Sunday : Sun Burns, Cars, and Tears

well Saturday night was hell, i had a lot of trouble going to sleep it sucked i slept for like a half hour i would say and woke up with a headache and i was so uncomfortable, and i had to be up at a certain time, so i took some Tylenol and that put me out and i was sooooooo happy, lol.

But since last night happened i did not want to wake up and i set my alarm for like 8 i didn't get up til 9 hehe, me bad, so i rushed getting ready only to find out my mom was running late, because we are supposed to go to the Route 66 for it's the last day , and i decided i am going to get some photography done and it would be a good opportunity, so i was all set and ready and had to wait, my Dad and his wife went off some where so i watched some tv in the living room good ole IFC channel there was some movie on about Israeli soldiers and they are women, i was watching the end of it , but it was still pretty interesting then my dad and his wife came home, and soon after my mom finally came.

We drove to downtown San bernardino and parked in the old malls parking lot, and walked to the even, my poor old mother was already complaining, but we walked around further and saw a bunch of cars it was cool, and i snapped on, i felt confidant and was having a lot of fun doing it. The best picture i think i took was of a young rockabilly couple holding hands it was so cute, so pure, so real. ok so soon my mother was so worn out we had to go which sucked because i didn't get to see my friend who was going to be there, and the only bad thing about it was i did get sun burned on my arms and a little on my chest. she took me home and i showed her the favors for the baby shower me and my sister put together on Friday. my mom and my dads wife talked a little bit and then once my mom left i went in my room and passed out, i later woke up and ate a steak yuuummmmy.

Afterwords I looked at the pictures i had taken at the Route 66 and i wasn't to happy with how they came out i wished that i had done a little better, even on the rockabilly couple i believe i could have done better, but there is one i like it was this car and it just looked beautiful i was proud of that one out of over 500 pictures, but that is how it is with me, never satisfied have to have perfection lol. then i was talking with a few people online and well i talked to one individual and like always they made me cry, but it's my fault i shouldn't of talked to them any way i think i like making my pain reappear does that make me a masochist or a sadist hmmmmm, i forget which one it is, but i am not letting get me down i still know that i am strong and life is better then whats going on in my head and heart , but it does really suck they have such a power over my emotions, maybe once in the AF i will be stronger and less emotional, but that's who make me me, i am a shy, like to be happy girl, who cries hard and loves hard. I hate that person for making me cry erg so much anywho, so that was my day now Monday i need to do some laundry and clean my sad room, i have clothes everywhere lol, and just rest i had a long busy weekend, and hopefully i will get to go to the lake Tuesday and maybe see David this week as well, aww sweet David i do miss him and his craziness lol.

"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward." ~Kurt Vonnegut

XOXO D