Pain, pain and more pain

this past week I've had a lot of pains some physical, some emotional and then more physical.

I should be in bed, but i just finished watching the new episode of True Blood and it was awesome and I am still all giddy so can't drift off to sleep just yet.

its been another semi boring week not much to report back, my show So You Think You Can Dance ended last week, and the winner was the one i wanted to win yay, the girl won Lauren very happy to see her win although i so thought it was going to be Kent, totally knew it wasn't going to be Robert pehaa lol. I will miss the show and the great music i get from there.

Thursday night there was a meteor shower that i got to see a little of it was pretty cool, also got to hang out with a old friend/ old flame, it was odd at first but then slowly i was ok. Makes me think of that time of my life and i am glad i just remember the good times, which is weird because i almost always remember the bad times only, I asked myself if i could would i want to go out with him again and i don't think so, in some ways he has changed, like he used to smoke, but now he has stopped which is way cool, and other ways too, but then he is still the same and i really couldn't picture myself being his again, I think friends is a good place for us.

Friday my sister and them came over, i wasn't doing so well that day, and i really didn't want to hang out with them, but i clenched my fist and made myself go out and hang out with everyone, that night after they had all left i felt worse then before what sucks even more is i had no one to talk to about it, i did post on facebook that i was feeling lost, and my sister did respond saying she was there if i needed to talk, but it was late and she was probably was with the baby or sleeping, and then for some reason my friend thinks we are fighting, and anyway she isn't the type of person i could confide in anyway, it really is lonely in my world, so i cry and i get it all out and then go to my ratties and they help me get through it as well.

Saturday I was bed ridden i was in so much pain i could barely move it was horrific but i still got up and took a shower and dried off the damn shower doors too well wait no i didn't then but i did half the work i squeegeed it lol, but so i was in bed most of the time trying to sleep off my pain.

Sunday a friend of mine, best friend of my sisters had her baby shower luckily i wasn't in so much pain, when i started to falter my mom gave me some medicine, love my mommy =)anyway it was a pretty good shower i guess, i've only been to two and one i helped host it was my sisters, and then now this one, the food was really good, can't go wrong with Mexican food yummy, I even mades me a plate to take home, so we played games i didn't win any fail, my sister won the baby raffle so happy for her yays, she made a diaper cake anyway and it was awesome so she soooo deserved to win. then when it came time to open the gifts some how i got rounded up to pass them to her and then take them to another place once they were opened it was odd, but kinda glad i got to help in some way, just wish i didn't wear my heels ouchie big time. The cake was delicious me had me some seconds it was just so good. Afterward me and my mom hung out for a little bit.

Also i've been hooked on this anime called Fruits Basket, it's totally cute and awesome i don't know why i didn't watch it before i think because i thought it was too trendy or something, but i know why everyone likes it now because it's freaking awesome,:::: so nerdalicious right now lol::::: Also i have been reading this Manga Graphic Novel called Hot Gimmick, i had Volume 1 and i reread it, and now i am reading the rest of the volumes and i am addicted it's so awesome, i probably would of kept reading the other night til morning but then my back started to hurt really bad, much like it is right now, and when i woke up this morning it hurt even more i went most of the day with the pain finally told my dad and donna about it and she put some hot ice on my back and that really helped like majorly but now it's hurting again, if it hurts when i wake will make sure to put more of the ice hot stuff on.

one last thing before i pass out from back pain lol, not really but it's starting to bug a bit. I still have no idea whats going on with my love life and that's all i am going to say about that , goodnight everybody I am outta here.

XOXO D