REUNITED

Oh my gosh it's been so long, the last blog i Wrote on here was the last time i had internet after that day the internet i had at home was not working at all and probably still not working, right now i am visiting my family and am able to access my blog , it sucked not to be able to go on and blog. not going to write to much. I will just tell you what happened yesterday my sister got some people together and we played games and rock band 2 it was fun. I bought some peach schnapps and made a drink called fuzzy navel it was pretty good , but i don't even get that buzzed the whole night but it was still a fun time. so the night i got in to visit my family i got to check my email in one i had 112 emails, and there was a very surprising one I used to be a member on this website called Suicide Girls and i just got a email from them telling me that a friend on there has paid for me to be a member for three months, i am like but i didn't have any friends on there so that's like super weird I just couldn't believe it so i want to activate it , but it sucks because I don't know if i will have internet when i go back home, and that will waste a free membership ya know. I know i said i wasn't going to write to much but i can't help it things been going on. I've been drawing characters to this new story i want to write, i drew them up pretty good, and i am playing story lines in my head and can't wait to start writing about them. Though lately I've been really depressed things are happening that i am not to ecstatic about and my mood has been going to a bad direction and i have no one to really talk to about it , it sucks really bad because sometimes I just want to scream and cry and tare my hair out and wish that wounds of the past would open back up and spill out my sadness sorry but I've been feeling this way for a while and i just need to let it out this way instead of another not pleasant way. Another bad thing that happened was one day I ran by my rat cage and saw my YumYum coming out of the dome and i wanted to pick her up and hold her so i opened this sliding door thing to there cage and she was coming out , but suddenly i lost my grip and it came crashing down on her hand, i screamed out of horror and quickly removed the sliding door and tried to grab for my hurt yumyum at first she was running so fast i couldn't get her but finally i did and her poor nails got hurt and she was bleeding i began to cry and i got a wet cloth and dabbed the blood off of them and one nail on her back feet was bleeding to and it came off well the like top nail anyway, but i held her and let her just chill inside my shirt and gave her all the sunflower seeds she wanted , then she started being herself and i let her back in the cage, she's fine well seems to be anyway. that was the scariest moment of my life i would of hated myself forever and i had permanently disabled my rattie. i hate that cage i have for them i want to get the a nice big cage but its a little out of my budget right now. I love my yumyum so much she was my first rat every, I felt weary of leaving her to go visit my family but she acted and seemed fine , didn't seem like anything was broken. well i am going to stop there and will try to write again later. Today i get to see my dad , i need to talk to him, i hate having to try to have serious conversations with him , i always end up forgetting what i really want to say saying something stupid and crying. Well hope everyone had a good st. patricks day even if you don't believe in it it's always good to have a reason to celebrate i mean yesterday we were celebrating the first day of spring lol not really but hell why not. I decorated my myspace for easter so check it out i have a really bad ass song on there .... it's awesome. Blueberries are good but Raspberries are delicious .

XOXO D