Ummm Why

hey decided to get a blog in before i forget and let a lot of day pass by lol.

so on sunday i hung out with that guy again that i went to the movies with and we just chilled and kissed, and sadly i didn't really feel anything =( it sucks, because he is a pretty cool dude, but i don't fancy him intimately, i know i am so weird, i really want to find a guy and there is one right here who i know would be a bf to me , but i've had passed opportunities where i know i could have a guy but i am just not feeling him or them, is it to much to want to find a guy that i want to actually kiss and get down and dirty with, but i just haven't felt that with these guys and it sucks because i want to, i didn't decided that night about my decision about the guy, we hung out again on monday and we went over to his apartment and watched family guy with his sister, and i just looked at him be a lump on the couch and idk wasn't feeling it.

later on Monday i hung out with my bff Melissa and we watched Dexter and nearly finished it, she was suppose to come over again Tuesday night but she was having issues with her car and pussied out, so it gave me time to work on my drawing for the mentos contest and finish it so that was cool.

The guy I've been seeing wants to hang out again , but i don't think i want to, and i am probably going to bail on him, because if i go i am just going because i want the attention and that wouldn't be fair to him ya know, plus So you think you can dance is going to be on around the same time and i really want to watch it =) gees i am terrible.

tonight i was bored and went to chat , it was just to chat and i wasn't really expecting anything from it, but by the end i think i was , i talked to a few people either were horny bastards or just weird, i just hope to find a decent guy who is easy to talk with, we enjoy each others convo, and think each other is cute and his intentions are good and not devious like a lot of the guys on there, so in the end it was just supposed to entertain me, it made me depressed errg, one chat was cool tho because he kept insisting i was a vampire so played along it was cool hehe, i had fun. but men being the pervert mongrels they are brought me down =(

well Friday and so forth i have a busy time ahead of me so i just have to get passed Thursday and i will be ok, don't have to worry about icky men for a little bit ha. I will let ya know what happens after my filled weekend, til then laterz.

XOXO D