Creeping Insanity

Slowly but surely i am going insane and no it's not due to that awesome game "Insaniquarium" no no men are driving me to the brink of insanity i swear. I just had the weirdest text conversation, so for starters, this guy named Kirk has been trying to hook up or whatever with me no sure of his freaking motives which he says are true but one begs the differ any way, last weekend we were supposed to hang out, but it didn't for some stupid reason, that would only drive you insane with me. so then we try to set up another time to hang out, so we end up talking about friday the one coming up, and so far we agreed on it, but when i ask for the time he stops talking so whatever, i go on with my week and i am doing things, drawing and what not, and he texts me later in the week , but i am really trying to get this drawing finished with and when i have a moment i text him back but i guess since i didn't instantly text him back he got pissy. so whatever i thought maybe he finally is giving up on me , which at this point i would be relieved a little, because he is very weird with things, any way so i am sitting here this evening watching "Memoirs Of a Geisha" and i get a text from him saying lets hang thursday night and have breakfast in the morning, well i tell him i can't that i have to go to the dmv friday morning so i want to be able to get a good rest before. and he starts pissing a fit and saying i am loaded with excuses , and we text back and fourth , it was like a freaking fight and felt like he was a jealous bf or something, ultimately i won this fight, because he is always busy when i am free and i am busy when he is free, and he made plans on the time we were supposed to go out and he gets made that i can't change my plans to suit his EEEERGGG. Trust me there is more to this insane moment, but at the end he only wants to hang out a little now so i can still get rest for the next day, if i could scream really loud without waking up the whole house i would.

Well that is that, now in other news i drew this really cool drawing, but i am not telling you what it is til after sunday, because i drew it for a friend and i don't want it leaked out to what it is.

I've talking or emailing back and fourth to someone i shouldn't be , but it's not that bad just some tears here and there and then quickly on with my life, my friends and family are against, but there hasn't been any bad words shared so as long as we play nice i don't exactly see the harm in the matter.

Easter is on it's way and the whole family is getting together to celebrate it , i missed it last year, wasn't in town to celebrate with my family, but i am here now and i can't wait it should be wonderful, and i want to try and take lots a of pictures on my family, oh boy i hope there is a Easter Egg Hunt weeeeeeeee

XOXO D

New Arrival To The Family

Sorry I didn't write sooner, but you know how I forget to blog , but anyway On March 22nd 2010 , I went to the pet store where i get my rat's food, the bummer part was they didn't have my regular food i get so i had to get the next one down which is expensive and hardly enough to last them a month, but my mom bought me a extra bag so that was awesome, but i wanted to check out the rats, and they had a bunch a hairless rats in the mix and i was checking them out and there was this one hairless rattie running around being ultra cute and she looked at me , and i fell in love, my mom pulled me away saying no you don't need her, and i was like i know but i am in love she awesome and i've always wanted a hairless rat and shes purrrrfecto. Another thing was i didn't want to buy a rat from that pet shop because they always keep their female rats with the males and so the female rats could be pregnant, but i just had this utter desire to get her and i did, so i have a new little hairless Rat named Lola.

She is absolutely adorable, but i am keeping her separated for awhile, i mean you have to at least keep her quarantined for about a week or so, but she might be preggers so i am going to keep her in confinement for at least 22 days by then if no little rat pups come out she can go join her sisters.

I was holding her this morning, and she was climbing my arm and she slipped and fell to the floor instant panic as she darted under my bed, i was like oh shit, and i had to clear everything out, make sure there was no way she could hide on the other side of the room, and i looked at this cabinet thing that is in my room and i just knew she was under there, so i cleared the area and yup she was sticking her nose out from underneath it lol, so i got a yogurt drop , but she hasn't learned to love the yoggies just yet to go after it like her sisters, so i had to be more creative i got this long paper tube thing scared her to one side where she was trapped between my paper tube and this box so i made it her choice was to go when i moved the box, she is so tiny so i had to make sure i didn't squish her, and so she made her way inside this jacket i was using as a barricade, then i arranged it so the next place she could run to would be her cage, so after i got that in place i moved the jacket so she could run to the cage, but she was so scared she didn't want to really leave the jacket, and with past experience i didn't want pick her up, because she might want to bite outta fear, so i grabbed this beanie of mine and went to pick her up and i got her Whoosh, so i put the poor little thing in her cage and let her relax and then gave her a part of a yogie to console her lol, she's doing ok, still a little scared i believe lol.

Well that is it for now, i am going to go finish my laundry lol.

XOXO D

Yesterday was so St. Patricks Day

........ And i did nothing ERRRRrrrg, I was supposed to be doing something with some friends, but then that fell through, because most of them had to study for finals, didn't they know that before they said we were going to celebrate lame, and then my best friend Melissa , decides shes going to party with her brother and his friends, and i don't like drinking with them because they party hard and i am like a light partier, so i got to stay home and i worked on a drawing of my sister and her baby , it turned out ok, but i definitely need practice when it comes to drawing realistic people portraits, but i love drawing so it's good practice, I also watched more movies, not sure if i posted this , but i too lazy to go back and check if i did, but i watch "Adventure Land" and man that was one boring ass movie uhg it was just blah nothing made it exciting and then when you thought it was going to get good it went right back to being boring, i don't know if it was the actors who made it out to be that way or if it was just the script and so forth , but yea thought it was lame and a waste of time. I also watched Crank 2 lol, much like the first Crank movie it was freaking nuts and crazy , but i do love to watch Jason Statham, he was very awesome me likey me wanty lol, but i did not watch those movies yesterday, i watched a movie called "Smart People" with Ellen Page and Dennis Quaid, that one was ok it had it's moments of being a little dull, but it did keep my attention and i wanted to see it through, then another movie i watched was called "Hard Candy" with Ellen Page and Patrick Wilson who is a new crush of mine he played Raoul in the movie Phantom of the Opera, any ways that movie was intense and keep my attention very well very very well, glad i watched it, so i know what your asking whats up with all the Ellen page movies, well i liked her in "Whip it" and wanted to see how she did in other movies, shes a pretty cool actress hope she goes far. Now i am watching a bunch of movies with my new crush Patrick Wilson, but that will be talked about next time. the last movie i watched was Broken English , and old 19something movie but i wanted to see it because it has another crush of mine Marton Csokas, he played in "Aeon Flux" and the very beginning of "Alice in Wonderland" he was Alice's father, that movie was weird and not the much of my man lol my man i am so weird.

And then my love life, nothing going on really, chatting with some dudes but that's just about for now, not worrying about any of that , just trying to get my life together, talking doesn't hurt. Chris C. is trying to reconnect with me , but i am not going there, your supposed to forgive and forget, but I think he is going to be a repeat offender of that sort of behavior, and i'd rather just leave it at the door.

Well that's it for now, cleaning some stuff off of my computer so I will continue with that. Til next time .

XOXO D

Some people are sooo lame :(

hey, i know if you look at the time i post this you would be saying damn girl shouldn't you be sleeping , and yes i should but i just can't seem to get back to a normal sleeping schedule, but after i post this i will definitely try to get some sleep and i am going to wake up early because some work needs to be done around here, starting my ratties cage stinky is the word lol.

So Friday , me and my friend were going to try and go to this party that was happening over at cal state it was a luau, but during the week my friend was going through some shit, which i still don't really know whats going on with her we haven't hung together for a while, so anyway I ended up meeting this guy that i had been talking to for just a short time, but we had a great conversation, and he was supposed to meet me at the party, so i had to text him telling him it was a no go, but he still wanted to meet, although i didn't want to meet him , because i was still unsure of him, and i thought a party would be great and not a whole lot of pressure, but after some back and fourth with my thoughts i decided to meet him, his named is Chris , yes another guy named Chris but this one is African American, the other was white and we will call that one Chris C. Ok so African American Chris came over to my house and picked me up and we drove to green spot and chatted for a bit , well actually i chatted and he didn't really say to much it was weird, so we didn't hang out to long because he had work in morning, so he took me home, and i went to play on the computer, Chris C. was online and we started talking a little and then he went offline , so i was continuing playing on the computer and then Chris C. called my phone and we started talking there, and he was bringing up how like next year he was going to get a car and start driving again and he could come over and take me out, and i was like well can i be honest with you and he was like ok whats up, and i said well i sorta went on a little date, technical it wasn't a date more like a meet and greet lol, and he was oh that's ok i don't care, i just want to be your friend a really good friend and i was like ok cool, so we continued to talk about random stuff and then he was talking about something and it brought up the race of my date, and when he found out that he was African American he hung up on me, i was like ooook , and continued playing on the computer, then Chris C. messages me online and begins to spit all this racist stuff, and i couldn't believe how mean and ugly he was being, i was like why are you doing this, and he gave no answer just kept being ignorant and just awful what kind of friend does that, so i blocked him from being able to message me and from myspace i've never seen someone be so ugly before. I had just accepted his mom to be my friend on facebook, and she had already become my friend on myspace, so i wrote to her telling about what happened not disclosing exactly what he said just that is was very rude and mean etc and told her that she was nice and i would still like to be her friend. The next day she wrote back saying that she would like to continue to be friends on facebook, and that was cool of her. she hopes one day me and Chris C. can be friends again, but you know i can't forgive someone that would talk to me like that, i hate when people are ignorant like that gees we live in a world we have been living together all races, sexs, ages etc why does there have to be hate.

told all my family well my mom and sister anyway about what happened and they couldn't believe it either, and we say good riddens to Chris C.

Sat. my sister and her family came over and we watched the movie "2012" two thumbs down i have to say, it was a whole lot of talking and not enough action, i am glad i didn't pay to go see it in the theaters, it was nice being with my family though.

Sunday me and my mom went and had sushi, i had been craving it mmmm is was good i stuffed my face with sushi hehe, well not really, but i ate til i was full. then that night i got to finish season two of True blood , which was freaking awesome love that show and can't wait for season three to come out, it doesn't come out til June 13th and then i have to wait some more it's worth the wait though i can tell you that. also that night African American Chris was texting me to see if i wanted to hang out, but i wasn't feel like it, i really wanted to watch my show, but i told him i wasn't feeling good, but even still the boy was trying to get me to hang out with him , and you know i do like persistence , but i am not that into him, he is a doll and he has delicious arms , but i just didn't feel the spark, i wish i could , i do want a steady bf but i need to feel something like i want to be with them right and for the past few dates i haven't wanted to idk maybe i am just not meant to be with someone right now.

I feel bad too, because AA Chris was trying to hang out with me monday as well, but sadly i didn't even answer back, I just hate telling guys i am not interested makes me feel bad :( But also today i was talking with this guy another guy Named Darren, we had a good conversation going , while we talked i was watching the movie "Crank 2" OMG that movie was sick and crazy i couldn't believe i was watching it, but i do love to watch me some Jason Statham mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, and then i talked a little bit with this other guy i believe his name is Keith but not sure didn't really get to ask him, but that was on his SN, but I've had it happen before that someone was using a nickname , but this guy asked me out for sometime in the future so that's cool, and he is tall and a cutie, Darren though is on the short side and you know i likey the tall ones lol, but i am not tossing aside Darren like i said he was nice to talk to online just hope it's the same in person. the other guy we had a ok conversation the talking was kind of skinny lol.

So that is it for now i am getting sleepy so i better hit the hay if i want to wake up and do some work around here.

XOXO D

Iguana drawing Finished

Hey just wanted to come on and share that I finally finished my Iguana Picture today and super happy about it, i showed my dad and his wife , and they both really enjoy it , which makes me even more happy, now i can't wait til my sister comes over again so i can show her. I also scanned it to my computer and posted it on myspace for others to look at especially this lady who said if i wanted anything to draw to draw a iguana because that is her fave animal. I wish i had readers who responded to my blog so i could have people give me something else to draw, preferable animals so it seems i love them and i have a skill at drawing them, that and lovely ladies lol. My sister does want me to draw Bella and Edward from Twilight, but i am not positive i will do so well on that one. I will figure something out. I know my drawing isn't perfect but it still is good i believe. so i am going to post it on here , i do have my water mark on it so here we go.

Title: Mr. Green

Hope you people like it, if you only knew where i got the title from you and my best friend would kick my ass. well that's all for now.

XOXO D

Lots of fun for me YAY

Was going to wait to post this but I thought I would just go ahead, so Monday night my friend Melissa came over and we finished the last season of Bones we hadn't seen season 4, and i asked her what she was going to be doing , because she said she was off, and she said that she was going to try and go to Disneyland, and i told her why don't we hang out , and go to the skating rink, so she was like maybe.

So Tuesday morning i get a text saying that she wasn't going to go to Disneyland and we could hang out so i got ready she came over and first we went to go get something to eat, i wanted to eat at McDonalds because i am in love with their sweet tea delicious afterward i asked if we could take in my recycling i had been saving for a few months, i didn't think i would get that much but a couple bucks would help me out, so we took the recycling in and wow i got 8 bucks more then what i was expecting lol.

So after that we had to wait til 6:30 pm because that would be when we could go to the skating rink, so we decided to go to this place called Fiesta Village and play at the batting cages, so we did and man i had never really hit a ball with a bat before, only done it a handful of times , so Melissa had to show me and i got a couple hits , but first we played the slow pitch machines then we played the 40 mph and man when i hit those ones holy cow they hurt my hand like a bitch, but we were having issues with the machines so we complained and got tokens to use at the arcade.

The arcade was cool, we played to Guitar Hero, skee ball, basketball, race games, jurassic park game, pin ball, and deal or no deal, and i got some skelanimal stickers gave Melissa on it's of a bunny and i got a bat and i had my bat earrings on too so it fit yay, afterwards we went off to look for the Skating Rink.

It didn't take us to long to find it, we went inside even though it wasn't time yet, but melissa asked to use the restroom and they said she could so we got to go in and their were people on the rink practicing like ice skating moves, it was really cool, they did jumps and twirls like the ice skaters do but they were on roller skates, so we wondered a little then went out to the car to wait til it was time we didn't have that much longer to wait, but as we were leaving my friend almost smacked herself into this pole it was hilarious, then at 6:30 pm we went inside.

I have my own roller blades but Melissa had to go rent hers, i got a locker for our stuff, we were trying to get people to come so we told them where we were and then put our cells in the locker, it was fun and easy to skate on the carpet, but it was more so difficult to do it on the actual rink, it was real hard for my friend because she hadn't done it in a long time, like me, but i already had some practice before hand, it was quiet impressive how many people where there skating it was bustling lol, we skated a bit , but my friend could only handle so much and then we went and played some of the games they had there , made a friend with a little girl who followed us most the night it was cute , and we would go on and off the rink skate, watched them play different games see how good alot of people where on their skates it was awesome, i hope one day maybe i could be that good. then it was almost time for the place to close so we got out of there before the rush.

Then we went and got some Chinese food and went back to my placed watch a movie and then called it a night. It was a awesome day i loved every moment of it, it's so fun to be active i wish i had someone the oppisite sex that i can kiss every now and then to do things like this with, don't get me wrong i love hanging with my friend, but ya know how it is. well i am exhausted and ready for bed so good night farewell auf wiedersehen goodbye.

XOXO D

Chop stick friendly

Reporting in lol, so whats been going on is that on Saturday I got to go see "Alice In Wonderland" it was good , not like amazing like Avatar, but it was good, cute and I liked the Cheshire Cat. Been working on my Iguana picture still working on it, so far i've shown my sister and and mom and they both really like it, my sister says i do really well drawing animals, and i would say i have to agree, because once i drew a Golden Tamarin for my mom and it turned out really good, but the only think i didn't like was that i colored it and i don't think i did very good with that. I also drew a tree frog and my mom was like ooo i want that one, but i was like um no its mine lol. i should color this iguana picture but i am afraid to. been having lots of fun drawing and watching alot of movies to name a few, "Zack And Miri Make A Porno", "Forgetting Sarah Marshall", "Yes Man", "Whip It", "Lars and the Real Girl" , some funny as hell , some ok, some really good and some with really good soundtracks, Whip it has a really good soundtrack.

So haven't been on any dates, just been chillin thinking about things and drawing, i still talk with Christopher a little, but not that much. Then last night my Friend Kevin wanted to hang out but we didn't know what to do and he wanted to drink, and i said well buy some shit and bring it over and drink while i roller blade, ever since i watched Whip It i've been wanting to roller blade i have roller blades i didn't think they fit, so after much back and forth he finally decided to come over, which i felt was a bad idea and is, so he came over super emo and i tried to help him, but there was no way he just needed to get drunk i was the wrong person to do that with, he had a huge bag of tacos he was eating and i went and started roller bladeing ,oh man oh man , i had not done it in so long i was scared and wobbly lol, so i did it for a little bit stopped , sat with him talked with him, and then went back out there and i was more confidant and better this time around and it was fun, then i stopped talked with him and was being hyper and happy, but his mood was bringing me down, so i went for round three and this time was doing alot better i was going faster and skating longer it was fun, but he was being a real pill so he said he was going to go , and i was like ok please take your trash and he was like no i am going to leave it you have a trash can near by, and i was like um no i head straight for my room so i don't disturb my fathers wife please take your trash , and he is like no i am not going to and leaves and that got me furious so i flipped him off and stormed inside and deleted him from my face book lol, he is sooo weird, I am not going to talk to him for a while, he just really pissed me off, but it was counter balanced because i had fun roller bladeing now i just need to find a friend who will like to roller blade with me lol.

Then this morning i woke up in tear as i had a terrible dream , i dreamt my sister was sick and was going to die, and it was just aweful because she wouldn't be able to watch her daughter grow up and be there for her, and i didn't want to lose my sister i felt so sad when i woke up and there was tears in my eyes, i am not going to tell her about that dream it was horrific , to have the thought to have to leave and not being able to be there for your child , i know she would cry and such.

Well i am not sure what the week will bring me hope something fun and exciting lol, but who knows, i will write again soon. bye for now.

XOXO D

The Rats Have it

Hi told you i was going to write sooner then wait forever, unfortunately nothing is really going on me and my friend Melissa are near the end of our season 4 of "Bones" I did finish the drawing i was working on for the guy Chris i was talking with , but unlike what i had said that i was going to wait til i was finished with it to end it romantically between us, i just did it one night i just felt i needed to and not wait til my drawing was finished, he was sad i didn't want to continue it , but we are still talking like friends so that is all good. I am definitely going to be seeing "Alice and Wonderland" so that is something to look forward to. My rat Sunflower is doing so much better i am so happy about that. Well that's about all i wanted to say for now . laterz

XOXO D