair is shaved off, what do you do?
look for melissa lol..... buy some wigs of different awesome colors ex. pink , blue, rainbow lol

What's your school's mascot?
Wild cats meow lol

Do you have an absurd amount of change in your room?
not a absurd amount but somewhere i have a sock of change , but it's actually ment to keep change in it it's sooooo cute lol

Most valued thing in the room you are currently in?
Computer, ipod, ratties, hair straightner

When you know you're wrong, how do you act?
embarrassed


Where is your mom?
at her apartment i am sure

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
really right now my heart wishes it had went to Virginia *sigh*

Is your current relationship simple or complicated?
i have no relationship , but there are possible ones hehe

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
with what i have , but not what ive done with it

Is there anyone you need to talk to right now?
the list is long lol

Where do you purchase most of your articles of clothing?
well it used to be hot topic , but they sooo expensive and now i find cuter more girly and affordable clothes at Forever 21

What upset you the most today?
This anime show called "Nana" related to what happened *sigh*

Besides a family member's place, where was the last place you went to, why?
Walmart for some necessities

What color are your underwear?
like a teal color hehe

Who will always tell it to you like it is, no matter if it's going to hurt or not?
my sister definitely

Do you want your phone to ring at the moment?
only if its for me and a certain person which won't happen

Name three things you want more than anything at this very moment:
A job, the person my heart Desires, and my license

Hope you enjoyed you should copy and post somewhere like myspace.

"'ll bet living in a nudist colony takes all the fun out of Halloween." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

Halloween is almost here

So I don't have the place to myself anymore , i will miss the freedom to roam around the house in just my bra and panties hehe.

so I haven't blogged in a bit, lets see Tuesday night there was a meteor shower i got to see a little of it, then that guy Casey came over and we watched a movie.

Then Wednesday my old friend from hs Rosanna came over and hung out and we a caught up on each others lives it was fun.

Thursday my mom came over and we watched a bunch of episodes of "So You Think You Can Dance."

Friday I reconnected with this guy i talked to back when i lived in Ventura, I thought he was soooo cute, and he wanted to meet me , but i couldn't so i stopped talking, well he messaged me again and we got to talking and then he came over and hung out and we watched a movie. That night i also saw "Friday The 13th" for the first time it was ok the ending freaked me out tho, also that night well actually Saturday morning.

Saturday Morning like 4 am i couldn't really sleep and i was up , so i saw that this one guy was on that i was about to go live with in Virginia and i had messaged him the past but he never responded back , but i thought i would message him just to see ... and surprisingly he responded and we started texting back and fourth and then he wanted to call me so i let him and we talked for a long time, it made me feel bad, because i bailed on him when i was supposed to go live with him i regret it, i have many regrets and someday soon i will tell you the other great regret in my life.
So after talking with him i felt like shit still kinda do.

Sunday my sister and her husband came over for family dinner and a movie, but we didn't really watch a movie, i was already watching "The Shining" which i've never seen before it was one weird movie, so that was the movie of the night and then my dad and his wife showed us the pictures of their trip to Hawaii very beautiful, they got me a tribal man mask it's awesome, but my sister wanted to trade me what she got , i would of loved what she got but i would have no place to put it was this wooden wind chime things , then me and my sister were talking about the episode of "The Simpsons" where they did their version of "The Shining" and so i looked it up online and we watched it and man we laughed our asses off it was great i loved it.

Me and my sister also discussed the get together that we want to have for halloween and invite me crush hehe, we want to be able to play Pictionary man but with halloween theme stuff , so sometime during the week we are going to work on it.

For the remainder of the month iam posting some fav halloween type songs that i enjoy.

Hope everyone has a grand halloween.

XOXO D

Info was the Game-o

Not much going on these past few days, i am home alone and have been hanging out with my friend Melissa it was fun we had a silly string fight and water balloon fight it was fun , that guy sean we aren't talking anymore just wasn't working out, he was a pussy anyway i hate guys who are pussies lol, but the guy Casey is still trying to get with me, i still haven't told him to stop pursing me , we haven't hung out anymore, but just been chatting online. Then i haven't been really looking for guys, just been kinda kicking it, i was crushing on this friend of my sisters and her husband, and i got the guts to talk to him a little on facebook, my sister told me to ask him out but dang i don't have the balls for that, and who knows if he wants to , i am sure he will say no anyway. I don't even think i will talk to him again on there , i hate having to chase someone.

I've been drawing i drew my monstercycle harley , and i drew a evil doctor monster lady
I am having fun drawing.

Tonight is a meteor shower that i am going to try and catch i hope i catch it or get to see it, i wanted my friend to come over and us go to Green spot but she can't bummer.

I am going to do a survey , been doing a few and they are fun plus its more info about me.

Do you lick your lips?
sometimes but not a whole lot it tends to dry your lips out

How much money have you spent today?
not a penny

What's something you really want right now?
A love interest

Do you brush your teeth in the shower?
eww no i don't like doing that its weird

Worst habbit?
when ever i have nail polish on i tend to peeling it off

Have you ever had sex in the shower?
ummm i believe so

Do you have a best friend?
yup CASHEW lol

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
oh yes the past 5 years lol

Who of the same sex knows you the best?
not sure really

What do you do when something's wrong?
depends on the situation

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
um yea but they won't , and it would be awesome if they did so we could watch the meteor shower lol.

Ever kissed someone who's name started with a R, F, Z, K?
yea some one whoes name started with a R and a K

What do you hear?
The cosby show and my sneeze lol

What is something you realized today?
I love to sing and I love to draw alot

What do you do when you're nervous?
my leg twitches my family call it the polish jig

Is there something you're happy about at this moment?
that my drawing came out pretty good and hopefully seeing the meteor shower

Do you like movie nights?
Hell yes they are awesome i love to get lost in movies

Have any tattoos?
not yet but one day

Have any piercing?
yes tongue piercing , bellie pierced and ears pierced

Do you think you'll make a good husband/wife?
yup I sures do to the right person

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
maybe not sure tho

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Jeans

Are you wearing anything borrowed?
nope my own stuff

Who is the last person that called you?
My daddy from Hawaii

Does anyone have feelings for you?
nope not that i know of

Is anyone else in the room with you?
just cats lol

Does anyone of the opposite sex have the same name as you?
i know a few that have the male version of my name

Last person that you were in the car with?
Melissa we went and got water balloons

Would you date a 19 year old at the age you are now?
oh man i am not sure i don't like to date babies, but it depends on how we click

If you had the chance to shoot someone would you?
I don't like guns, i would be to shaky to be able to do it.

Ever been caught doing something illegal?
nope

Is it cute when guys/girl kiss you on your forehead?
um yes but the special person in my life only others it's kinda odd lol

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Winter specially the rainy parts yum

What were you doing last night at midnight?
drinking some coke and captain Morgan

Would you consider painting your bedroom purple?
might depends on the shade of purple but it's not really my color

Are you a mean person?
i try not to be , but sometime people push me to far

Relationships or one night stands?
Uhhh Relationships

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yup i am still clothed in street clothes so i am good to go

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
No they are younger

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
yea and it was odd lol

What color shirt are you wearing?
black with a little owl on it hehe

How many people on your myspace top friends list do you know in real life?
I only put my best friend on my the top shes the only one worthy lol

What's your main ringtone on your phone?
I don't have a cell phone :(

What time did you wake up today?
i have been constantly waking up at 9 am

What were you doing two nights ago?
having a water balloon fight with my friend lol

Name something you can't wait to do.
get a job

If you had $250,000, what would you do with it?
get a place of my own invest well and help those around me the best i could

Last thing you ate?
Mushroom Chicken Pot Pie Yummmy

What's your favorite month?
December i love the air about it, the pretty lights and just the way people are

Your least favorite month?
June because it's always so hot

What's the last piece of clothing someone borrowed from you?
socks lol

Last person to make you sad?
Asshole nickname for my ex lol

Favorite kind of drink?
Cherry Lemonade from hot dog on a stick

If you were in the hospital on life support, would the last person you kissed come visit you?
no we aren't that close

Where were you last night at 11 pm?
sitting in my living room drinking and listening to music with my friend

When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Saturday my daddy when he left awwwww

Look to the right, what do you see?
kitchen table and blinds to the side door

What are you looking forward to in the next 2 to 4 months?
my bday my sisters bday etc

Have you broken the law in the last week?
nope

Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
sorta i get to see a old friend of mine

Name something you disliked about the day you had?
it was just kinda boring nothing really happened

Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a K?
didn't i just answer a similar question and yes i have

Are you good at math?
If i have a calculator

Do you believe exes can be friends?
definitely depends on how things ended , but most likely no

Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out?
I love it but yes at night i get freaked out

Your best friend likes your last "ex", what do you say?
they wouldn't but if it did happen i would say i don't wish bad things to you but i don't wish you well

Ready for winter to come?
hella yes

Was last night terrible?
nope it was a lot of fun i got buzzed

Have you ever fallen for someone older than you?
yup like way older too , kinda freaky but age is just a number but i don't like to go lower then 25

Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
Oh yes i believe i am and should stop but its hard to

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
not really

Who was driving the last car you were in?
Melissa

When was the last time you cried? And why?
it's been a while but it dealt with my ex


Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
no people dont tend to help but shows and tetris do


Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly?
oh yes there is and i tend to replay it several times

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
not really

How many dogs do you have?
none but there is one coming soon dum dum dummmmm

Do you have feelings for someone?
maybe

What's upset you the most in the past week?
not getting to see sean

Who was the hardest person you've had to say goodbye to and when?
never really got to say goodbye

Do you have an older brother?
none

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
nope

When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?
i would Doodle

well hoped you enjoyed this survey

XOXO D

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS FRIGHT FEST

Last night i attended the universal studios fright fest, it was my first time going , and this is my review ; it was ok it wasn't as scary as i thought it was going to be but i did enjoy myself and did get scared a few times, but i don't think i would go with the people i went with and that's all I am saying about that, but i had not been to universal's in a long time and the only ride i had been on that is still on was Jurrassic park , and it was just like how i remembered it, and i also got to go on the mummy ride which was pretty fun , and then we went on the mazes and they were ok, i mean they are a little better that Knotts scary farms mazes but still the same in scaring me meter, i did enjoy the Rocky Horror picture show tribute thing is was cool, my friends mom bought us hats and it came with noise makers and a ultra cool blue glow stick , and the thing that was the most awesome and worth going was The simpson ride that ride was soooooooo cool, it was a long night and at the end i was sooo tired i knocked out in the car , oh yea i also got these little devil horns that change colors they are so cool.

So i am glad i went it was fun and all, then the next day I've been talking to Sean , he is such a sweet guy , but the situation is weird, but we have the greatest talks and he makes me laugh and i make him laugh.

well i am kind tired right now so no quote this time around.

XOXO D

Really

Ok so this is what has been going, things aren't going so well with that guy Casey, i just don't think he is into me for the right reasons i mean when we hung out we barely talked and thats not cool because it was kinda boring , and basically we would just make out and i think he just wants to get it on lol. so i am not sure where to take this , i don't know how to tell him, i kinda never had to lol.

Other then that, i had been talking to this guy named Sean , he is a awesome guy, he is sweet, funny, and can keep a conversation. at first we were talking back and forth on POF and then we started talking on Yahoo, and then we started talking on the phone and for the past few days we have been talking non stop to one another i mean we started talking today at like 10am and didn't stop til 430 pm , and you don't know how long i've been looking to find someone like that, where i could just chat forever it's awesome, we want to meet eachother in person but he has car issues right now and so we have to wait til it gets fixed and then he said he will come out to see me , he lives in the high desert and he only lives like a hour away, and he is such a cutie pie, he is originally from Jersey , so i call him my Jersey boy , the thing is he is already falling for me , and it's to soon for me, i mean he is a cool guy i love talking to him, but i am not close to giving him my heart no way i am being very protective of my heart this time around. So we will see where this goes.

Another thing that is going on is tommorrow i get to go to Universal studios fright fest YAY!!!! I can't wait it's going to be soooo fun and freaky at the same time, i am so going to get me ass scared, i am going to be clinging onto my friend for dear life, i do wish i had someone to enjoy it with and to hid my face in there chest and have them hold onto me to protect me, that is the bummer part , but i should still have fun , i mean this is my first time going to this event, ive been to knotts scary farm many a time , and universal's looks like it will be really scary and i just can't wait i am so excited hehe.

I just finished drawing my Monster Hot Rod and i am going to be drawing a chopper , so when i finish with that i will post my pictures to show you all what i have been working on. Also i am so craving del taco it's crazy last night i got the craving lol, and then when i was on a talk break from Sean i called my mom to see if she wanted to go get some del taco , and she was like maybe, so i don't know if i will be getting it, but i am thinking if she does come by that i am wanting some chinese food now yummy too , but when we went to get my dress for that date we did have chinese at the mall. hmmmmmm i would like to have my chicken soft taco tho lol , they are just so yummy.

Oh my gosh i just spaced out watching my rat Kyoshi cleaning herself, it is so freaking cute love it. hehe.

"Animals are such agreeable friends - they ask no questions, they pass no criticisms." ~ George Eliot



XOXO D

Dreaming my Dream of Dreams

It is so quiet right now in my house it is a little on the creepy side, yesterday was pretty good, in the morning my friend picked me up to take her gf home all the way to the OC and it was a interesting ride as they got into a big argument about religion , my friend doesn't have that much belief in god , but her gf does and they argued about how the world was created by god, i did not even get into that fight i just sat back and listen to them go on about it.

Then she dropped her off at home and we were going to try and to put money in her account so we could by tickets for the Universal studios Fright fest but the banks weren't open and we have to wait til Tuesday because today is a federal holiday and the banks are closed, I got to meet my friend kitten that she took home , so adorable so young and acting like a kitten should, sadly she can't keep it and will be taking it to the pound, but it's a sweet little kitten i am sure it will find a home quickly.

so I got home about 140 and talked to my mom and talked to Casey for a bit , and i was also drawing a hot rob , OH MY GOSH my new dream car is to have a hot rod, they are so cool looking. as soon as Casey had to go do a family thing and leave, i passed out and went to sleep for a few and then woke up and had to help my dads wife find one of the cats , because she accidently squashed him in the door, luckily i found him and all was right lol.

I continued to draw my monster hot rod muhaahhahaha and then Casey came back online to talk, and then soon my friend came over and i had her watch House the first episode of the new season, we were about to watch the second episode, but she was begging me to watch bones, so we were almost about to but then we go to talking to Casey on the mic, it was fun , and my friend got to see what kind of guy he was, but he was being a bit nasty last night i guess he was horny because he wanted me to come over and he wasn't caring about his moms no people in the house after 1030 but i didn't go and soon my friend had to get going. I talked a little bit more with Casey, but we were both preoccupied i started the new challenge on tetris friends and i believe he was watching Dexter or pleasuring himself lol. well finally i was to tired to keep my eyes open so i said my farewells and plopped into bed and fell asleep.

Now for the dream segment, at first i was dream about being at some grocery store and people were after us and we were running and it was me and Melissa and some guy we got to a house and there were all these other girls i don't know who they were, and i do believe my friends mother was there, and i remember i was looking for a cell phone of mine but i couldn't find it, and then i got a sent a message on yahoo from David , and he said well? and i was like well what , and he was like DJ i am like what are you talking about , and he sent me a clip and it was some concert and at first i was just watching people singing down a aisle then they should people playing instruments and i saw David playing a guitar and doing other stuff as well and i pointed to my friend i was like oh my there is David he has hair , and the thing was he wanted back in my life and he was bettering his but doing stuff to make us happy or something like that, i know why i had a dream about him, because he called my cell not to long ago lol, we hadn't talked in like forever and now he calls , he calls the phone in my life that doesn't work lol, because he has my home phone and also my friends cell if he truly wants to get a hold of me , but i am not about to call him, because he hasn't kept up with keeping in touch with me so why should I . erg I still wish Patrick would come back into the picture he was such a cool guy and i was very interested in him, I am not sure what my feeling are for Casey, he is a nice guy , kind of a big dork , but i am not getting that real spark hmmm it's weird, but i am seeing where it goes.

"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be." ~Douglas Pagels

XOXO D

Ouch my neck hurts

Hey haven't written in few so heres whats been going on well Wednesday night i got to see Casey again, this time we did not go to green spot but we went towards big bear, because he wanted to show me the city scape from a area over there, but when we got there it was too foggy to see anything, we chilled and talked, my goodness i was still nervous especially because before we were talking online about how we wanted to kiss each other and he wanted me to signal to him that i wanted him to kiss me , by looking into his eyes, so i was so nervous and didn't look into his eyes lol, we chilled long enough that some fog parted and i got to see a little of the city scape it was pretty cool, then he drove me home and we chilled in front of my house for a bit and then started to yes started to make out , my rating for his kisses i would give it a 6 out of 10, he needs to use his tongue more , oh and he likes to bite and he bit my lip and it hurt , and then he bites my neck, doesn't try to really give a hickey he bites it's weird , so after making out for about an hour i decided to get home and i woke up the next morning and my neck is so tender and it hurt to touch it and all that was there was a little bruise but really it feels as though i've been shocked in the neck lol.

So on Thursday i got my mom to take me to Ontario mills so i could get a new outfit for my date for friday, and ontario mills has a store called forever 21 that sells cute clothes that fit me and look ultra cute, but they way my mom ways i don't think i will do that again :::shudder::: but none the less i found a dress i fell in love with although it is black i also got a little red jacket to go over it to give it that extra something. i tried to look for accessories, but i didn't fine anything to my liking.

So then Friday came around and i spent most of the day getting ready in steps lol, i did my hair in the way where i have a bump in the front, i lost my bumpit that automatically does it so i had to do it manually and it was tricky, but i was proud how it turned out lol, so then close to 7pm Casey came and picked me up and he met my dad and his wife , and then we looked at the times for the movies and we were on our way , we went to this sushi restaurant in the citrus plaza called Niko Niko , it was pretty good , he ordered us this sushi plate called Crunch dragon, even though it was a little spicy it was really good too, so then after we ate we went to the kikorian theater in redlands and saw "Zombie Land" and guess what i survived it i wasn't freaked out of my wits , maybe because it involved humor , but it was a pretty good movie with a good soundtrack that i am going to look into, then afterwords we went back to my place and made out and then he left.

It was a good date , the most interesting i thought that is funny to me i don't know why but it is, ok so i looked at his myspace and he has all this stuff about how he is very religious and everything, but since i've been talking and hanging out with him he hasn't said anything about church, his religion, Jesus etc, but when we went to the restaurant and the food came, he prayed to himself , but it was just like wow ok i don't know it just kinda just made me feel i dont know , but i just can't stop thinking about it it was so random i guess, but anyway when we made out he did the biting thing again so now my neck hurts again erg, and really did he have to do both sides he couldn't stick to one lol, so now i am feeling it from both sides lol.

So other then chillin with Casey , i have been drawing i will scan what i've been doing and post it on here later, but one of them i colored with pastels and i really need to buy some of that spray seal stuff, because last time when i used hair spray and crapped the picture in my eyes anyway. but i am really proud of this rockabilly demon couple i drew , but i should Casey and he didn't seem to like it as much as the other picture i did. I like drawing though its fun to think of something to do and see it come to be ya know, i should look up what it takes to be like a illustrator or something my rockabilly demon chick is awesome i love her, and my sister is going to come over later today and i am going to have her name her , can't wait to post it to show my pictures. other then that , i've been chillin and watching roseanne i am on season 6 lol, i don't know what it is but that show always makes me feel happy and what not lol.

"If we don't teach our kids how to read , how will the ever know whats on" Peter Griffin

XOXO D

Oh What A Night

so a crappy day turned into a interesting evening, As i have mentioned i was talking to this guy whom i have a date with on friday, originally i was going to see if my friend would come over to cheer me up, but i was getting no response from her, and i was talking with this guy Casey , we chit chatted and he actually made me feel better got my mind off of what was bugging me, i was bored so i decided to straighten my hair, and after i was finished he was like "oh i wish i could see", so i said, "ok come on over" and then he was like "ok if you want" so i thought about it, I suddenly turned very shy and nervous very quickly and then i took a deep breath and typed ok , so i gave him the directions to here and he said he would be 30 mins so i rushed around and got ready, and he got kinda lost and called me and i helped him out the best i could, and we talked all the way til he got to my house. So i got my stuff and went out there , and we went off to green spot , i know i know it's like i live there right lol, so any way i was so nervous so nervous in fact that my stomach was acting up that never happens, never it was so embarrassing , oh man he was a cutie physically and personality wise. He was very funny and hyper it was cute, he did do most of the talking i was just stuck in shy mode , but he seemed to have a good time , and i suppose he digs me , because he kept asking if we were still on for friday for our date, and i was like yea, it was weird though or a good thing not sure, but he didn't try to kiss me, and boy could i have used that lol, but i think maybe it's good we didn't, maybe he wants to take things slow .. holy crap thats amazing lol, no but all in all he is a good guy who is very playful , so playful he kept messing up my hair lol, and i would run my fingers through his hair which he really seemed to like, but could you believe no kissing no other fooling around went on , well i hope this goes somewhere, because he is a sweet guy , whom i think i can have fun with. so it was cool, because we like stayed out til 230 am and he needed to come inside to rest a little before going back out on the road , now that was a little awkward, but i wasn't going to just let him sleep out in his car , so he got out of her about 330 am and then i waited til he got home and he came on line to make sure he made it home ok, i told him i was sorry for being such a goober lol, and asked if he liked me and he said well if i didn't we wouldn't be going out Friday, then we said our goodnights and went offline.

I played a little tetris before i went to bed, and it never fails what ever time i go to sleep i will wake up around 9 soooo weird, today i need to give my rats cage a full overhaul cleaning. I love my ratties so much. well that's all for now.

"It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

A Errg Day

Oh man today started bad and got worse, well i got up early because my mom was going to be here and take me to get stuff for the ratties, and time was passing and she wasn't showing up, so i called, and she told me that my sister got in a big fight with her husband and she ended up staying the night at my moms place, and they didn't know if they would be able to take me to get the stuff , but later on my mom called back and said she was going to come, but my sister wasn't, so she came and she looked at me and told me "asshole" (that's what I call my ex instead of his name ) alert and i was like oh man , so we got in the car and drove by where he was at, he was working holding one of those signs for his work , then i was a stupid idiot and i yelled over to him "Hey (ex's name here) " he looked and saw me and waved, so i know i was going to hurt later for doing that i am such a dumbass, any way i went to darryls pet shop and got my babies their food, but i didn't like the bedding they had available so i asked mom to take me to petco and she did which they had a waaaaay better price i shopped real smart for my ratties lol. so then we went to eat , and then headed back home and we had to get to a red light right where he is at, he looked at me and he waved i waved and then we stared , i was thinking to myself man he looks like a Villian of some sort and then he clinched it by smoking that was funny , he looked evil and up to no good, breaking womens hearts just by a glance lol i thought of that as my mom drove me to walmart, so all i did was look at him and wave and it still kills me inside, i can't believe he can still make me feel this way i don't like it , it sucks i just want to be over him , i don't want my heart to race and think about him, i was doing so good, erg and now i am in a empty house writing about him, but it's the only way to help me is to talk about it. after seeing him i just felt messed up and i was getting annoyed and took it out on my mom , which i hate doing because she is so sweet and wonderful for taking me to get the stuff i needed, but when i deal with this part of myself its hard to be my cherry self , i hope my friend will want to hang out tonight i really don't want to be alone and i really don't want to end up crying over this asshole any more , a part of me wishes that i knew what he thought , but a the other part kinda knows, i bet he was thinking oh yea i have no more feelings for her, i have moved on she's nothing to me , just another girl in the world , and i know that's fine and all , but it still hurts, and i am lame and think well maybe he will stop by and really see if there is nothing between us anymore , just to hurt me further you know, but my strong side says please girl you don't need him, their is better way better out there for you and you don't need that mess in your life no more, you are young and have the whole world ahead of you , so don't dwell in the past , don't dwell on this man, for you may have loved him, but that time is done and you must must increase you bust lol, i mean move on, and i will in time, but it just blows he has to work so close to me i mean really really , that close gosh it sucks.

In other news i have a date with this really nice guy on friday, well he seems nice, he likes to compliment me and now i am ruining it because i am telling him how i saw my ex like right now as i am typing, i being a dumbass , but maybe he will want to hang out that would be cool ..... people say it's never good to talk about your ex's to potential bf/gf so i slipped up, but i am sure he will put a smile on my face he did last night as we talked and i was feeling a bit down. but also i hope my friend comes over to cheer me up or something, but i bet she won't ::: sigh:::

"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness." ~Author Unknown

XOXO D

BABY SHOWER !!!!!!

So today was the baby shower, it went great and i am exhausted so much so i am about to collapse after this and get my much needed sleep, although my room is a mess i cleared enough that i may rest and tomorrow starts the cleaning, but it all went well and my sister made out like a bandit, i am so happy for her, she got lots and lots and lots of cute clothes, i just hoped she really truly liked what i got her, i hope soon i can get more things for her baby.

So you know what tomorrow is .... if i haven't heard from that guy i am moving on , i wish he would call or something , i am thinking of calling him one last time but not sure if i should, i mean really if he hasn't called me back even if he has family issues at least a heads up what is going on, just shows you what kind of guy he is lol, because really it seemed like he wanted to get to know me more and stuff, oh well, any way so i think when ever i wake up , after i get showered and what not i will call him one .... last ..... time lol and then if nothing i will wash my hands of this and go on and look for someone else if he talks me later he talks to me whatever, i just was pulling for him, because he was sweet, funny, kind, guy who i liked talking with and kissing hehe, and was looking to get to know :::sigh::::

well i am so tried i think i am going to head to bed now , i just can't stay up any longer.

"A baby is God's opinion that the world should go on. " ~Carl Sandburg

XOXO D

MOUNTAIN TIME!!!

so Wednesday night i went up to Idly wild up in the mountains with my friend to her RV resort, we left as soon as she got off work, then she picked me up and we went up to food for less and got some essentials, then made are way to our destination we didn't get up there til like 1 am lol , also because we stopped off at Jack n the box hehe, we got there and she turned everything on and we got inside she made the bed i was to sleep on and then we watched "white chicks" love the movie so freaking fun , then we watched a old tv show called "Ellen" it's Ellen degeneres first sitcom she did , we watched as much as we could then went to bed, at first i was sleeping in the bed my friend made me, but my friend was scared so i slept where she was in this big bed and i had to tell her stories to get her asleep , lol first i told her a scary story, then i told her the frog prince story, then a story about the red shoes, but i think she only heard the first one before she was drifting away, but as i moved to go back to my bed she would yell at me so i went back and i slept there, the next morning i woke up with a terrible headache i took some of her Tylenol she brang, but it wasn't working and i had woken up before her, i tried to get back to sleep but i just couldn't, finally she woke up and she said maybe i needed food in my stomach i agreed so we made pancakes , i ate a little but then i was able to get it down, i was hurtin real bad so i decided to go lay in the big bed to rest, i was tossing and turning i couldn't get comfortable the medicine wasn't working my head was killing me, then i got up went to the bathroom and threw up alot and it came out of my nose it was gross, but even after i got that all out i was still in pain, so i went back the bed and rest and finally passed out, then next time i woke up i felt completely fine YAY !!! i went into the other room where my friend was declaring my wellness, and she told me i looked much better that before my face was yellow and my body was white and my head was clammy, and we are not sure what did it , but we think it was the ghetto punch we bought from the store, so she was in the middle of making dinner , and then after we ate and settled our tummies we went swimming I LOVE TO SWIM, and we jacuzzied and you know i love jacuzzi, so we did that for a while and then we went into the sauna it was my first time , it was pretty good, it was funny because my glasses got hot lol. then after that we played two rounds of pool, my friend won both , i am not so good at it, but she said i was ok just needed work, and i also showed her my lizard run lol. (only those very special to me get to see that) but now i have to be carful around her because i think she wants to record me doing tsk tsk , so then we went back to the RV and i took a shower and we cleaned up the place, we were going to wake up at 8 to head back down , but we figured why not tonight , but we did get to finish the first season of Ellen before we left. so now i am back home can't wait to sleep in my own bed.

Tomorrow er um well today is a long day well long night i mean, because well my friend is coming over like at 3 pm to have me do her hair then at 5pm the other people hosting the Baby Shower are coming to help decorate and we will be getting things in order , i am so excited.

Then saturday is the big day ... my sisters Baby shower and i can't wait, i hope it all comes out real good.

in other news, i haven't heard from that guy that was hanging out with, i am afraid somthing drastic happened with his great Aunt and he is dealing with that or he just isn't into me anymore, well so if i don't hear from him by sunday i am moving on, i mean since i will be busy the other days lol.

Even though i got sick it was a pretty good time OH and i saw a raccoon run by as we were leaving that and a random squirrel on the fence was all the wild life i saw over there oh and some stray cats. Boy I hope Patrick does message me soon , he was a good guy or at least i thought so. meh we will see.

Ok well i better go hit the sack or i will be useless for the day ahead.

"Drinking nature is an unquenchable thirst." ~Berri Clove

XOXO D

Just a little update

um i failed the challenge i went night nights lol. soon after i wrote my morning blog, i succumbed to laying in my bed and i went off to dream land, and had a not a nightmare but disturbing dream none the less, my ex was in it, for some reason he was at the baby shower, well i am guessing that's what it was because a lot of the people that are going to be at the shower were in my dream , although i don't know what house we were in, and it had a lot of other little weird things going on , but bottom line he had his new girlie there and everyone was trying to get me to be nice and talk with her but i wouldn't and i had it out with my ex and we ended up sitting together and talking nice , but then his girlie came and they left off together , disturbing dream i don't like dreams with him in it blah, but now i am up i don't need anymore sleep, but i bet this is going to fuck with my sleeping habits lol, In other news it's not so bad out, i have been sleeping with my window open and its making my room actually feel nice yay.

OH OH OH i totally forgot my goodness Patrick the guy I've been hanging out with well he scored major points with me, because he used to watch liquid television a old tv spot on MTV that played all kinds of freaking cartoons and he watched and loved the MAXX a great weird interesting cartoon , it was so unreal that he remember that show ah it was cool a great moment in date history a fellow lover of THE MAXX so cool really it is, because no one really knows about it, let alone remembers as he did. makes me smile to think about it haha.

"Without enough sleep, we all become tall two-year-olds." ~JoJo Jensen, Dirt Farmer Wisdom, 2002

XOXO D