Cheese Muffin

Well today was very interesting, hung out with mom, did some errands and junk, then got home and i needed to start ordering things for my sisters baby shower, i even set up the meeting with the people involved in the party.

Then I talked to the fella Michael who i like to tease is a porn addict, who is so yummy and delicious, so we talked and he was telling me that he is going to be house sitting his mommies house while she is away, and he was saying how he wished i was his neighbor because they had a kick ass jacuzzi, I only kidded around saying oh well lets have a slumber party, and he said ya that would be fun, but i don't believe him, because he says one thing then does another so its hard to believe this guy, and way we conversed about it more , and at the end of it supposedly i am going to chill at his moms place and get some jacuzzi action, this all sounds fun, but i am still betting it won't happen , i am sorry but that's what i get from this way cute dude to be single, but maybe is inability to stick to his word is the reason he is single hmmmm, but he is so cute i would deal with his crap til i meet him and he turns out to be a sucky kisser lol, god i hope he can kiss good, you know how much i long to met a guy who can kiss really fucking good, i mean so good he makes my knees buckle , i've only had one really good kisser come into my life and i will always remember it, god that was wonderful, so any way this is happening monday, and it will go fast because i am pretty busy up til that day yay for that. but just know i still think it's a bust , hmmmm lets have a little contest i am so sure that he will bail , that if i lose what should i do , to bad i don't followers or comments to help me decide, give me a moment , ok if i lose and i do end up going, i am going to put all my effort and time, that of which is not dedicated to planning the best baby shower ever lol, will be to picking a career and starting school, now if i do win and i don't end up going i will do a video blog ranting about how sucky that guy was to bail, that should also be a if i lose one, because i am sure it would suck to see me on video, but those are the stakes, but if you believe there is something better for both lose or win, then don't be afraid to say anything lol.

so i had been chatting with Michael and my date tomorrow , then i get this message from my friend that she wants me to come hang out with her and these two chicks she has been talking to online , so i am like fuck ya i am down, so she comes over and i straighten her hair to make her all pretty, then we race to her house but the two girls already are there, so we all go walking around my friends neighborhood, and walk over to this park , it was pretty cool, we played on this awesome playground, i mean it was tight it had a mini zip line, lots of places to climb and monkey bars with weird handles that sometime turned it was pretty freaking awesome. the two girls were pretty cool, kind of quiet , so then we walked around and what not then we decided to go to the hookah bar , i've never been to one of those places so i was kind of afraid. before we went there the girls wanted to stop and get energy drinks and what not, so my friend to go pick something out and i got apple juice yum, then i was walking by these muffin delights and i scanned them and my eyes found it, CHEESE MUFFIN , when i lived in ventura , and would sometimes visit Santa Barbara i had the greatest experience of my life and that is eating a CHEESE MUFFIN, it may sound weird, but it is damn good, so so so very good. so my friend got it for me and i laugh because i had apple juice and a cheese muffin , i was look oh look i am having breakfast lol, but no i did not eat my CHEESE MUFFIN yet, i am saving it for breakfast yum, but my friend couldn't get over it and would not indulge in one, so whatever we left to the hookah bar and they made me try it and it wasn't that bad and the environment was pretty chill, the girls were more chill and i was even talkative, we stayed til closing and even then outside the place we hung out trying to decided what to do next, but one of the girls wanted to go home, then my friend spotted a co worker of hers and yelled at him and he came over, me and my friend are old co workers as well, and i knew the fellow co worker of hers, she we greeted each other and after a while he went away, then my friend emptied the contents of one of the girls wallet and gave her the stuff inside the wallet and kept the wallet, then she went in their car and stole the same girls hat lol, it was great so just as we were leaving we should them we had the hat , she already knew about the wallet, and we sped off , it was sooooo fun, and i am glad she invited me, i might even get to go to a club this weekend i am so excited i hope the plan goes through. so now i am here exhausted but i wanted to talk about my night before i went to dream land, then i have to wake up and do my hair and get ready for my date tomorrow YAY. well every one have a swell whatever hehe.

I will not stop til there is a cheese muffin in every home!

XOXO D

Reading by moonlight

So not to much is going on, I started reading the third book of the twilight series, and i am half way done, i can't seem to put it down, it is sooooooooooooooo good i kid you not. I had to stop myself from reading further so i don't finish til later, so right afterwards i can get the next book from my sister, erg tho because once i am done with the fourth book there are no more :( super sadness , my sister says that the author has a clip of the story of her next book, but i don't want to be teased that's so cruel gosh.

In other news today i watched a movie called " Skin walkers" well even though it had a major hottie Jason Behr, it was kinda lame, even though some parts had me glued to the screen it still lacked something. but hey i've been wanting to see werewolf movies so that's why i watched it. i wish i owned the movie "Wolf" that is a good one love Michelle phiefer sorry i think i butchered the last name, even though i don't like jack Nickelson that much he was cool in that movie. Another werewolf movie i would like to see, but not sure if i want to own is "American Werewolf in Paris" i don't remember to much about it, because its been so long, but i remember they play the song "mouth" by bush and i do recall a legless werewolf or something is wrong with it but i can't quite remember.

so the rest of my week is kinda full finally, ive been bored off my ass, tomorrow i am going to chill with mother dearest, then Thursday i am hanging with a potential new friend i finally get to go see that movie "500 days without summer" can't wait been dying to see it yay!!!! then friday i have a date with this guy, i am not sure what i think of him yet he seems really nice though and i actually talked to him a little bit ago on my phone and we talked about twilight and it was easier for me to talk to him, usually i am nervous as heck. then Saturday me and my sister are taking my mommy out for her Bday!!!! yay!!! the sad thing is i have no idea what in the world i should get her, i didn't even know it was coming up so quickly. then sunday i don't know whats going to happen there , i think i am going to my sisters or that might just be my dad, so i am happy gonna be pretty busy, i like being busy so then i don't have to read my book and it can be in my life a little longer.

Now i have been talking to a few guys, and i want to know why it always leads to talking about sex. especially when you haven't even met the person before i mean come on , but i shouldn't bitch to much because sometimes i keep it going , but really it's kind of hard to stop when they get started, so i had a very interesting convo with this dude named travis; he is a baby face cutie who is around my age, but man on man he is one kinky dude, he is into the rough stuff, and he was kinda freaking me out with what he had to say, and it was cute because he was afraid that he was going to scare me away, did it? hmmm nah i am very open minded, but don't guys like think different of you if they could talk about sex so freely, i am not no harlot lol, i always try to keep the conversation clean , nice and friendly but oh well, then there is this other guy who talks to me by the name of chris, well i used to enjoy his conversations, but lately he has been talking like my ex did and that's kind of scary, but also another thing he did was bring up sex as well, but i don't feel we are connecting anyway so i decided to go with it and fulfilled his sexual questioning desires :3 Then there is this guy Michael, oh Michael what a hottie in my books, cute face, nice lips, and even nicer body yumalicious that all i have to say, so we talk every now and then when he is online, and he always bitches that he is lonely , and goes on about how i am cute and sweet and whatever, and then i ask him , well if you feel that way , why don't you ask to hang out with me, then he goes um can i call you in a bit and i am like sure, but little bitch didn't call lol , whatever i was enjoying my convo with my new friend and this other guy but i am not into him, because he is married and what not. any way i don't get it , i don't get guys, is it because i am ugly, then why say i am cute, just don't say anything, and definitely why talk to me if your going to spit all this shit and not act, honestly grow a back bone and ask me out because obviously if i am still talking to you by the fourth or fifth time i am interested, because i don't waste my time with people i am not into, but maybe i need to give the men a little push, but that sucks, cause i want a guy who isn't afraid to ask me out like the guy i am going on a date with on friday he asked me and i think we what talked hmmm a few times, so whatever really i just want to fuck micheal because he is one sexy ass motherfucker lol, i am never like that, but that is what he brings out of me i don't know what it is, but he turns me on just by looking at his picture mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, i can't believe he is single, oh maybe because he is a porn addict, everyone has their flaws lol. but another thing about the sex talk, when you first date someone you don't just dive into the sex talk right? i mean i know it's different being on the internet and all, but i think we should keep some values. :::sigh:::: any way maybe they aren't interested and so they go into the sex conversation oh well whatever.

that's all i have to say for now so i am going don't want to read don't want to read but oh it is sooooo tempting dammit.

"And so the Lion fell in love with the Lamb"

XOXO D

weekend bust

this has not been my week or weekend, ::::Big Sigh::::

ok well friday was cool, because me and my family went up to big bear to hang out , i even got a cute little statue of the Chinese horoscope rat , which is what i am. So that was all good, then i was online chatting and i was talking with this pretty cool guy, he asked if i wanted to go see a movie and i was like well hmmmmm i don't know .... ok sure why not, so he was like cool, so i gave him directions to where i am at and he said he would be there around 9 and i was like cool see you then, before i go he asks me if i am definitely sure i wanted to go and i wasn't going to bail when he got there, i was like its all good dude lets do this, so we both log off to get ready, so i got all dolled up looking pretty and waited and waited 9 rolled around nothing, 10 rolled by to late for a movie now, even if he showed up we weren't going to make the movie i wanted to see , then when 11 rolled by i gave up and got into my jammies and started reading my book.

then Saturday i had plans with this one guy who ive been out with before and who supposedly wanted to see me again real bad, so we were supposed to hang out today and go to the beach, so i got all ready did my hair which takes forever because i straighten my wavy ass hair and got all the shit i needed for the beach and everything, so i let time pass a bit because he said he didn't want to go to early, so when it wasn't so early i tried to text him, got nothing, later i texted him , nothing, then i called nothing, i am soooo pissed , luckily my family was doing dinner and a movie night so at least i got to eat really good food and well the movie was a bust as well we saw " Last House On The Left" not my bag baby . so yes i am so mad at this dude for standing me up, i mean i would of understood if something came up, but dude at least let a girl know what the hell is going on, why is it men are phone retarded, i just don't get it.

So i just chatted again tonight, this one dude ive been talking with was one and we had one of our nice conversations, he seems to dig me , but doesn't ask me out or anything, so i kind of lead the direction and got him where i asked a question to see what was up with that, and he says that he is in the sex mode and doesn't want to offend me and some bs , it is so tiring i tell you are their no decent guys our there, can't i go out with someone and it not turn into sex really, i mean i know men are all about the sex, but shouldn't that come later when you grow to like each other and shit, i mean come on now lets talk, show me a reason to want to give it up to you.

I also was starring at my rats while i was chatting with some sex crazed dude and i started messing with paint and trying to draw my baby butterz sleeping and you know what it worked out pretty cool. i drew her sleeping in two different positions and it looks like two different rats. check it out!

so sorry but i had to rant about all the BS i've been going through.

Sunday is another day maybe something good will come of it.

Well i am tired as Fuck so yea.

XOXO D

Who are you?

yea it's been a while again since i have blogged my apologies, been going through some stuff, good stuff as well. I have been looking for a potential boyfriend, and i even went out on a date, awkward as it was it was still ok, but totally a first date not knowing what to say, nervous smiles, etc. I have also been talking with several people on a date site called Plenty Of fish , some good some bad some eh. Things have calmed down a bit and i decided to write.

Last Saturday me, my sister, her husband, and her step son went to Laguna beach. It was soooo fun we went to that particular beach to go see the tide pools, which were awesome and i brought my camera and took some pictures, they turned out decent. After we explored the tide pools went back to the beach and went swimming the water was perfect, not to cold just right, me and my sister had a blast and she was really happy and enjoying herself, which made me happy.

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!! my sister is going to have a girl YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! i am so very happy, i so wanted a niece, and i want to spoil her with cute little outfits if my sister will let me. It's so unreal that it is getting to the point where soon this baby is going to come out and their will actually be another member to the family i am so excited. Me and my sister have talking about what we are going to do for the baby shower, and we came up with some awesome ideas.

Also I splurged on something that i had been wanting for a while now, True blood Season 1, i tried at first to rent it from block buster not realizing that you could only rent i cd at a time i was like bummer, and i said F it i am buying and i am glad i did, because i really do like that show i love the sooki and bill story makes me swoon. I also had my mom watch it and she enjoys it as well.

My sister had made me read the twilight book, and i am glad she did it was so much better than the movie, and man it was hard to read because it was making me swoon so much , now i am starting to read the second book of the series, and after i had finished the first book, i rewatched the movie and now i understand it a little better. So now i can't wait til new moon comes out !!!!!!

oh yes i forgot to say that i had a blast at the beach but i also got a sun burn from the beach and a few scratches. but i can handle some pain it's cool. well that's all for now, i will try not to leave such big gaps in between my blogs, but sometimes i just get busy and tend to forget, i mean i haven't had time to exercise but i did so last night and i will do it again today, i need to get back on track of certain things.

I lost my bra in a clean room!

XOXO D

Sorries

Sorry i haven't messaged anything in a while , but been going through somethings, so let me just say
LOVE SUCKS
GUYS SUCK
LIFE SUCKS
just for now, i will be ok, i am a strong person who just needs time to adjust, and plus my family is there for me to help me through this hard time. My ratties are doing great and so is my family. My sister felt her baby for the first time yesterday 08/08/09 so excited for her.

Hey diddle diddle the cat and the fiddle the cow jumped to the moon, the little dog laughed to see such a sport and the dish ran away with the spoon that little fucker had to run, what a coward lol. my own joke.

XOXO D

Teased Of a Good night

Well i was having fun i went with a friend to her friends bday dinner and then drinks, and i thought we were going to stay and go party, but my friend wanted to leave, so that sucked, i really wanted to go dancing and have a good time. What would really be home is to go to a karaoke bar and sing and have fun. you know this happened to me before earlier in the week my friend Melissa told me we were going to go to the lake, but she "slept" in and didn't wake up til 230, but she didn't tell me this til like freaking 7ish i am like ok, and you couldn't tell me sooner, i hate flakes. to long i have been not having fun, i want to have some fun sooooo bad, i mean i love spending time with my ratties, but i need to have some great fun and excitement in my life. PLEASE LORD BRING SOME FUN INTO MY LIFE PLEASE. Lately I've been working out and been sticking to that, i just have to get a healthy eating habit going. I was running around my block, but my dad said i can use the treadmill that he got his wife, so on Thursday i started to use it, and it kicks my ass alot more then going around my block for sure. i am a little buzzin right now, because i had a few drinks.

Happy BDAY who has one today!!

XOXO D