Life's a gamble

so like a lot has happened but then like not really lol, well last blog i spoke about my poor betta fish being kinda sick looking, and well last sunday after i got back from celebrating my moms birthday he was dead, sad but didn't cry. although i posted on facebook about what happened and some friend of my bff Melissa was saying some rude things, i tried to be nice and solve the situation calmly, but then my sister came in a ripped her a new one lol, it was cool, i like that i have a strong sister who wants to defend me =)

I am going to be returning to work finally, i wish it was something that i found on my own, but looks like that's not going to happen, but i have a chance to go back to my old job, even though i hated it, i need to work, it will be nice to have money to spend and do things, buy things, and be able to get my family things for birthdays and such, i always feel bad that i don't have much to offer, and they have helped me out so much.

I meet this new guy, he is really cool, we been on a few dates and he is really into me and so am i, but i am not counting my chickens just yet you never know what will happen, i mean i thought things were going well with Kurt and that was a dead end. so i am just taking it slow going with the flow.

Been working on this picture for him, and it is coming out really well, everyone seems to like it so that's cool, i had the idea in my head and was so worried how it was going to come out, but even i am proud of it =).

today my sister and her family would come over and we would have dinner and a movie, but when she came over, her husband didn't join, they got in a big fight and he wanted to stay home, and we were supposed to go to the beach, but i don't think that is going to happen, and then when they returned home, he wasn't there, but she said he was on his that he texted her, i just can't believe he is being so childish and doing shit like this , i mean he has a family, two kids and responsibility, i wish i was a boy so that i can be a protector to my sister if she needs it, i don't like her being sad, i know my sister is strong and she will leave and raise her baby on her own but still she doesn't need that bs ya know.

so we will see what happens with everything, men, family, and my art lol. well that's all i want to talk about for now laterz.

XOXO D