Rwar i am back

Just kinda felt like writing, nothing spectacular happened, I just finished watching the Sex And The City movie the first one, haven't even seen the second but i do, i really hate myself for not going to go see it in theaters i did the first one and still have the ticket =) i am a sentimental person or a pack rat lol. Anyways so I was watching this movie and I am just like damn why in the hell does this show and movie make me so happy when I watch it , I mean i know that i wish that i had friends like Carrie does that i could easily talk to and stuff, but think about that just make me sad , but I realized that i love to watch good things happen to them, that i get so overjoyed to see them find love and make their families, i get sad when they get hurt, it's like in a way they are my friend through the time i watch them, but really I just realized it when watching when they smile i smile, I know its fiction, but it does happen, All I want for my Family and friends is happiness. Damn its a good show I still wish that it hadn't of ended, i mean i try to replace it with something else , but really there are no more girl shows that are honest and real and don't bull shit you or put out some pitiful statement, people may go oh it's just about sex, it has it's moments, but mostly it's about finding happiness, love, friendship life, i think everyone should give that show a watch even guys, because i've shown it to guys before and they enjoyed watching it, now the movie does go a little nuts with labels and stuff, but it's all good, and i wish that i could be as fashionable as they are, i love to look cute , i really wish i had this outlook in high school, i just wore whatever and slapped a hoddie over it, i am still not quiet where i want to be at in my clothes department but because of lack of funds that is why , trust me if i had the dough i would be dressing cute, this show always shows me something , each time i go back and watch it, I am sure your like damn settle down it's just a show, but no it's like a guide book parse, here and there their are words of wisdom, thoughts of gold, outlooks that you wouldn't have thought before and makes you go oh yea i know what your talking about , like for love this is what i want, this was said by Carrie Bradshaw in the last episode one season 6 "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love." that is so true who wouldn't want anything less then that, i just don't know why its so hard to find it. Somedays i think it would be better in New York, there is fashion, art, taxis lol, i just feel sometimes that it calls to me like sell shit Danielle and move your ass to new york give it a try, but i know not all of it is glamorous, and probably if i went i would be mugged of my glasses and then i would be wondering around half blind lol, do you think new yorkers secretly dream of coming to California, and Californian's dream of going to New York, maybe possibly, but probably not likely. I just want to live in a life that is going some where, I am doing something, having fun, so i don't look back on my life and go well that sucked and the best thing is leaving the earth to go to where ever we go when we die, i do not want that to happen and i guess that is my biggest fear to not of lived, and doesn't look so good me being freakin 25 and growing older by the day and the best thing in my life right now are my three beautiful ratties and my family. well I should stop dreaming and start living, but for now i should get my ass to bed 3 am gees i am a weirdo, need to start sleeping like a normal person, its funny your suppose to change your rats awake time to yours, because they are nocturnal creatures so they are up late at night, but as their owner you can actually switch their time, but it's like the little rascals switched me to their time.

well my bed is calling to me i should really answer it's call, I am glad i wrote i just felt a surge to do it. good night and pleasant thoughts.

XOXO D