Just a little update

um i failed the challenge i went night nights lol. soon after i wrote my morning blog, i succumbed to laying in my bed and i went off to dream land, and had a not a nightmare but disturbing dream none the less, my ex was in it, for some reason he was at the baby shower, well i am guessing that's what it was because a lot of the people that are going to be at the shower were in my dream , although i don't know what house we were in, and it had a lot of other little weird things going on , but bottom line he had his new girlie there and everyone was trying to get me to be nice and talk with her but i wouldn't and i had it out with my ex and we ended up sitting together and talking nice , but then his girlie came and they left off together , disturbing dream i don't like dreams with him in it blah, but now i am up i don't need anymore sleep, but i bet this is going to fuck with my sleeping habits lol, In other news it's not so bad out, i have been sleeping with my window open and its making my room actually feel nice yay.

OH OH OH i totally forgot my goodness Patrick the guy I've been hanging out with well he scored major points with me, because he used to watch liquid television a old tv spot on MTV that played all kinds of freaking cartoons and he watched and loved the MAXX a great weird interesting cartoon , it was so unreal that he remember that show ah it was cool a great moment in date history a fellow lover of THE MAXX so cool really it is, because no one really knows about it, let alone remembers as he did. makes me smile to think about it haha.

"Without enough sleep, we all become tall two-year-olds." ~JoJo Jensen, Dirt Farmer Wisdom, 2002

XOXO D

NO Sleep challenge : Day Two

well it will be 21 hours up when it turns 8 am and i am sooo tired , but i am preventing from laying down or rest me head on any kind of surface, my brain function is minimal its hard to think of words, and i am not very cheery just in this mellow i am tired would like to sleep mood lol. I don't know if i will be able to last much longer, i got to hang out with Patrick last night and he held keep me up with his wonderful kisses and nervous behavior, but sadly he had to go and so i am back home left to my own devices to survive lol. GOD that bed looks delicious , this is a bad challenge for me because i love to sleep sleeping is great and i love dreaming, nightmares i will pass on, but dreams are cool.

Oh my gosh my rat is weird the food bowl is near the water bottle which it usually isn't, first my rat raced down stairs jumped on the ledge of the food bowl and now she is just sitting there drinking from the bottle it's so freaking adorable. Damn you Kyoshi for being so cute with all your cutness.

I can't believe how heavy my eyes feel. NO BED I WILL NOT GIVE INTO YOU STOP STARING AT ME SO !!!!!

well wish me luck to continue on. . . . . .

" If people were meant to pop out of bed, we'd all sleep in toasters."
~Author unknown

XOXO D

No Sleep Challenge : Night One

Well it's been 12 hours and oh my lord I am sleepy already, but I won't let it get me down , I am going to work my but off to stay up hehe, Right now my mood is mellow .

Kinda disappointed because that dude called me today and asked if i wanted to hang out and then said he had to do a couple errands and he would call back and we would hang, well damn I was hoping that we were going to hang in the morning, hmmmm maybe he is a Vampire and can only come out during the night lol, ya right because he tired to give me a hickey and he failed lol, or does that mean i have tough skin lol no i don't he just was being gentle lol.

My sister doesn't want me to do this challenge because of her baby shower Saturday, but i don't think i will last that long anyway, before i start going insane lol, first i will be tired , then i will get another shot of energy then i will get really sleepy then i will drift into muffin mode ( which is when a person is totally exhausted you would think they are intoxicated with alcohol, or high and they find a lot of stupid things funny) lol muffin mode can't wait , then after that i believe that i will get very grumpy, irritated and then conk out lol.

Well at least i got my room clean and did my laundry, I cleaned my room because I thought he was going to come over and meet my ratties, oh well, strike three he is outta here lol ya know i will give him just one more chance before he really pisses me off and i move on, but come on he should of called to tell me he wasn't going to be able to come over. Why are men so lame damn.

In other news I found a old friend I went to HS with on facebook and we were talking a little i hope we reunite our friendship she was a cool friend.

"A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book."
~Irish Proverb

XOXO D

No Sleep Challenge : Day One

last night i was hanging out with my friend waiting for a date to arrive and I was asking her some would you rather questions from this book i have, and one of the Questions was "Would you rather not eat for three days or not sleep for three days" my friend picked not to eat for three days but i picked the not sleep, and we discussed our decisions, then we i am not sure how it came to be, but i suddenly decided that i was going to see how long i could stay up for, so the thing is i was to get as much sleep as i could last night and this morning would began my time, so i woke up at 11:00 AM , and i am ready to take on the challenge, and so i will be blogging each morning and night telling about how i feel and my mood lol. so right now i am excited, because i get to see who i met yesterday again later today and i am giddy about it lol hehe, and i don't feel tired lol YET! So bet now people to see how long i will last for, i think i will be able to go for maybe three days, the new person i met says i would last a day and a half, and my friends answer is pending lol. I think today is going to be a good, a good start to what is going to be a difficult few days also FOUR DAYS TIL MY SISTERS BABY SHOWER YAY!!!!!!!!!!

"If you can't sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying. It's the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep." ~Dale Carnegie

XOXO D

Sunday : Sun Burns, Cars, and Tears

well Saturday night was hell, i had a lot of trouble going to sleep it sucked i slept for like a half hour i would say and woke up with a headache and i was so uncomfortable, and i had to be up at a certain time, so i took some Tylenol and that put me out and i was sooooooo happy, lol.

But since last night happened i did not want to wake up and i set my alarm for like 8 i didn't get up til 9 hehe, me bad, so i rushed getting ready only to find out my mom was running late, because we are supposed to go to the Route 66 for it's the last day , and i decided i am going to get some photography done and it would be a good opportunity, so i was all set and ready and had to wait, my Dad and his wife went off some where so i watched some tv in the living room good ole IFC channel there was some movie on about Israeli soldiers and they are women, i was watching the end of it , but it was still pretty interesting then my dad and his wife came home, and soon after my mom finally came.

We drove to downtown San bernardino and parked in the old malls parking lot, and walked to the even, my poor old mother was already complaining, but we walked around further and saw a bunch of cars it was cool, and i snapped on, i felt confidant and was having a lot of fun doing it. The best picture i think i took was of a young rockabilly couple holding hands it was so cute, so pure, so real. ok so soon my mother was so worn out we had to go which sucked because i didn't get to see my friend who was going to be there, and the only bad thing about it was i did get sun burned on my arms and a little on my chest. she took me home and i showed her the favors for the baby shower me and my sister put together on Friday. my mom and my dads wife talked a little bit and then once my mom left i went in my room and passed out, i later woke up and ate a steak yuuummmmy.

Afterwords I looked at the pictures i had taken at the Route 66 and i wasn't to happy with how they came out i wished that i had done a little better, even on the rockabilly couple i believe i could have done better, but there is one i like it was this car and it just looked beautiful i was proud of that one out of over 500 pictures, but that is how it is with me, never satisfied have to have perfection lol. then i was talking with a few people online and well i talked to one individual and like always they made me cry, but it's my fault i shouldn't of talked to them any way i think i like making my pain reappear does that make me a masochist or a sadist hmmmmm, i forget which one it is, but i am not letting get me down i still know that i am strong and life is better then whats going on in my head and heart , but it does really suck they have such a power over my emotions, maybe once in the AF i will be stronger and less emotional, but that's who make me me, i am a shy, like to be happy girl, who cries hard and loves hard. I hate that person for making me cry erg so much anywho, so that was my day now Monday i need to do some laundry and clean my sad room, i have clothes everywhere lol, and just rest i had a long busy weekend, and hopefully i will get to go to the lake Tuesday and maybe see David this week as well, aww sweet David i do miss him and his craziness lol.

"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward." ~Kurt Vonnegut

XOXO D

L.A. County Fair YAY!!!

That's right folks the L.A. County fair is back in town and i went today with my family, we walked, we looked, we shopped, and we got our grub on. It was very fun just wish i had someone special to be at my side, that did get me down a little , but me my sister had a blast looking at things and i was trying to help her find a wallet, but when we found something she like she decided not to get ergg, instead we both got these cell phone danglies of foxes they are sooooo cute, and i got little other things and something for my mom. we were going to leave early but then we decided we would stay and watch the concert and guess who is playing .... LeAnn Rimes i was kind of dreading it and already tired , but i am glad we did stay it was a pretty rockin concert, but i did have to tell some ladies behind us to be quiet because they were yacking away and it's a freaking concert not a place to catch up on each others lives lol. so after that we did leave and i had a blast although we could not find the artichoke's they usually have and that bummed me and my sister out.

ok so after i got home from the fair i checked my emails, and i got a message saying i have mail on one of the date sites that i am on, so i go to check it and it is some dude from where i live he lives really close , then it hits me who it is and i started balling in laughter, because i realize it is my ex's friend who lives near me lol, he freaking hit on me i couldn't believe it then he realizes it to and asks to hook up i couldn't believe that i was like no way am i going to do that, first off i wouldn't hurt my ex like that and second just no that's not my style. so he got a little butt hurt so i said good night, and i should be going to be because tomorrow is another fun filled day hopefully lol.

So all in all my day was ok.

" In diving to the bottom of pleasure we bring up more gravel than pearls."
~Honore de Balzac

XOXO D

Boys, Hickies, and Roseanne

Monday night I spent my evening, doing late night laundry cleaning up my room a little and watching Roseanne , I love that show, but i was cleaning because this guy i've been out with a few times was going to see if he could come over, but i was skeptical about it and i was like i should really straighten my hair , but i was like nah he probably won't even be able to come over. so i finished up my laundry , cleaned up my room, and watched Roseanne til i could no longer hold my eyes open.

I woke up the following day something woke me up at about 9 am instinct i suppose it was, but i was like hmmmmm is that the phone ringing and for some reason i just knew it had to be David the guy who is supposed to come over, so at first i just get up and check my email and my friend Melissa text me that David called he because he was trying to get a hold of me telling her he called my land line phone and my dads wife picked up and he asked for Dani , which no one calls me by, because i hate it with the passion, but she didn't put two and two together or something because she told him he had the wrong number, so quickly i ran out of my room got the phone and dialed his number, he was upset because he tried to get a hold of me and was mad that my dads wife said it was the wrong number, but he said he was leaving in a few to come down and see me , I was like oh shit man i am not even dressed or of had a shower so i am like ok , well text me online i will have it on and i am going to bust ass to get ready and all that jazz. so i did and i cleaned up my room more , but i didn't have time to vacuum like a i wanted, so he was going to be there in about 10 mins and i had to get some invitations done for my sisters baby shower so i tried to do that as fast as possible, but i was in the kitchen and didn't realize he was outside waiting for me to come out, and he called the phone to get my attention.
I went out there and i thought he was going to be hanging out at my place, but we didn't so i grabed my purse and we busted out of there, we hung out and went to a few places and a park and he gave me a massive hickey on my neck, i was debating weather to show it, but decided against it . then we did come back to my house he didn't want to hang out at my house until he met my dad which is sweet , so i told him he should be home about now , so we go there and he met my dads wife, the two big cats, and my dad. So after he met them, we went to my room to hang out and I introduced him to my ratties, and he fell in love with them, but i am still not sure which one is his favorite. I showed him around the house it was nice and we just chilled and talked and had a splendid time. then we decided to go to best buy he had to get something there, so we went he talked to some people about what he needed and i got to play a little of Guitar hero, I played Kings of leon " Sex is on Fire" and a little bit of Gorillaz "Feel good inc." and i found out that David is left handed, my dad is left handed i thought that was pretty interesting. He bought me a Pomegranate berry smoothie it was sooooooooo delicious. We also went across the way to Pet World and checked out what they had the most awesome thing i saw there was freakin mini octopus' it was sooo cool, i so want one they were only 80 bucks not bad for something as cool as that. so after we did that he took me home and he left, i miss him already awwwww, i wanted to take a picture with him but i just ended up taking one of him lol, and it came out really good, he is such a cutie here he is.

I really think he is a good guy, i do enjoy being with him, we still don't have that much in common, but he seems to enjoy being with me as well, i am seeing where it goes with David, but i can't help but be on the edge of ending our time only because i don't see a future with him, and it sounds like he might. But for now i am happy being with him and can't wait to be with him again.

I came home ate some food watched Roseanne , but was exhausted i mean he came over about 11 am , and we departed at like 8 something i think, i was done, so i went to sleep , but freaking woke up at 12 am not able to go back to bed and my friend melissa was yelling at me , because she was trying to get a hold of me lol, and she was all butt hurt because she thought i was ignoring her, and i was like no no, i just went to bed and she found a new buddy to hang with then me, but man what could i do i need to sleep and so now i am up all late , but i thought it would be a great time to talk about my day. the memory will keep me smiling.

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open." ~ John Barrymore

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CHERRY FLAVORED EVERYTHING

BLAH ...... I am sick and tired of being sick, ERG i hates it i am in pain, and i have to do shit tomorrow and if i don't feel the slightest better i am going to have to not go because i can't be around people in this sort of pain there is just no freaking way, i am almost in tears here literally it hurts to swallow i am in so much pain i can barely drink water or eat and i was so hungry i had to just endure the pain to stop my tummy from yelling at me and do you think any one gives a crap, nope , i had to beg my dad to get me something to ease the pain , and still when he got the stuff like this throat spray and still didn't work and he got me chloraseptic throat lozenges and they didnt work either and they both taste awful don't they have any other flavor other then Cherry because man it is gross shoving cherry after cherry into my mouth <--- that sounds nasty , and then my mom calls and we have to start putting some shit in her new place, but i don't know if i will be up for it i thought i was doing better but then all of the sudden i got hit with a wave of under the weather again , and she didn't even bat a freaking eye when i told her how i was doing, she's like ok well i will be there in the morning to pick you up, but really i don't know if can go, hopefully i feel somewhat better tomorrow, but i don't know how good i am going to be , i think i gave the little energy i had left yesterday getting the stuff we needed for the baby shower i mean i know it was just walking around and driving from place to place, but hello sick person here, i am sick because my immune system is down and blah blah blah , plus my moms real move date is sat. and i don't know if i will be able to help and my mom is depending on me , but i feel as though it may take a while for me to recover i always have problems with the throat area , it takes freakin forever to heal i hates it the worse possible way for me to get sick, i mean i wish it was the vomit kind sick then this type hands down i can stand some ralphing, but i hate my throat hurting and making me cry. and then i told that guy i have been seeing and he didn't give a shit either, he was busy with something else, i mean he fucking says he loves me but can't say sorry babe i wish i was there to do something for you, i don't matter I matter to no one. to bad it wasn't pneumonia and it just offs me right now , sorry but that's how i feel at the moment, i was doing fine before, because i was watching this really good Anime called "Peach girl" which i recommend any anime fan to watch whose a girl , not sure if guys would be to much into its kinda girly, but damn good, i couldn't stop watching it and swooning and wishing I had Two love interest like the main girl did. I've been spitting up loogies all day it's nasty but true into a cup and i have to dump it out again, i think i will do that then head to bed and see if maybe the night will ease my sickness and i will be better in the morning.

"When dealing with people, remember you are not dealing with creatures of logic, but creatures of emotion." ~Dale Carnegie

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SICK AS A DOG

Well interesting past few days, on Sunday i got to hang out with that guy David like i mentioned in the previous blog, so then i get a call Monday afternoon from my friend asking if David and I would like to join her and her new gf for dinner, so we arrange things and i get a hold of David and he is totally down, so we fucked up on the directions to his house and took forever for us to find it, but we got him went down the hill and ate some IHOP, throughout the meal i wasn't really feeling David, I continue to feel we have nothing in common and i don't just want to go into something only based on a good chemistry of kissing er and stuff hehe. So he goes to have a cigarette eww hate them with the passion and i explain to my friend and her gf the situation i have been mulling over in my head. I mean he has a lot of great qualities, but he also still acts like a child, a strong manly sexy child , that sounds wrong. Anyway he comes back and we finish up our meal, i wanted him to hang out and stay down the hill with me, but he had to go back because he had to do stuff in the morning for his family, then he asked me if i wanted to spend the night at his place i was like noooooooooooooooo first of all i don't have any stuff for the day after and pretty much that was my argument i hate not being able to have my stuff when i stay at someone's house, you know like my makeup, hair stuff, tooth brush tooth past, a book to read in case i get bored , my ipod because i knew i wouldn't be able to sleep in a strange new house. so we discussed it as we got to his home, and i thought now would be the time to tell him how i feel about our uncommon life basically, he heard and understood and then almost cried AWWWWWWWWW i could not believe it that he was getting so sad, i am a sucker for the sadness, but he continued and said that he wants to at least give it a try and he is sure we will find things in common, me i am a skeptic and don't believe such, but i will give him the opportunity to prove me wrong. so after much deliberation and coin tossing and starring into those big blue eyes of his, I caved and said i would spend the night. So i left off with him into his dark house looking back to my friends car thinking i should run for it i will catch them before they go, but he held on to me strong and pulled me into his lair hehe. we had a good rest of the night, but like i predicted i could not sleep worth a dime, i would probably sleep a little bit but then i would spring up and be awake, i think i was catching something as well, my throat was kind of bothering me. we woke up and started to spend the day together, i felt so uncomfortable, because i didn't have anything i was just there with yesterday clothes and my unwashed hair for two days now ick, but we hung out and it was very chill, i watched him do some handy work, and he is so handsome will he concentrates hard at the job at hand. then after he was finished we played around it was so fun he chased me and sprayed me with water it was awesome, I get a call on my phone from my friend melissa and she was asking how i was going to get home, i said i didn't know, and she was like well do you still want to go to the lake, i was like sure but i don't have any swim suit, so she said she has to run some errands, but she'll stop by my house and pick up my things, and she did. I told David what was up and he was like oh i am soooo going, and i was like i don't know if you can and he said he would just get into the car anyway. so it was a little bit before my friend got over to his place, and he asked if he could go and she said no, then when we were driving away she was like you really want him to go and i was like YES , so we turned around and he was on his deck and i yelled up and he still wanted to go , and he was like ya, and then i had to tell he had to not be loud, and asked if he could bring some charcoal , because they wanted to BBQ, so he brought some, and came down and we went off , first we had to stop at my friends Aunts place for that is who owns the pier met her and then went off to the pool, we got over there and David put sun tanning lotion on me it felt great like really really great, so then we all went down to the pier, melissa dared me to on 3 jump into the water and she thought i was going to chicken out and so we bet 20 bucks neither of us would, so on the count of three we ran down and jumped together, it was fucking cold, like really really cold, but after being in there for a while it starts to warm up, melissa's gf wasn't going to go swimming, and David was being a pussy lol, then he jumped in retartedly wearing his sun glasses and then losing them, we played a little bit then got out of the water so i could sun bath and he would not stop annoying me, the boy has ADDH seriously he i asked him. So i kind of regretted him coming because he wouldn't let me sun bath so later every one expect me i was sun bathing went to start the bbq , and i decided to boldly again sun bath topless , how funny that got David back over to me to what else bug me , i finally went up there to be with the rest of the group and David started being playful and put ice down my suit lol, it sucked, but then he would come and kiss me, the bbq was done we ate it was good, and then melissa went down to the pier by herself and they told me to go get her and i went over there and stayed, and then David came over there and poured cold ass water down my back i wanted to throw him in the water mmmmmmm that boy , so we chilled a little a longer then started to clean the area up and we went up the stairs to get out of the private pier area, but my friend was bull shitting about not having the key and so i was like fine put all my loose stuff on the other side and hoped the gate and walked off to the car, finally my friend admitted it and they soon joined me, at this point in time i was extremely exhausted very very tired, so we drove David home i didn't want him to leave, but he had to , then we drove back to my place i fell asleep and when i awoke i felt like utter crap, my throat hurt worst and my body soooo achy , I just went into my room, plopped down and slept, i have a mini fever going on, and i couldn't get warm, but i was hot it sucked, finally went to sleep and when i woke back up it was like 11 something and asked Donna if she had any throat medicine and she gave me cough drops, she asked if i needed anything for my fever i was like no i feel it breaking, so then i decided to check my emails and what not and write my blog , because tomorrow i have a jammed pack day, so pray i get through it, blah.

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You have a cough? Go home tonight, eat a whole box of Ex-Lax - tomorrow you'll be afraid to cough." ~Pearl Williams

XOXO D

Mountain Man !!!!

well I am beyond giddy right now I had a good day, for the past few days I have been trying to meet this guy named David who lives up in the mountains, but every time we tried something would get in the way, so sunday we wanted to make it happen, well then he wasn't sure if he could and wouldn't know til late afternoon, i got up early just to make sure i was ready if he could do it then, but i had to wait to find out, so I got dolled up and took some pictures of myself and here are a few, I even took photos wearing my glasses which i hate doing, but it turned out pretty good.

So i was happy that some came out well, then also i was talking with my friend and her new gf at the same time it got confusing which one would be talking to me , but it also kept me entertained. Finally David told me we could hang out and he would be over to pick me up soon, i was so nervous and excited that I was finally going to meet this guy. So I got my things together and he called me when he was near and so i waited outside for him, and he came and got out of the car , he hugged me, I was kind of scared and i was still soooooo nervous, he helped me into his ride and we talked a little as we drove up to his place, he kept looking at me, it was cute. the drive to his place was beautiful, I do love nature so. Finally we got to his place tucked away up in the mountains. we were going to hang out and get to know each other and watch movies, the first movie we put in was "Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind" but m well we didn't see much of it, because we started making out and it was great, he is so sweet and nice, he told me i was beautiful and went on and on about my eyes, no one has ever been into my eyes like that before, he made me feel so pretty and good about myself, ( I stalled for a moment remembering our time) he was so giving and gentle and affectionate, it was just plain awesome that's all i can say. Now he is a great guy, a little over the top with his playfulness and carefree attitude, he is funny, and fucking sexy adorable beautiful blue eyes, plump delicious lips to kiss , and warm, but he does have a lot of red signs for me to not further this thing, but i don't want to think about that stuff, really that part is like what is my family going to think of him and when they find out his red signs they are going to be so against him being with me, sadly in his case the bad kinda of does weigh out the good , even though he made me feel like goddess, it is hard for me to deal with some of his issues and position in life, i mean i not no perfect person either , i have my issues and most people run from that, but i don't know i definitely would like to see where it goes with him, but really i don't think that far, it makes sad , because when i think about being with him I can't help but smile. Now i am sad , because he made me feel so great about me, no one has ever gushed about my physical attributes as much as he did, but in so many ways we are so wrong for one another, maybe i should end it before he falls for me, but he too looks like someone who would break my heart. All in all it was a great time and even if it was for one moment of bliss , i will definitely take it and treasure always, because that boy can kiss lol.

"Our hearts are drunk with a beauty our eyes could never see." ~George W. Russell

XOXO D

Babies, Halloween , and kisses

Well today was a interesting day, i woke up early remember a dream of me having a little girl, but i didn't get to see her til she was like 9 and i hated the lady that was her mother instead of me. it was very odd and i could feel the saddness of not being able to be there for my child and not being able to watch all the magic and precious moments of my girl.

then around 10 AM my sister came and we went to a party supply store and looked around for decorations for her baby shower, then we went to Party Plus another party store and got some things for the favors, We also stopped off at Joanna's to look for a special kind of scissors , and we were looking at their Halloween music figures and they were awesome, i wanted to record them but we forgot to go back , but there was this owl on top of a pumpkin and it sang and flapped his wings it was cool, then there was a cat one holding a little pumpkin we flipped the switch and it started playing black magic woman, so first is the intro of just instrumental, then the singing started and out of now where expectantly the pumpkins mouth moves I mean i never saw it coming and screamed to high heaven, my sister laughed her ass off at my reaction.

afterwords we went to the post office to try to find occasion stamps, but we failed they didn't have much it sucked, then we had to wait for her husband to get home so we could go to Babies R Us to register for her baby shower, so we got to put together a sample favor to see how it goes, and it looks awesome i should take a picture of it. lol don't i always say that.

any way then we met up with her husband at the Babies R Us and they filled out a form and the lady told them all about the best way to register for the baby shower and it was alot of info, but soon we were released onto the store to our own demise lol, so it was so long before we looked at everything baby we even filled up one scanner to capacity and still had to go through clothes, it was long, then after that we were going to go to target to register their, but first we stopped by the vet because my sisters dog had to have surgery on its knee and we went to check how she was , i almost cried but i was strong.

after that i was starving so me and my sister ate some food and then hurried off to target to hurry and register , there wasn't much there most of the stuff we go was at Babies R Us so it was fairly quick but man it had gotten late , and i was hoping it wasn't going to take that long because i really wanted to meet this guy named David my bad blue eyed boy , but unfortunately when i got home it was past 7 and to late for him to come down so that sucked.

I was kind of relieved because i was so tired from running around all day so i was chillin listen to some music, well finishing the list of heart broken songs and this one fella named Andy messaged me, this guy has been trying to meet me to kiss me , and i've kind of getting a bad vibe from it, cause i swear for a few days now he has been trying, and i kept telling him that i was tired and what not, but he kept on insisting we hang out for a bit, so finally after much talk involving Gavin Rossdale he won me over lol, so I met him , he rode in on his motorcycle what is it about men and their bikes so hot, he was cute with his weird hair all tied back , he was tall 6'2 and skinny , i am not much into the real skinny dudes but eh, we walked around the neighbor hood and when we turned the connor of the street he wanted to kiss me but i told him i wasn't ready that i am a shy gal and it takes time, so he was cool a real chill guy , so we walked some more and he was trying to convince me to take a ride on his motorcycle, but my ex scared me about how i would screw it up or some shit like that, but he assured me as long as i just held on and did nothing we would be fine, so we headed back to his bike to give it a try but then we stopped along the way to sit on a curb and chat a bit to get the nervousness out of the way, then my friend called asking if i would hang out with her new gf while she was at work, i was like Melissa please i hardly know her it will be sooooooo awkard and then i told her i was hanging out with someone and had to go. then we talked a little bit more then he moved in on me for a kiss and so i gave it so we made out for a bit i pulled away and he said i was a really good kisser , he was good too, we continued and he started to get a little handsy had to ease him down so he did and we continued to make we made out for a bit then walked back toward his bike because he had to get going but we would stop and kiss walk stop and kiss it was nice just what i needed it was great. so i said goodbye i have no idea if i will talk or see this guy again, i think he is one of those guys that just wants to have fun and is not really getting into anything real deep ya know, but it was cool, because i had been looking for someone to just make out with and that is what i did and i feel good about it very very good and happy. I would be most surprised if he would want to hang out again.

well i am off to dream land yay hope it's something good.

"Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves." ~ Albert Einstein


XOXO D

Lazy Day and now I cant sleep again

great one day of sleeping in and now i am back to not being able to go to bed, usually since i've been busy i've been able to go to sleep around 12 or so , but dang it i can't i tried and i have things to do in the morning. i wish i could of went to the lake today i felt it in my skin wanting to go there, but today was a lazy day i slept in til i could sleep no more, i didn't even take a shower til late , i finished watching this weird cartoon on Hulu called "stressed Eric" and talked to a few people, This fella named Donnie whom i met one night because i needed to get out and i know I know dangerous to go out at like 1 am to meet some random guy but you have no idea how bad i needed out of the house. so i was talking to him just a little bit, he wants to see each other after i do my thing with my sister , but i am not sure if i want to, then i was also talking to this one guy named Andy, he has really puffy hair , any way he is stuck on wanting to kiss me, but i am not really sure if i want to anymore, he wanted to hang out yesterday , but i wasn't sure, because he wanted to go off somewhere and make out, but all he has is a motorcycle SCARY i don't think i am made for motorcycle riding i am really frightened i will fall off and make us go boom, but he had to go somewhere and would be back later and told me to think about it, then i started talking with this one guy named David, right away i fell for his Big blue eyes, damn why do eyes have to get me so bad, he also has nice lips that i would love to kiss, any way he doesn't live that far from her, but there are alot of red flags that say that i shouldn't start anything with him, i won't go into detail , but we talked online and then we talked on the phone, which you know i hate, but with him i felt compelled to do so , and we talked for a little bit and he is such a big sweetie, and he sang to me on the phone and played the piano for me, i was talking to this other guy and he asked me what could someone do to sweep me off my feet well that right there was is singing to me and piano playing swoon hello any way i got off the phone with him we might meet tomorrow if i don't get home to late from hanging out with my sister.

while i was talking with these guys i got invited to have dinner with my dad and his wife which usually they just have me fend for myself for dinner, we were having chilli dogs and right when we were going to sit and eat the doorbell rang , and it was my sister yay , so she joined with us and ate and hung out, she just got on face book and is going all crazy for it, so we hung out searched face book together for old class mates and junk it was fun. then she left, but i will be seeing her tomorrow because we are going to be registering for her baby shower which should be fun, i can't wait, but i hope i can get some sleep so i won't be grumpy , out of exhaustion lol.

In other news my best friend who i went to the lake with , well she has been single for a long while, and since i came back to highland we set her up with a dating profile so she had been on different dates and what not, but on Tuesday night she become unsingle , I am happy for her, but when we were at the lake we had started a
"Lonely hearts Club" we were going to get matching tattoos and everything , now i am the only member lol, if any one wants to join please contact me lol. yesterday i was also listening to a bunch of heart broken songs, but instead of being sad and feeling the songs pain i was like oh man i know this song its awesome lol, good beat i mean, i mean the words were sad and stuff but the beat was sweet. later i should share with you the list of broken heart songs i have. but yes so anyway I am happy for my friend, because i want her to be happy and have someone in her life, even though i probably won't see her anymore lol, isn't that how it is tho once your friend finds someone to love they really don't need their friends anymore, we shall see.

well i am going to try and go to sleep now, wish me luck and i will write back soon.

"The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye."

XOXO D

I AM IN LOVE WITH ................................

NATURE!!!!!!!!! lol , today was a awesome day one of the best of my life , well the night before i was supposed to go out with this guy , but something came up and had to cancel, i was pissed , but my friend came over to cheer me up , and we had a blast talking to some guy on line well he typed and my and my friend talked on the mic it was fun, because me and her are crazy .

Then she said we should go to the lake tomorrow , so i was like sure, so she left from my house a little after 2 am and would be back in the morning, we didn't go til a little after 12, but we got to her families private pier and it was a beautiful day perfect weather. so we went swimming , but most of the time we sun bathed , i made sure to drown my skin in sun tan lotion, because last time when i went to laguna i fried , so yea i drowned in the stuff lol, but oh man oh man the sun on my skin felt sooo good, i loved it. It was pretty desolate over there as well, only from time to time a boat would wush by, so at one moment, me and my friend took our tops off , but then we had company a few ways down so we covered up. but then later when they left i decided to do it again but not my friend. i got to do it for a little bit before some people on the other side of us appeared so i covered up, i wasn't planning on going back in the water because i had got all dried my suit and stuff, but my friend was bugging for one more dunk in the water , and i was like you know what i will skinny dip lol, and she was like no you won't , and i was like watch me just don't take my clothes and she promised she wouldn't , so i quickly took my bathing suit off and jumped in, i didn't get to do it very long, before my friend panicked and said someone was coming, so i hurried and got re dressed, then we laid out again , and while we were thunder started to rumble it was awesome, and then it started to sprinkle it felt so nice feeling the light rain fall onto my skin and kiss it lightly lol, but as soon as it started to get a little heavier we decided that was our que to leave, so we packed up our stuff cleaned up and left back to home, got home about 6 pm and took a shower and then just been chillin, just wanted to tell about my time it was awesomely fun and might do it again thursday, but we shall see. well that's about all i want to say.

( God writes the gospel not in the Bible alone, but on trees and flowers and clouds and stars. ~Martin Luther )

XOXO D